Kynde
Active member
So Thanksgiving was ugly and beautiful. And it shows why poly works for some of us. I have a background of severe trauma, and struggle with my emotions sometimes. Yesterday I had a C-PTSD emotional storm, triggered by the holidays and some other stuff. I was really hurting. I even temporarily deactivated my FB page which is my way of soft disappearing myself.
I had been invited to Thanksgiving by one partner but I was not feeling well enough to face the crowd.
My three partners knew I was hurting but didn't know how badly, and I didn't want to bother them on Thanksgiving. Finally I did reach out by text.
Traveler is a cuddle partner, he left Thanksgiving early to drive back home so I could go to his house and he held me while I cried and got through the storm.
Ned called me while I was with Traveler, and on speakerphone the two men talked to each other and to me, and further calmed me down.
Sid was having a romantic weekend with his wife, but he checked in with me via text a few times, and even texted Ned(the newer one) to tell him a few things about me and my emotional storms.
I was feeling so bad at the beginning of this weekend, my own family is awful, and I was feeling very lonely and depressed about my childhood trauma, etc. And in the end I felt loved, held, and was able to put myself back together thanks to the team effort of my poly posse.
I am not sure I will ever be able to have a single partner fulfill all of my needs-- I'm a bit too much, and I accept this. So poly works for me, and others in similar situations.
Emotional Flashbacks
I had been invited to Thanksgiving by one partner but I was not feeling well enough to face the crowd.
My three partners knew I was hurting but didn't know how badly, and I didn't want to bother them on Thanksgiving. Finally I did reach out by text.
Traveler is a cuddle partner, he left Thanksgiving early to drive back home so I could go to his house and he held me while I cried and got through the storm.
Ned called me while I was with Traveler, and on speakerphone the two men talked to each other and to me, and further calmed me down.
Sid was having a romantic weekend with his wife, but he checked in with me via text a few times, and even texted Ned(the newer one) to tell him a few things about me and my emotional storms.
I was feeling so bad at the beginning of this weekend, my own family is awful, and I was feeling very lonely and depressed about my childhood trauma, etc. And in the end I felt loved, held, and was able to put myself back together thanks to the team effort of my poly posse.
I am not sure I will ever be able to have a single partner fulfill all of my needs-- I'm a bit too much, and I accept this. So poly works for me, and others in similar situations.
Emotional Flashbacks
