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Just another week in poly paradise. Well, things aren't perfect, health-wise, but so it goes. I am so glad to be starting chiropractic for my back, but it's going to take a while. I felt so good on Saturday though, I was able to work on my hobbies and since it was almost 60, take a short hike with pixi and the dog on our favorite trail. It's great how little snow we got this year compared to the last 2 winters. Thank god.

Miss pixi and I also had a lovely Saturday night date. We rented Black Mass (with Johnny Depp in threatening psychopath mode instead of playing a cartoon character like he's been doing for far too long). Very enjoyable. After that we were both in the mood to play with the candles. miss p Topped me. Oh god it was so fun. A different kind of masochistic pain for me. She worked on me for at least a half an hour, and I was flying in subspace for an hour or two until I went to bed. We'd experimented before to an extent with Yankee Candles, but the proper play candles were better, in varying temperatures.

pixi got really turned on decorating/torturing me. She's so much more sexual these days! All a part of her personal growth. I know I've helped her become more confident and less repressed over the years, but her Master, and their particular kink activities, have helped her make great strides too. I appreciate his help! Just another benefit of polyamory.

Both our bfs are sick now though! Punk came down with a wretched ick last Wednesday, the day after our last date, and has been miserable. (Luckily I don't seem to have caught it.) I texted him yesterday and he is still in the throes of it, but just starting to turn the corner. He may have been high on his cold meds. He was so funny and cracked me up. I miss him!

And miss p's Master is sick. This is the third cold he's had just this year! Ugh! But I benefited since she didn't go see him on Saturday so she and I had our movie and wax date. :)

Yesterday our friend Teddy came over and we treated him to his first ever pedicure for his birthday. We all got pedis. I was happy there was another guy there getting a pedi too so he wasn't the only one. He had thick callouses on his feet-- it was a wonder to see how much came off! He was thrilled, and joked he'll need a smaller shoe size now. He got an opalescent disco ball silver glitter polish. He, like pixi, is also coming out of his shell as he gets older (he's 32). He has a strong femme/drag queen side, and all winter has been posting pix of himself on his FB every Friday. He calls it Fierce Friday, and paints his fingernails and wears glittery scarves, wide brimmed hats, Doc Martens, to go to work and school. He even has a pair of pink flowered vinyl Docs. I am encouraging him to do eyeliner, hehe. He says he gets some strange looks from people when he's out on the subway and stuff, but also some compliments. Go Teddy!
 
Funky hats and scarves are the best :D

I have been reading a book on japenese organisation. And adapting those techniques to my wardrobe. I spent three hours organising my lcoset of bags and scarves and clothes hehehe. Theres nothing more satisfying that doing a long TLC self care, and seeing when others enjoy it too. :D
You're like the mama bear of your own tribe. Its really wonderful. Adopt me too? ;) I would be happy to learn allll about wax!
Your post just got me all hot and bothered!!:p
 
Mags, I love reading about you and miss pixi, and the people you have in your lives. It all sounds so awesome!

And I'm glad miss pixi is coming into her own. It's amazing how far one can go with love and support.
 
Thanks, friends.

So, let's see what's new... Punk is feeling better. He came over last Saturday, I think, and also on Tuesday. We planned to watch election returns, since he and miss pixi and I had all voted in the primaries for Bernie earlier in the day. It was depressing and nauseating watching fuckface Trump getting so many votes. Turns out Bernie didn't quite win in our state either! 1 point difference between him and Hillary.

So we switched gears. We had been eating fun tapas type Middle Eastern foods, and we checked the DVR and decided to watch The Omen, that pixi had recorded a few days earlier.

Here's an odd thing: I wasn't in the mood for sex with him. I don't know why... I was really feeling attracted to miss pixi all day. Also, with all the work I've had done to my back, I am feeling odd, physically, and also emotionally. Plus, Punk and I always have sex when he visits. I think part of me just wanted a night to cuddle and not actually fuck. I said before, he doesn't seem to cuddle much. He is kinda hyper and tends to sit forward more on the edge of the couch instead of lounging back with me.

But since it was a scary movie that I'd somehow never seen (it came out in '76!), and I get spooked easily at scary movie moments, I was often clinging to him. And we did some smooching now and then. And in between the political TV and the movie when we went to get drinks, he did give me a little spanking and butt rubbing to cheer me up, lol. I hope he didn't mind we didn't actually have sex.

He stayed til midnight, until the movie was over. Miss P was with us the whole time. It was nice he stayed so late. Once he left, Miss P indicated she was feeling lustful and since I'd been kind of hot for her all day, we had some great sex! Weird of me to avoid sex with Punk but more than willing to go for it with her. I don't quite understand it myself.

So, tomorrow the 3 of us are going to an antique mall. Punk and I had once gone thrifting and he said, next time, let's go antiquing! So we are gonna do it! And we will probably have sex when we get back, heh.

This is the first time the three of us have gone out as a group. It should be fine. A nice little adventure.

Miss p spent last Sat night overnight at her Master's but she isnt sure about this weekend.
 
Our Friday threesome V date day was great. We had a blast at the antique mall. I got 2 great pieces of Pyrex. One was one of my sought after "holy grails" for a good price, the other is a piece many people like, but I don't, so I can trade it at my next local collectors' swap meet.

pixi found a leather vest that is beautifully cut, priced right, and she just looks super hot in it. She loves vests. It will be good outerwear for her. She also got a 1926 illustrated Peter Pan book, so Art Deco.

Punk loves to shop. So great to be with a man who likes it! And by that I mean window shop. He didn't get anything but enjoyed looking at "boy stuff," gadgets and tools. He took some interest in the vintage clothes. He also has a thing for antique watches, so he searched in all the jewelry cases. He doesn't much appreciate my love for vintage glass, but I blame that on his color-blindness. However, at one point, he pointed at a piece of Fiestaware and said, Don't you have one of those coffee pots? I said, yes, I do have one of those disc pitchers.

After 2 hours of shopping, we drove to a gourmet pizza place in pixi's old neighborhood. We were all starving so it was good to get nourished before the drive back to the burbs. Punk took notice they served us on Fiestaware there too!

My back had been extra bad since the day before... Hopefully it's a good sign muscles are getting rearranged, but... OW. So driving to Boston and then slowly walking in the mall, and sitting in a hard chair at the restaurant, and driving home, I was in pretty bad shape despite my usual pain meds. Both my lovers asked how I was doing while we were eating, and when I revealed my pain was only "bearable," Punk said he'd give me a massage as soon as we got home.

So when we got home, first I bent over the couch back and he rubbed me for several minutes. Then said, "Wouldn't this feel better if you were naked?"

Remember how, on our last date, I wasn't in the mood for sex with him? Part of it is, he has some trouble with ED because of his psych meds. I don't mind terribly. He is really good at kissing, breast play, and kinks such as spanking and flogging. And. He adores giving me oral sex. Never have I met a person who loves it so much, and is also super super good at it. Edited to add, he loves to receive oral too, and responds really well to that. So basically things are fine. But the last 3 times we'd had sex, his cock hasn't cooperated, intercourse hasn't worked. He gets frustrated with it, and shoot, I do too.

Well, maybe taking a break from sex altogether on our last date helped, because my naked back massage didn't last long. His body had other ideas. :) It was great. Sometimes he takes Viagra, but none was needed at all, that night.

After sex we watched some Die Antwoord videos, since we'd been listening to them in the car on pixi's mp3, and Punk wasn't familiar with their crazy artistic videos.

My back was even worse the next day (yesterday, Sunday) but I soldiered through. pixi went to her Master's for the afternoon (they had their usual great time, it seems better every time!), and I took a long-ass nap. Felt better when I got up, the apparent spasms in my back finally started to unkink. I'd invited Punk to keep me company while pixi was out, but he wasn't free, and it's just as well, since I needed to heal. I will see him today. :)
 
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So...yeah. I didn't see Punk Monday since his mom was having an extra bad day. He let me know early in the day he couldn't come. So he came on Tuesday, which was fine. Told me his mom fell asleep minutes after when he would've come to see me the previous day! He felt frustrated from that. But he stayed home in case she woke and needed something.

So we had a nice evening on Tuesday, sexy times, played Silver Screen Trivial Pursuit with pixi, etc.

Meanwhile, during the week, I was chatting and then texting with an OKC boy (age 25) I mentioned on the OKC messages thread. We seem to have a ton in common. He is very intelligent. He is very drawn to older women, but has never had the chance to date one. He has a car, and offered to come out to my town (from Boston where he is a student). I only had Saturday free, since I was going to see Punk on Sunday, and next weekend I have social events and work. He is only free weekends. So we made plans for 5:30 to get a drink or whatever, at my local watering hole.

But sadly, early Sat he messaged me to say he couldn't make it, as a paper he needed to write for Monday wasn't going well, and he had to work on it. No time for play. Oh well, I think we will get together sooner or later. He is very well spoken and polite. And CUTE. 6'1," lean/muscular, big blue eyes, long hair and nice beard, kind of a Jesus look.

During the week Punk and I made plans to go for a walk (seeing as my back is still improving, thanks all the gods and dogs!) on Sunday (yesterday) but we had to change plans. Saturday my daughter went into labor with her 2nd child. 5 weeks early. Well, it all went fine, her labor was pain free! And she only needed 2 pushes to push out the little 5 1/2 pounder. Somehow the baby is in great shape, breathing room air. miss pixi and I went to see them at the hospital yesterday. Baby Girl was still phlegmy and not too interested in nursing yet. But they are trying!

I got to see my older granddaughter too, who is only 14 months, still just a baby herself! But oh she is so adorable and fun to play with. I don't visit them much since my son in law is... well, he's just kinda weird and annoying. But I must make an effort. Thing is, he's on disability (basically he has the brain power of a 7 year old), and he only works part time. Plus he's really religious and will go on and on about God, fundamentalist version. My daughter always tries to schedule my visits when he's home, but I wish she wouldn't!

Anyway, my granddaughter remembered me and miss pixi from our previous visits. She isn't really talking yet, but she got all wiggly and made excited sounds when we arrived. We had such fun. I brought her clothes and toys I'd collected at the thrift store over the last month. She loved the toys, my daughter loved the clothes. Big sister baby made cute sad sounds when we left and gave us big hugs. We only stayed an hour 15, since it was her naptime, and her little sis needed to feed, and of course my daughter needed rest too. I'd wanted to keep our visit short. Two ladies from their church were also visiting when we arrived. I hope no one else showed up while they were trying to rest and nurse!

So, we got home around 5:30. I'd already told Punk we couldn't go for a walk in the afternoon, because of the birth. So I texted him when I got home. No answer. Texted him 2 more times. Finally at 8 he texted me he'd fallen asleep! sigh... Silly man. It didn't seem worth it for him to come over so late. It's a half hour drive and he'd texted me the moment he woke up.

So, I basically got stood up by two men this weekend. lol Dating is weird sometimes. Turned out I was very glad I didn't have the evening date with New Boy since I heard about my daughter's labor around 6PM. But it would've been nice to have seen Punk! He was very sorry he missed our date and he's coming tonight.
 
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Congrats, that's wonderful news!!
 
Thank you!
 
Updating... I guess the biggest fly in the ointment is that miss p has been struggling with her anxieties more than usual the last couple of weeks. She's got an issue with one aspect of her transition/gender confirmation surgery plans, and just can't seem to come to terms with it, to make a decision about it. And then the stereo in our living room went kaput. Well, it is a CD player she found in the trash, we've had it for years, but it bummed her out we can't have good music in here.

Then, our landlord and his electrician friend were coming by to update our electrical box, and since the part of the basement it is in is pixi's territory for her storage, work benches, etc., she had to clean it up. It had become a big ol mess.

So she spent hours over 2 or 3 days cleaning all that, then vacuumed the upstairs and mopped the kitchen floor, front hall and back hall. Then her little handicapped body of course gave out. I wish she'd be able to do little bits of cleaning as she goes, but she always seems to do it in one huge effort, 2 or 3 times a year. That is just her way.

So between anxieties and physical pain, she's been kind of a mess. And my back has been in transition too. My sex drive has been lower since I got injured at PT a month ago. So we hadn't had sex in FOREVER, l mean like 3 weeks? Since doing the wax, maybe.

When Punk comes over, he and I have good sex! He's just like, "Let's go, baby," and we go! And it's good. But miss p is like a skittish colt sometimes when it comes to sex.

However, just in the past couple days, everything has been improving... to be continued...
 
So, I've been going to chiro for a month now. First 2 weeks it was 3 times a week. Last week and this week, twice a week. Starting next week, once a week. I am finally starting to feel real improvement and my sex drive has come rushing back. I was getting flirty with pixi again as soon as that happened, but she was in her funk and not seeming interested. Finally yesterday morning when I went to wake her, I gave her oral sex. But she didn't really get into it. She said it felt good, but she didn't get fully aroused and so, for me, it was kind of a bust.

I hate when we don't have enough sex. I get to have sex with Punk, which is great, but I feel less bonded to pixi when she and I don't connect that way.

So anyway, we've been talking about it, since we always talk over everything. I made her know I wanted to get sex going again, planting the seed. But not trying to exert undue pressure, as that always has the effect of making her less interested.

I had Punk coming over last night and I knew he'd get the full brunt of my newfound horniness. My back is feeling better than it has been the entire time I've known him! So after an hour or so of chat and visiting, we went to the bedroom. Well! I have to say he's been a better lover than ever the last 3 times I've seen him. He is getting good and hard, and not just from oral, but totally groovy at the fucking as well! I don't know what changed... I had blamed his meds, but maybe it's partly psychological. He is feeling more and more comfortable with me, and being here, and acting more lovey and cuddly in general.

Despite his mom's illness, he's been taking care of himself. He is doing more and more lovely things with his wood inlay work, getting enough pieces together to sell at a shop that has offered to take them. Also, he has made a new male friend and has been seeing other friends as well. And he dropped this one female friend he's been hanging out with. She was getting petty and annoying. (I suspect it is partly that she may be jealous of me taking more of his time, even though there's no sex between her and Punk. He told me she hates receiving oral sex, and that is a complete deal breaker for Punk. lol) She's been acting pissy for weeks, and now they seem to be done. Less stress for Punk!

It's almost feeling kinky that we can do vanilla fucking now, lol. We've had all the great oral, kissing, spanking, etc., and use of many playtoys all along, but now we can do the "normal" thing as well. With no need of Viagra, and no sudden collapses. Woohoo! Last night we made out some, with "petting," then he got hard and got on top and started fucking. We went on for a good while doing that, so awesome, I was in heaven-- and then all of a sudden he seemed to pull a muscle in his neck!

He had to stop. He told me he had a sudden splitting headache and the light in the bedroom was killing him. So I turned it off and we laid in the dark for a bit. Then he asked for ibuprofen, so I went and got that. We rested some more, and I rubbed his back and neck. Finally I told him I needed to cum some more, so I grabbed my vibe off the nightstand and started to use it. Well, he was very turned on by that, despite himself, and started kissing my boobs, and telling me how hot it was to hear me and feel me cum. Then when I got somewhat satisfied, I had the bright idea to use the vibe on his neck and up the back of his head. He liked that, and started to feel a little better.

So then I told him I could go down on him if it would be OK. He said sure. That went really well, and after a bit I got on top of him and got him in me. Well, with my back, I've been quite unable to attempt being on top, pretty much since last July. How wonderful it was to feel balanced and stronger in my lower back! As I said, it felt kinky just to fuck. We were in pitch blackness too, which was an interesting change. Mmm, it was so hot and amazing.

So, despite him pulling a muscle, the sex was great, and different in a way that was exciting for me, because we had to start and stop and be creative to finish. hehe!

After all that, we got dressed, rested on the couch a bit, and then heated up this fantastic soup pixi had made a ton of the other day. Ate dinner at the table in the kitchen all together. Poor Punk has never gotten to eat at the table. Since my back's been so bad, I just can never seem to get it cleared off enough. But I finally had. So we had soup, broke bread, the three of us. Nice chats and joking around.

He left at 11. I hope he can come over on Saturday!
 
While he was here, pixi was doing our taxes. She wants, or needs, to get a new stereo for our living room (the speakers are fine), so she told herself she'd do the taxes first to see where we stood. Good girl!

After Punk left, I still had energy left, so pixi and I went downstairs for our nightly ritual TV date. We watched this and that, Portlandia, etc., for an hour or so, and then I was getting tired. But instead of heading up, I went down. On her. This time it went fantastic. (Probably hearing my and Punk's sex noises didn't hurt lol.) She got super turned on, came multiply, and her final O was gigantic. Ahhh... Made me a happy camper. She teased me afterward for being a dirty girl, sexing 2 people in one day. lol How many times has that happened? Dozens lol

Yesterday afternoon, she and I went and got pedis too, which is always pleasant and makes us feel pretty. All in all, it was a good day!

I had to postpone my visit to see my granddaughters this past Monday, since I drove 2 hours on Saturday to and from a Pyrex swap meet further west, and then Sunday about the same amount of driving to get to and from a childcare job. But my daughter said it's just as well. They have had a lot of visitors, and still need lots of rest and time to practice nursing and get used to being a new family of 4. So I plan to go early next week.
 
I saw Punk twice since my last entry. We had my son visiting for Easter weekend. I invited Punk to come for dinner on Saturday since he'd be with his big Italian family for Sunday dinner. We also invited our friend K kind of last minute, but she was able to come. It was so fun.

Sadly, I must have jinxed Punk's sex drive and ability in my last post. On Saturday, his IBS was kicking up again. He told me he might not even eat. But he ended up eating. He couldn't resist miss pixi's leg of lamb, which she slow roasted outside on our grill, as it was a lovely afternoon. I made fruit salad and cake too. We had a baguette. Punk loves fruit and bread.

After dinner we all played Dice, a game new to us that K taught us on the spot. Hilarity ensued.

It didn't matter that Punk wasn't feeling up to sex, since we had the other guests and just kept busy with eating, chatting and playing Dice. He sat next to me on the couch so we could snuggle some, and from time to time when we found ourselves alone, we had some smooches.

2 days ago he came by for a quick visit but he was feeling worse than ever in his gut, and we barely kissed or cuddled, just chatted. By the time he left I was feeling so horny I had to um, help myself. Pixi had been out, but she came home when I was in the midst of it, and she helped me get off a few times, but didn't want to have any pleasure for herself. Her latest bout of anxiety has killed her sex drive. So I had a good release, but something feels missing when she isn't into it for herself too.

So... she and I have had sex like, 3 times since mid-February. Not good. We've been having open communication about the issues in her head that are making her anxious. Are her issues making her anxious though, or is there some brain chemistry problem going on that are making her issues feel harder than they should? She was due for an appointment with her psychiatrist to talk over issues and meds. She went to see him Tuesday. A day after her appointment where they discussed options, she is thinking she should go off her present psych meds (Wellbutrin and Celexa) and try Prozac.

Meanwhile Punk's been on a rollercoaster of hope and despair about his mom's health. Sadly her latest tests revealed 2 spots of cancer on her liver, which is untreatable. She is on methadone for pain. It's just a matter of time. Punk reckons the stress is adding to his IBS problems at the moment. I have no idea when he will rally.

So, I am just trying to ride this wave. We are in a trough right now with my lovers' issues and there's not much I can do but be patient and a good listener. Be kind.

Meanwhile I am climbing the walls with horniness and once again thinking I need a third lover. A 33 year old, very interesting, very intelligent seeming man messaged me on OKC yesterday. I was really impressed with his profile. He is single, kinky, a Dom, and seems witty and together. I wrote back to him and am waiting on a response.

In good news, my back is doing great. I even vacuumed most of the upstairs the other day. I haven't been able to vacuum in months. And I did a shit ton of laundry too. Also, pixi and I went to visit my daughter and the 2 grandbabies on Monday, which went really well. We helped her and her husband sort the older daughter's outgrown clothes by size so they are ready to be washed for when new baby starts to grow into them. I brought food, and toys for the older baby. We all ate dinner together. It's just a joy to see my daughter seeming so strong and happy. Never would have thought she'd get to this point after her horrible dealings with Borderline Personality in her late teens and early 20s!

But as far as my partners, sorry for the downer of a post. Nowhere to go but up around here! Pixi and I had a good cuddly night last night. It was affectionate and just this side of sexual. But the touching sure felt good.
 
Oh and one other thing. Miss pixi hasn't seen her bf in about a month due to one thing and another. She is invited to go to his place this Saturday, but has mixed feelings about it. If she hasn't even felt up to our kind of sex, how can she be up for all the bondagey, full on D/s stuff she does with him? They are in Master/sub relation on every visit, it's always done a certain way. He is like that. Not a "real" bf where you can just hang out, go out for dinner or a walk or some other kind of "date." There is a certain routine and protocol involved. We will see what happens.

Admittedly I would be envious if she went and had their kind of fun when she's barely managed to have sex with me 3 times in the past 6 weeks. Especially if Punk is still feeling poorly and can't come and play with me. le sigh
 
I did a some digging into the Pyrex collecting. I think my mum has some of the patterns from the 70s. It was very interesting to see the variety.
 
I did a some digging into the Pyrex collecting. I think my mum has some of the patterns from the 70s. It was very interesting to see the variety.

I'm glad you enjoyed! There are close to 200 patterns, lots to learn about.

So, pixi is about to leave for her Master's, and I am fine with it. We haven't had sex really, yet, but we've had lots of cuddles and kisses, and besides that, she is feeling less anxious in general, more perky around the house, we've been working on projects and going out on dates, so it's all good.

My extreme horniness has subsided for the moment anyway.

Poor Punk. I texted him yesterday to see how things are going and he said he was taking his mom to visit his dad. Now his dad is in the hospital, dehydrated and overstressed from his own efforts to deal with his wife's illness. They were going to keep his dad in there at least one night. His dad is a postal worker and has been working full time at that, and taking care of his wife when he was home and awake. Punk cares for her when his dad is away or sleeping.

I have no idea when Punk will feel like coming over for fun and de-stressing time. I'll check in with him again today.
 
Things are improving a lot around here. Miss pixi is feeling quite normal again, mood-wise, and we've had lots of dates, outings, all the good intellectual talks about books and movies and music, laughter, doing projects around the house, and we are flirty and having sex again. There has been no more talk of her switching meds.

I was still feeling something was missing, however, since Punk's IBS was really kicking his ass the past 3 weeks, and so he visited less, and on 2 dates we didn't have sex at all. (Yes, I know I am obsessed with sex, what can I say?) But last Thursday he came over and even though he kept his jeans and tshirt on, he graciously pleasured me in several ways. Then, yesterday, he texted at 2 and came over at 3pm! He can hardly ever get away from his caretaking job that early. I know last time he came over, he got his cousin to come sit with his mom, maybe someone did yesterday too.

They had a sort of scary incident with an extended family member a week or two ago, that freaked his mom out a lot, so that got her anxious, and Punk was upset too. The last thing they need is more stress! But that seems to be sorted and receding into the past now.

It was so nice, such a luxury, to have him visit all day. He stayed til almost 11pm. I'd been feeling down, missing him, and it was a grey and cloudy day outside too. But as soon as he arrived, it felt like a party. The sun even came out! We just did our usual stuff, chatting, catching up, telling stories, talking about our past few days. Finally I gave him the eye... And he was raring to go! Whew, thank Aphrodite. Super good, long sex session, the "full menu." Punk seemed thrilled to be back in the saddle again, so to speak. I know I was! And we had such warm affectionate cuddles and massages afterwards.

Then we got dinner going, and while it was cooking, we listened to swing music, and played a game of Dice with pixi. When that was done, Punk and I watched some old Betty Boop cartoons with Cab Calloway music. Finally we headed back to the bedroom since he was getting flirty again, and giving me little spanks, and I said, well we might as well go back, and you give me a proper spanking then.

Mmmm.... So that was a super erotic little quickie. He is so adorable. He's lost weight over the past couple months too, that little belly he had is gone. My young hot lover. Such fun.

Then dinner was ready. I'd made some baked beans with all the extras to jhush it up, and some cornbread made with whole grain cornmeal and whole wheat flour and butter and honey. Pixi made ham steaks with pineapple and spices. We took our food downstairs and rented PeeWee's Big Holiday from Netflix. It was perfect. Good ol' PeeWee, how we missed ya! And the sets were so full of funky retro stuff, of course, continuing with the theme of the evening... well, of my life, heh.
 
yay to the return of the sexy fun times all round!! whoohoo :)

Your happiness and excitement comes through beautifully in your writing - It's enjoyable reading about the fun times and the sad times and the beautiful times just being together with people you love and enjoy.
 
Awww, thanks, Brianne!

Here's some more good news. Last Saturday I had a first date with an OKC guy. So many missed connections there lately, guys who seem a good match but the messaging stalls and nothing comes of it.

But this one guy asked me out almost right away, and his profile, pix and Q&As were good. He was just the sort that likes to meet in person instead of chat for days. So I went with my instincts and met him, and it was pretty fine. He's 65, single, widowed 5 years. He's been dating, but mostly meeting women who want to get married, and he didn't like any of them enough for that! So he wanted to learn about polyamory. And he's attracted to me, I guess. We had a drink which turned to dinner. He's tall and still quite virile, according to OKC questions. And we talked about sex, religion and politics and had no disagreements. I had a nice time and he said he did too and wants to do it again. And he sent me one of those nice followup texts later in the evening.

Then on Sunday afternoon (after morning sex), miss pixi and I cleaned out our shed. It was a mess. We got rid of a few things. Punk arrived in time to help us finish hanging shelves and racks. Then he and I went inside to "play" (as he called it :) ). While we were busy, pixi put things back in the shed in a good accessible arrangement. It looks so much better.

Playtime with Punk was great. What a honey.

Afterwards he showed me some old photos he'd brought, that he once found in an attic of an old house he lived in. Old publicity shots, snapshot style, of at least 35 different Hollywood stars and starlets. He couldn't ID all of them, so I helped him. He gave me a few and I am going to scan the rest and make a collage or montage of some of the others, before I return them. They are really neat.

After that we walked the dog, and then sat down to a chicken in the crockpot dinner I'd had cooking.

Such a satisfying and productive weekend!
 
Time for a less than positive post.

Ugh, my back has been bad this week. I cleaned out the shed with pixi last Sunday, pulling out the mower and the wheelbarrow, moving a window AC we don't need up to the deck (my son wants it), carrying out an old futon to be picked up by the town, etc. I helped hang racks for tools and such, holding up a heavy rack as miss pixi drilled holes, and screwed it in. Also, as I said, I'd had sex earlier in the day with pixi, then had sex with Punk after working on the shed. Plus I cooked and served a complete dinner, and did all the dishes later.

I felt OK after it all. (It felt like a perfect, productive, bonding and sexy day.) And I had chiro the next day, Monday. So, I thought I was going to just carry on. But early in the AM hours, in bed Tuesday, I came down with one of these sudden splitting headaches I've been getting the last few months. Dude. My neck is messed up. The vertebrae have lost the proper alignment and instead of having the natural S curve, are stacked in a straight line, and there is degeneration of the bones, meaning there is nothing the chiro can do to correct the configuration. So all he can do is electro-stim (TENS unit) and use this tapping device on the pressure points on either side of my spine, just to try and relax the tensed muscles.

The headache subsided after about 6 hours, but has recurred again since. I am still taking pain meds throughout the day, just like before I started chiro. I've just felt so achey all week, all up and down the rest of my back as well. I guess my back has been messed up for so many years, it's going to take more than 2 months to heal. It gets me down. It's very depressing... Sometimes I vent to pixi and cry. She holds me, and reminds me to keep hope in mind, give it time.

Ugh. I can't vacuum the house without getting the headache. This time of year, beautiful spring, I'd normally be out there gardening, raking, spreading mulch preparing beds for seeds and flowering plants. It's fun and stress relieving and makes me feel productive. This time last year I was still able to mow even! That is out of the question. I badly want to go to the beach, but I can't even imagine walking in sand. I want to jump up and dance with Punk when we are listening to swing music. The best I can manage is a gentle shuffle. I want to hike in the woods, but generally I am just up for walking on the flat track at one park we go to.

It fucking sucks! Thank god I can do sex, if I am careful to keep myself balanced and not too twisted in our positioning. Sex really boosts my endorphins and relieves my stress. (Pixi and I have had sex a couple more times since last weekend and that is lovely.)

I babysat last Friday. I was outside playing with the kids and I pushed the 4 year old too long in the swing. In my condition, pushing a 40 lb kid back and forth for 15 minutes is too long. They wanted to race me back into the house, but I can't even walk fast at this point. Fuck this getting old shit.
 
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