I'm still new here and I guess I need advice and support and there's no one here in my life to get it from. He's older and has everything I want from man and my husband is in support and we have gotten closer, we spent some time today and when I got home I just felt myself sink into a lonely and sad place of tears and sorrow. I don't think his wife is going for it, and that's what I sort of felt like was going to happen and maybe I'm wrong but it feels like we'll just never be alone. Well we will because we have some plans with friends and she won't be there. But I don't want to hurt her, she's a very dear older friend as well. I have been here before with another older man when I was a lot younger and I know this pain and sadness. I feel like I have been missing this man for so many years and I could run away with him and I'd be with the perfect match. And he's been telling me for weeks now he is mad about me. He's had relationships and sex outside of his marriage so I had my hopes up...and maybe there is hope still..I just feel really discouraged today after seeing them both. And I just want to cry and get a bottle of wine and sob till the pain is gone. On the other hand he might take the plunge in the next couple weeks and just devour me as I hope he does. He deserves it. I'd be happy to reciprocate. We need to reach that next level of communication so I know what's going on, we need time alone, he's the one making it. I just really need some comfort. Thanks guys, I was so happy when I got to my computer to write. xoxo