Steve's ENM journey

[Magdlyn]

That bastard! What a shitty thing to do.

It's like some people enjoy the pursuit, and hitting that goal, one night of sex, more than actually having an ongoing relationship. It's the thrill of the hunt, and nothing more. I feel, why go to all that work, and bang someone once, just to disappear and start that whole process over again? Some kind of narcissistic duper's delight? Oh well, as they say about whores, you don't pay them to come, you pay them to leave. One does end up feeling like a whore. That guy I mentioned, he bought me sushi and a nice Sapporo. So, $40 (and much romantic urging, online and on our actual date) got him laid. That's a good deal cheaper than a decent prostitute, for him. Grrr...

This whole past week feels so strange.

Now that I am looking back, there were some cracks. She never mentioned where she worked, while I gave her my business card on the first date. She never told me exactly where she lived and always gave vague information about her past. I also feel very awkward as I showed her pictures of my family. Was she always planning to disappear? I would have at least appreciated a simple text saying that she didn't want to see me anymore.

She actually knows where I live, she knows where I work, knows my wife's and kids' names and how they look. I feel like I failed at protecting my family's privacy. She just seemed like she wanted something long lasting.

My wife is fine with the texting. She teases me about it, but we have been very sexually active the past few weeks. We have never been happier.