The "How Are You Doing" Thread (redux)

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Feeling worn out...must be that time of year.

Lately, I'm just overwhelmed, tired, run down and feel in need of a week away by the ocean with an umbrella drink. Sadly, that isn't going to happen.

I've been feeling as if I spoke up about all the thoughts that are swirling in my mind lately, I'd hurt and piss off a lot of people. Sometimes being honest, completely honest, just isn't good for relationships in general. Not just romantic ones. And biting my tongue is hard...it makes me feel under pressure and stressed out, but it's necessary.

~screams into her pillow in frustration~
 
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I'm tired and I had a frustrating day, but got some things done and am now feeling okay. Just okay, not great.

I've totally not paid attention to any news or info about the blizzard that's expected tomorrow. I have been completely oblivious and am not really prepared. I hope my power stays on. I'll be at work when the nor'easter is supposed to hit, so we'll probably get out early tomorrow. If public transportation grinds to a halt, it looks like I might have to walk home through the park. It's only a little over a mile and a half, which is fine. That's equal to only about 30 short blocks, which is nothing for a New Yorker. I just hope no snow-laden tree branches fall on my head and kill me.
 
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Last Thursday (a week ago) I was angsty and irritable. I leaned heavily on MrS to assuage my angst - even though he wasn't the cause of it. He gave and gave until I had asked one too many times - then he snapped and felt bad because he couldn't "make" me feel better. Oops. This snapped me into perspective and I addressed things appropriately.

Good for a day or two.

Then I am back to cranky and irritable due to another minor issue...lather. rinse. repeat.

Tuesday I was home with both of my boys and had a LOVELY homey evening (nothing out of the ordinary, just everyday warm lovingness).

Wednesday - they had plans and were gone before I got home, missed them but no issues. They ended up staying with friends but I txt'd / spoke with each of them before bed.

Today, inexplicably happy and content - despite the fact that I wouldn't see them again until late at night and they would probably be asleep. Snippets of Tuesday evening comfortably running through my brain.

Right now? MrS snoring in the bed, Dude snoring on the couch, dogs snoring on the floor. Me catching up on my poly "stories" here and just ... really happy with my life.

JaneQ

PS. With regards to my recent bouts of angst/irritability with Dude - I think that these are relationship "growing pains" - we've had several months of calm seas since the NRE has worn off and are now learning to relate to each other as we "really are" - nothing major, no huge blow-ups - but a necessary adjustment. (After each "bout" I find we are closer and more and more on the "same page" - I think I did the same sort of thing with MrS years ago...just feels new and raw since I am out of practice?)

PPS. I really AM a crotchety cynical curmudgeon at heart...these boys just somehow manage to melt that into warm contentment on a regular basis - what a magic trick!
 
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nycindie, and any of our other noreasters, I hope you all survived the blizzard.

Jane, thanks for the drop of sunshine!

Me, I've had a redonkulus flu, and pretty much have been in my apartment since 1/30. I was at work two half days last week, then couldn't breathe on Tuesday night. Against my own judgement, and at the urging of advice nurse and my doc (who happened to be the doc on call that night) went to the ER. Stupid. I sat there four hours, no one who had been there when I arrived got seen, so I came home (I was afraid with lack of sleep I wouldn't be able to get home if I stayed)(and I knew I wasn't bad enough to be admitted). Slept all day, talked to my sweet FBF, and he said 'call me back if you die.' (I kept joking about it)

Not five minutes after I hung up from him, I started full-blown norovirus symptoms. Lost five pounds in 6ish hours. Again, nurse & docs freak out. I must be seen. Ah, no. Not making that mistake again. My clinic had no appointments and wanted me to go to urgent care. So I could get another virus? I think not.

Yesterday, I put shoes on for the first time in three days. Felt like my life force was returning. I wanted to go out and PLAY. Fortunately, I didn't. Because today, I pretty much feel like death might be more pleasant again.

So grateful to be part of this forum so I don't feel quite so isolated.
 
So the boys are off together on a westward road-trip. So far they have done 1800 miles in 2 1/2 days. They are taking the day tomorrow to stop and do some National Park hiking. I'm flying out on Friday to meet them and spend a week before flying back while they drive.

I miss them but am glad they are having a good time. I was just a little worried - because spending that much time in the car with someone can be a strain and MrS is used to traveling with just me (and we are really good at traveling together) but apparently Dude's style of road-trip is pretty compatible with what we are used to.

Before he left, Dude was planning some activities for us at the destination we are meeting up at (he used to live in the area). Had a funny moment as he was making reservations for one activity as he almost signed us up for the "Valentine's Day" package...then realized that making a reservation for a "romantic dinner for three" might be problematic :rolleyes:

Reminds me of the time last spring when we were in AC and I had a tough time getting the clerk to give me a room with a king-sized bed (as I had reserved.) We finally go that all straightened out and then....I asked for three keys. Confusion. He said: "You know this room has a king-sized bed, right?"....I was soooooo tempted to reply: "Oh, REALLY?! In that case I'll take FOUR."

Life is grand (even if the house is a little lonely right now with just me and the animals).

JaneQ
 
Ho boy has my life been boring and "interesting" in alternating spurts.

So about a month ago I get fluid build up in my ear. It turns into a middle ear infection but doesn't really hurt. What it does do is damage the workings of my ear and, even after the infection was gone, made me mostly deaf in my left side. Seeing as all my senses are pretty sharp it was very disconcerting to have a side people could sneak up on. Thankfully about a week or so ago my hearing in that ear returned to almost normal.

Other then that, it's been assorted craziness with my friends and work. What's supposed to be the slow time at work has been anything but. Orders keep coming in and we keep working OT to try and get them out the door.

I'm looking forward to, hopefully, getting a month or two of relative stillness in my life.

Well okay, a new romance might be nice. But other then that!
 
Woot! Got good news about my job! There is plenty of work for me if my current situation falls through. I am so relieved. I was really worried about it.
 
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I miss them but am glad they are having a good time. I was just a little worried - because spending that much time in the car with someone can be a strain and MrS is used to traveling with just me (and we are really good at traveling together) but apparently Dude's style of road-trip is pretty compatible with what we are used to.

Before he left, Dude was planning some activities for us at the destination we are meeting up at (he used to live in the area). Had a funny moment as he was making reservations for one activity as he almost signed us up for the "Valentine's Day" package...then realized that making a reservation for a "romantic dinner for three" might be problematic :rolleyes:
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Thanks for giving me my first and second proper 'lol' on the site. The idea of the romantic Valentine's for 3 has amused me greatly!
 
First night of SCA heavy practice. Tired, sore, but good. Learned a lot, even if I got my bell rung a lot. So much different from Dag in both culture and fighting.
 
My husband just got a local job offer which means he doesn't have to go interview in CA for another position which was going to be scheduled for next week. Now I don't have to worry about seeing if my relationship with Brian could work as a LDR, and the new person I'm dating doesn't have to wonder if there's no point in dating if I'm picking up and moving at some point. A CA job would've meant I'd be in a LDR with Adam for at least 6 months while we sorted out what to do with the house and if it was a permanent move down there or not, I am relieved beyond words.

He had been getting more stressed about his job this last year and I am so relieved he will have a new challenge he's looking forward to. And WTF, the company is sending us a gift basket too. Yes we sure as hell will take your awesome job and your cookies!
 
That's awesome news Anne.

As for me, work is wicked stressful right now. Thankfully I have Runic Wolf and Wendigo to keep me sane. I also have a new corset coming in the mail this afternoon. :)
 
STILL missing them...

The boys finally got to the next planned stop on their drive home from our vacation (I flew back last Friday). They were alleged delayed by the snowstorms in the plains (...I have another theory, that they are easily distracted :D)

Theoretically, they could be home as early as Sunday evening (watch me NOT holding my breath :cool:).

I generally don't mind being home by myself (blessed quiet - TV off, stereo off) but I am REALLY looking forward to some cuddles when they get back.

On the plus side, I am starting to learn how to talk to Dude on the phone (I am not generally good at phone conversations - no non-verbal communication cues).

Today got off to a bad start - overslept my alarm, my uterus decided that it hates me and I awoke in a pool of blood (sorry for the TMI - look away) - soaked through everything (as I am floundering around and dealing with as my phone and pager are going off with work wondering where I am). No coffee. Not a fast waker-upper. Grumpy, grumpy JaneQ

BUT, I am home now. The rest of the day was not horrible. The boys will be home...sometime.

Just glad it's Friday.

JaneQ
 
Down in a hole..

I've been feeling depressed and overwhelmed for the last few weeks. Facing some health issues, waiting for surgery and worrying. Also dealing with a teenage daughter who herself is depressed and has major emotional issues, most of which she takes out on me.

And feeling resentful of the metamour a bit. My boyfriend is currently away on a 4-day romantic trip with his wife and well, I miss him. I know it's just a few days but still. It's not just the trip I resent but the fact that our relationship seems to be at a stand still. I guess I just want more than what is possible...and it hurts :(
 
Been worried about Runic Wolf the last few days. He's been abnormally angry for no real reason that he can identify. Sometimes the hardest thing for me is sitting back, knowing I can't really do anything to help, when all I want to do is wave a magic wand and make it all better.
 
Kicking butt at work and it's getting noticed. Doing way more then they expected of me. Set up a CC lathe on my own and only needed a little help with the final tweeks (a few things our foreman hadn't taught me yet) and again being asked to train others in tasks around the shop. My work values and appreciates what I do.

Other then that, really frustrated with a lot of the things in my life. Dating as a ploy male sucks hard. No matter what women always think I'm cheating or I forced my wife to tell them it's okay to date me. That combined with the hurt from my last break up almost makes me want to give up completely.
 
I'm back! Life is insane on a variety of fronts, but so far everyone is still breathing..... although I gave it my best shot to stop last week, apparently. I had no idea a tooth could kill you.
 
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