Surfer & I have had some struggles lately or should I say he's dealing with some conflict. We had a conversation that he had been avoiding. I wanted to let him know about my needs & basically put the ball in his court. He basically said that the conflict he's experiencing has led him to an introverted period. I know he's hurting for some reason but not sure if it's internal, external or some of both. I just hate to see my outgoing, happy, extrovert suffering.
He lashed out at me & then the next time I saw him apologized. His version of mean is mild compared to most people. He expressed that lately his heart has felt cold, it felt colder when he lashed out & he wanted to stop but couldn't. He said that he has issues talking to those he's closest to when he feels this way but I'm still his best friend.
At this point all I can do is give him time. We love each other but I don't know if we'll remain lovers or settle into a close friendship. We've had rough spots in the past but still communicated. This time we aren't & there's a distance & coolness between us.
At any rate our relationship has changed & I feel as if I'm mourning what was while anxious about what's to come.
Thanks for letting me vent. I'm glad to have found this forum where I can express my thoughts.
He lashed out at me & then the next time I saw him apologized. His version of mean is mild compared to most people. He expressed that lately his heart has felt cold, it felt colder when he lashed out & he wanted to stop but couldn't. He said that he has issues talking to those he's closest to when he feels this way but I'm still his best friend.
At this point all I can do is give him time. We love each other but I don't know if we'll remain lovers or settle into a close friendship. We've had rough spots in the past but still communicated. This time we aren't & there's a distance & coolness between us.
At any rate our relationship has changed & I feel as if I'm mourning what was while anxious about what's to come.
Thanks for letting me vent. I'm glad to have found this forum where I can express my thoughts.
