Livingmybestlife
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I broke things off with my long-term boyfriend in January. I spent a lot of time grieving this relationship. He disappeared from the places and friends I know about a month ago, after I first saw him in public.
I had deleted all his information from my cell. Yesterday, my phone rang. My preteen answered, said she didn't know a Kyle, and thought he had the wrong number. A few minutes later, I got a text from someone else. I looked at my phone and thought I had texts from my sister. I was halfway sick and didn't pay attention to the fact that there was no name associated with the number. It was the area code and first 3 of my bitch sister's number. So I texted something about my child. Then I realized oops, maybe it was him, and asked, and he said yeah.
He then went on to say he didn't think I was going to talk to him, since I pretended not to know him when he called. I said when did you call. He said just a few mins ago. I said it was my daughter who answered. I asked how he was, what he was up to. It was very much nothing. I said I had to go give my child a breathing treatment. That night he asked how the treatment went, I didn't answer as I was asleep. He texted this morning around 5 am a few times. I was asleep.
I have a feeling he wants to do a FWB thing. I just can't. I know some people can. But I love him so much that it would hurt me too much to put myself in that position. I can't have him in and out of my life like a revolving door. He doesn't seem to get the fact, that when he told me he wanted to go sport fuck, and not tell me, I told him I couldn't do that and I didn't want to go there. It has to do with fluid bonds and STDs, and how I feel like it like it would be disrespecting me when he knows my issues with it.
He actually said, "Well, you said you didn't want to talk to me for awhile." What I said was, I didn't want to see or talk to him again. It was too painful, that we wanted different things.
I called my bff. She said, "He has a way of reeling you in, and perhaps it's best if you don't talk to him at all." He reels me in because we have this string between us, and I love him. I believe he loves me too. I know he wants to be free and have no responsibilities. After watching people I love have to have surgeries and die because of STDs, I just can't be this person who has a partner who has little regard to just free fucking. Other people can, but it isn't me.
Now I wonder if I should just block him. So so hard.
I had deleted all his information from my cell. Yesterday, my phone rang. My preteen answered, said she didn't know a Kyle, and thought he had the wrong number. A few minutes later, I got a text from someone else. I looked at my phone and thought I had texts from my sister. I was halfway sick and didn't pay attention to the fact that there was no name associated with the number. It was the area code and first 3 of my bitch sister's number. So I texted something about my child. Then I realized oops, maybe it was him, and asked, and he said yeah.
He then went on to say he didn't think I was going to talk to him, since I pretended not to know him when he called. I said when did you call. He said just a few mins ago. I said it was my daughter who answered. I asked how he was, what he was up to. It was very much nothing. I said I had to go give my child a breathing treatment. That night he asked how the treatment went, I didn't answer as I was asleep. He texted this morning around 5 am a few times. I was asleep.
I have a feeling he wants to do a FWB thing. I just can't. I know some people can. But I love him so much that it would hurt me too much to put myself in that position. I can't have him in and out of my life like a revolving door. He doesn't seem to get the fact, that when he told me he wanted to go sport fuck, and not tell me, I told him I couldn't do that and I didn't want to go there. It has to do with fluid bonds and STDs, and how I feel like it like it would be disrespecting me when he knows my issues with it.
He actually said, "Well, you said you didn't want to talk to me for awhile." What I said was, I didn't want to see or talk to him again. It was too painful, that we wanted different things.
I called my bff. She said, "He has a way of reeling you in, and perhaps it's best if you don't talk to him at all." He reels me in because we have this string between us, and I love him. I believe he loves me too. I know he wants to be free and have no responsibilities. After watching people I love have to have surgeries and die because of STDs, I just can't be this person who has a partner who has little regard to just free fucking. Other people can, but it isn't me.
Now I wonder if I should just block him. So so hard.
