My partner and I have been open in the lifestyle for about 2 years now. Before, we were still active with other people, we just didn’t understand that you could actually communicate about it. I think that’s what really started some wonderful relationships with some other couples.
However, some shit went down that completely changes how I see the scene, and I’m having a hard time facing the people that saw me go through that. I keep feeling like it’s a constant power struggle, with me having to recover how I am seen in others eyes. The kind of sexism that women are forced to play the part of makes me sick, and it makes me want to not be beautiful, or appealing to the man's gaze. It ends up becoming a toxic play between wanting and not wanting men’s approval. But these things are within the balance of the polarities of life.
Anywho, what actually happened, that I guess I’ve been traumatized by, was with another couple that we are really good friends with, whom we met through another lifestyle couple. We were doing a little bit of G, so her boyfriend fell asleep pretty early on in the night. We were all staying up watching movies and having fun, but at some point I dozed off, as well.
Hey. He should be fully satisfying the both of you to keep the energy there. There is no way I could overlook the other person, especially with me being the man. I am new to the site and really seeing a lot that I can help with. My wife and I are new to this and looking to spice our marriage up.I woke up to my boyfriend having sex with her. I crawled over, trying to look in his eyes and get involved, but he wasn’t looking at me. So I spoke up and asked if I could have some, as well. He seemed surprised by what I was asking, but came over and gave me a little bit. I told him he could switch off, but when he went back to her again, he was about to come. She freaked out and said, "I don’t like come on me." So he pulled out and stood up and put his dick into my face and my mouth, and came all over my face.
I felt like I have never before played the part in such a sexist act. I felt like I was only there to play my duty as girlfriend. I didn’t get to come. Women almost never are taken care of in these situations first before the guy comes. It’s all so selfish, like women are still just the object of a man's greatness. And now, I roll over so that he can have other women, too.
Now believe me, I am fully bisexual, so I get as much out of these things as I can, but how do I pick my head up again after this and continue to play a part that I know will someday take advantage of me again?! I’ve tried to discuss it, but it seems to me that he just wants me to get over it.
This thread is four years old. If you are new to the forum, please introduce yourself in the "Introduction" section, or start your own thread in one of the other sections, explaining exactly how you can help us, as someone who is new to this and looking to spice up your marriage.Hey. He should be fully satisfying the both of you to keep the energy there. There is no way I could overlook the other person, especially with me being the man. I am new to the site and really seeing a lot that I can help with. My wife and I are new to this and looking to spice our marriage up.