pittarotaro
New member
I'm a 30-something year old finally living free and happy.
Relationships were difficult for me from the start. I'm a CSA and have had years of trauma compounded onto each other, so my initial approach to sexuality was very cold and distant in a feeble attempt to protect myself.
My first significant sexual experiences were twisted in the abuse, so when I started dating I gravitated towards figures that resembled my abusers. At 19 I got married to a marine who eventually cheated on me. From then on I had narcissistic partners with serious personality disorders. By my second ex-husband I drew enough support and strength to escape.
When I returned home an old childhood friend came to help. This friend, L, eventually became a lover and now a partner. He's the father of my only child, and I absolutely adore him. He is the reason why I feel like polyamory works. We communicate very well and set appropriate boundaries. He not only does that, but works with my traumas through deep compassion and patience. He has always been naturally compersive, and we've seen each other through separate relationships growing up. Maybe that's why I'm happy when he dates. I really hope the ladies he takes interest in are deserving and worthy of him.
I've attempted to open up my romantic relationships before, but my abusive partners were using it as a way to cheat in a way. L is the healthiest and happiest relationship I've ever been in, and it's thanks to him that I can finally live my truth!
Relationships were difficult for me from the start. I'm a CSA and have had years of trauma compounded onto each other, so my initial approach to sexuality was very cold and distant in a feeble attempt to protect myself.
My first significant sexual experiences were twisted in the abuse, so when I started dating I gravitated towards figures that resembled my abusers. At 19 I got married to a marine who eventually cheated on me. From then on I had narcissistic partners with serious personality disorders. By my second ex-husband I drew enough support and strength to escape.
When I returned home an old childhood friend came to help. This friend, L, eventually became a lover and now a partner. He's the father of my only child, and I absolutely adore him. He is the reason why I feel like polyamory works. We communicate very well and set appropriate boundaries. He not only does that, but works with my traumas through deep compassion and patience. He has always been naturally compersive, and we've seen each other through separate relationships growing up. Maybe that's why I'm happy when he dates. I really hope the ladies he takes interest in are deserving and worthy of him.
I've attempted to open up my romantic relationships before, but my abusive partners were using it as a way to cheat in a way. L is the healthiest and happiest relationship I've ever been in, and it's thanks to him that I can finally live my truth!