Fun and Frolic With Long-Term Love
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Bluebird
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I am a ball of stress and exposed nerves. Tomorrow is my first dental appointment in…hold on while I try and figure that out. 2019? Wow. That’s longer than I thought. I have one Xanax left from then, and I will be taking that tonight so I can sleep. I was having an emotional day yesterday because of thinking about things, but the guys kept me distracted and I buried myself in work.
Today I am home alone and I can’t get out of bed. After writing this I am going straight down to my studio because I can’t delay production any further - I have a show in less than two weeks and I need every single piece I can possibly create so I can make bank. MisterMoonbeam is driving me to my appointment tomorrow morning, so he went into the office today.
I literally feel dizzy and panicked right now just thinking about having to go but it has to happen! I want to get these old attachments off of my teeth and I need to get on the schedule to restart Invisalign, so this gap in my teeth is closed up.
Anyway…that’s my main focus right now. The dentist and my upcoming show. Last week I had three days where friends came over and we played dress up and had MisterMoonbeam take photos of us in our garb. The corset-maker we buy from is having a model contest and if you get put on the cover of her customer Look Book you score a $500 credit. If you get chosen for an inside page it’s $75. I mostly did it so my friends would enter - they borrowed lots of pieces from me and I would love to see them win! Still, I had a blast and I entered, though I mostly submitted pics of me from events. I’m sharing some of the new photos here though.
Things have been really good with me and DarkKnight, and me & MisterMoonbeam. I feel so in love and so supported, and just seen. I can’t explain it. I love my life and though I spend a lot of my time focused on my work now, we always make time for each other.
House-wise, BugGirl came over this past week and repainted our front stoop and sidewalk. We bought her a new bed so this was how she is repaying us. It looks great! I am currently waiting to hear from our contractor on a quote for installing a crawlspace dehumidifier in the basement. Things are musty again after a solid week of rain. The good news is that there is no visible wetness on the foundation cinder block and no puddles, but clearly there are still issues in the area. Our cheapest quote so far has been $5,000.
MisterMoonbeam and I have been emptying one box/bin a day together, of his late wife’s items. We have a huge stack along the side of the gym of everything that was in a storage unit for 5 years and then now a couple of years in this house. It’s time. He is doing great and we located some photo albums that belong to his in-laws that they had asked about. He has to travel to Arizona this month so he’s going to bring those along to return them, since that’s where they live now.
The plan for the gym is that I am going to steal the area where the boxes are now, and use it for regular crafting storage. I want to move my beading trays and scrapbooking items out of my studio. I desperately need the space for flowers. I’m literally surrounded by a floral explosion down there!
Things are mostly good with TheEngineer. He continues to be an amazing contributor with my business with 3D print designs and modifications to my displays. He’s got such a sweet intensity about him. He’s a good hype man too - always complimenting my work! I like helping to motivate him with his business as well, though he has a lot less forward momentum than I do! I enjoy our sex together, though I wish there was more of it. I admire his intelligence.
He is still having issues with his wife. I really feel like she’s using poly to escape their marriage and he feels like it is still salvageable. I am rooting for them but I would not personally be able to survive their relationship if it were mine! I am quite sure his mental health struggles (ADD & executive dysfunction) have an impact on their day-to-day. He’s very impulsive. However, she does not deal well with any criticism or requests for consideration well - and apparently she screams at him often and then will give him the silent treatment for weeks. He has requested couples therapy but she refuses and says he’s all of the problem. He is in therapy and is on medication now.
He talks to me a lot about his new coping mechanisms and how he’s changing ways based on his therapist’s recommendation. Idk, to me it looks like he’s really trying to better himself while she escapes. That said, every time I see him he is convinced this OTHER THING is the root of all of his personal problems. Like, he asks too many questions; he doesn’t think before speaking; he can’t focus on at one thing to completion. It’s always a new issue he is working on. However, he is addressing those and he does have plans in place. It’s exhausting but it’s also good to see him try to fix his issues.
She will tell him she wants to separate, or just be platonic roommates, or she’s now into relationship anarchy and he can keep the kids (including her three from a previous relationship) but then when she is home she’ll ask him to go out with her. He said it’s extremely confusing and stressful because she gets mad that he’s planning dates with me and not putting enough effort in to their time together. However, if he does plan something, she gets upset and says they’re not dating. He says he can’t win. This is a little confusing to me because he hasn’t planned any actual dates with me - I am full up on time but have been having him come over and hang out while I make headpieces. I asked him to an escape room (which became a fight between them) but then he canceled because he wasn’t in the right mood after that.
I would be more concerned but frankly I don’t have time to want more from the relationship. I am 100% swallowed by my business. I am not looking for more and won’t be attempting more. I’m at capacity with what I am willing to take on with this.
In spite of their issues, he is now dating his wife’s other female partner, casually. His wife has at least six partners, including her husband. She keeps adding new ones, and is actively dating. I feel like they need to focus on their issues before adding more noise into their lives but I am trying to not be involved, honestly. I listen to him vent, give advice when he asks, but then try to steer stuff back to our own relationship.
Today I am home alone and I can’t get out of bed. After writing this I am going straight down to my studio because I can’t delay production any further - I have a show in less than two weeks and I need every single piece I can possibly create so I can make bank. MisterMoonbeam is driving me to my appointment tomorrow morning, so he went into the office today.
I literally feel dizzy and panicked right now just thinking about having to go but it has to happen! I want to get these old attachments off of my teeth and I need to get on the schedule to restart Invisalign, so this gap in my teeth is closed up.
Anyway…that’s my main focus right now. The dentist and my upcoming show. Last week I had three days where friends came over and we played dress up and had MisterMoonbeam take photos of us in our garb. The corset-maker we buy from is having a model contest and if you get put on the cover of her customer Look Book you score a $500 credit. If you get chosen for an inside page it’s $75. I mostly did it so my friends would enter - they borrowed lots of pieces from me and I would love to see them win! Still, I had a blast and I entered, though I mostly submitted pics of me from events. I’m sharing some of the new photos here though.
Things have been really good with me and DarkKnight, and me & MisterMoonbeam. I feel so in love and so supported, and just seen. I can’t explain it. I love my life and though I spend a lot of my time focused on my work now, we always make time for each other.
House-wise, BugGirl came over this past week and repainted our front stoop and sidewalk. We bought her a new bed so this was how she is repaying us. It looks great! I am currently waiting to hear from our contractor on a quote for installing a crawlspace dehumidifier in the basement. Things are musty again after a solid week of rain. The good news is that there is no visible wetness on the foundation cinder block and no puddles, but clearly there are still issues in the area. Our cheapest quote so far has been $5,000.
MisterMoonbeam and I have been emptying one box/bin a day together, of his late wife’s items. We have a huge stack along the side of the gym of everything that was in a storage unit for 5 years and then now a couple of years in this house. It’s time. He is doing great and we located some photo albums that belong to his in-laws that they had asked about. He has to travel to Arizona this month so he’s going to bring those along to return them, since that’s where they live now.
The plan for the gym is that I am going to steal the area where the boxes are now, and use it for regular crafting storage. I want to move my beading trays and scrapbooking items out of my studio. I desperately need the space for flowers. I’m literally surrounded by a floral explosion down there!
Things are mostly good with TheEngineer. He continues to be an amazing contributor with my business with 3D print designs and modifications to my displays. He’s got such a sweet intensity about him. He’s a good hype man too - always complimenting my work! I like helping to motivate him with his business as well, though he has a lot less forward momentum than I do! I enjoy our sex together, though I wish there was more of it. I admire his intelligence.
He is still having issues with his wife. I really feel like she’s using poly to escape their marriage and he feels like it is still salvageable. I am rooting for them but I would not personally be able to survive their relationship if it were mine! I am quite sure his mental health struggles (ADD & executive dysfunction) have an impact on their day-to-day. He’s very impulsive. However, she does not deal well with any criticism or requests for consideration well - and apparently she screams at him often and then will give him the silent treatment for weeks. He has requested couples therapy but she refuses and says he’s all of the problem. He is in therapy and is on medication now.
He talks to me a lot about his new coping mechanisms and how he’s changing ways based on his therapist’s recommendation. Idk, to me it looks like he’s really trying to better himself while she escapes. That said, every time I see him he is convinced this OTHER THING is the root of all of his personal problems. Like, he asks too many questions; he doesn’t think before speaking; he can’t focus on at one thing to completion. It’s always a new issue he is working on. However, he is addressing those and he does have plans in place. It’s exhausting but it’s also good to see him try to fix his issues.
She will tell him she wants to separate, or just be platonic roommates, or she’s now into relationship anarchy and he can keep the kids (including her three from a previous relationship) but then when she is home she’ll ask him to go out with her. He said it’s extremely confusing and stressful because she gets mad that he’s planning dates with me and not putting enough effort in to their time together. However, if he does plan something, she gets upset and says they’re not dating. He says he can’t win. This is a little confusing to me because he hasn’t planned any actual dates with me - I am full up on time but have been having him come over and hang out while I make headpieces. I asked him to an escape room (which became a fight between them) but then he canceled because he wasn’t in the right mood after that.
I would be more concerned but frankly I don’t have time to want more from the relationship. I am 100% swallowed by my business. I am not looking for more and won’t be attempting more. I’m at capacity with what I am willing to take on with this.
In spite of their issues, he is now dating his wife’s other female partner, casually. His wife has at least six partners, including her husband. She keeps adding new ones, and is actively dating. I feel like they need to focus on their issues before adding more noise into their lives but I am trying to not be involved, honestly. I listen to him vent, give advice when he asks, but then try to steer stuff back to our own relationship.
Bluebird
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My dental appointment yesterday was awful but it was also good. I cried nonstop, pretty much. The new office was very considerate and kind, and helped me through it. My teeth are clean and I now have a follow up appointment scheduled to get rid of two tiny cavities, and to get the attachments removed. At the present time I can’t move forward with Invisalign - the gap in my teeth has to stay.
Unfortunately I have to go see a specialist because the trauma I had from the other dentist has resulted in bone loss, and I need to have a gum graft. They were VERY clear that this is not anything I did, but that it very much came from the issues surrounding the post in my jaw that would not stay in, from several years back. That specialist evaluation is now scheduled for August.
I’m very anxious about this but there’s nothing to do but wait.
DarkKnight performed at a ballpark in our city last night - he sang the national anthem with a group of choral members. So MisterMoonbeam & I got tickets to cheer him on, and then the three of us watched the baseball game.
MisterMoonbeam, me, DarkKnight
It rained a little and my hair was frizz city!
Unfortunately, all of the earlier trauma from my dental visit piled on and when we got back home I had a complete nervous breakdown after my google calendar wiped out at least a month of appointments in my phone. It was just too much.
Today I am regrouping and adding things back as I remember them. I had an appointment in the morning with a networking group that helped me focus back on my business and now I am in my studio about to get to work on a new headpiece!
Unfortunately I have to go see a specialist because the trauma I had from the other dentist has resulted in bone loss, and I need to have a gum graft. They were VERY clear that this is not anything I did, but that it very much came from the issues surrounding the post in my jaw that would not stay in, from several years back. That specialist evaluation is now scheduled for August.
I’m very anxious about this but there’s nothing to do but wait.
DarkKnight performed at a ballpark in our city last night - he sang the national anthem with a group of choral members. So MisterMoonbeam & I got tickets to cheer him on, and then the three of us watched the baseball game.
MisterMoonbeam, me, DarkKnight
It rained a little and my hair was frizz city!
Unfortunately, all of the earlier trauma from my dental visit piled on and when we got back home I had a complete nervous breakdown after my google calendar wiped out at least a month of appointments in my phone. It was just too much.
Today I am regrouping and adding things back as I remember them. I had an appointment in the morning with a networking group that helped me focus back on my business and now I am in my studio about to get to work on a new headpiece!
Bluebird
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I’ve been up til midnight working on my business the last two nights. I glued up a tentacle headband wrong this weekend - the tentacles were spaced too closely together, so tonight when I started adding flowers, I found myself having to painstakingly put on hydrangeas individually to make it pretty, rather than fit on a few large peonies. It took forever, and it left me feeling discouraged. I could have torn off the tentacles and reattached them, but my stubborn ass didn’t want to do that. So now I really am exhausted.
I have been avoiding my Animal Oracle deck. I don’t really believe too much in woo-woo nonsense but this set of cards is so closely attuned to me - it’s wondrous. Anyway, I was terrified to ask it any questions lately because I didn’t want to hear the answers. Tonight when I went to bed though, I grabbed it up and asked it if I am doing the right thing. I’m anxious - is this sort of business right for me?
I am now in tears because I need to trust myself more. I certainly trust this deck of dumb cards!
I did a 3-card pull:
1. Air dragon: It comes like a bolt of lightning, sending me in a new direction. It brings insight & clarity to thoughts & imagination.
2. Ram, reversed - Previously, I didn’t know what to do; I was banging my head against a brick wall, but there now is a way through. I need to let go of the past and stop fighting what should be intuitive.
3. Adder - The old path is dead. The snake heralds a rebirth and rejuvenation, joy & healing.
I’m crying silently while writing this. I lost it when I pulled the adder. I know what that card means!
am doing what I am supposed to be doing.
I have been avoiding my Animal Oracle deck. I don’t really believe too much in woo-woo nonsense but this set of cards is so closely attuned to me - it’s wondrous. Anyway, I was terrified to ask it any questions lately because I didn’t want to hear the answers. Tonight when I went to bed though, I grabbed it up and asked it if I am doing the right thing. I’m anxious - is this sort of business right for me?
I am now in tears because I need to trust myself more. I certainly trust this deck of dumb cards!
I did a 3-card pull:
1. Air dragon: It comes like a bolt of lightning, sending me in a new direction. It brings insight & clarity to thoughts & imagination.
2. Ram, reversed - Previously, I didn’t know what to do; I was banging my head against a brick wall, but there now is a way through. I need to let go of the past and stop fighting what should be intuitive.
3. Adder - The old path is dead. The snake heralds a rebirth and rejuvenation, joy & healing.
I’m crying silently while writing this. I lost it when I pulled the adder. I know what that card means!
am doing what I am supposed to be doing.
Bluebird
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Photo drop
BugGirl came over this weekend and did a bunch of cleaning in exchange for some cash. Part of what she helped me with is reconfiguring my studio space. I’m stealing the yoga area of the gym, to put my scrapbooking stuff and beading supplies there instead. She moved over a gray kallax that was being underutilized, and MisterMoonbeam moved over the scrapbook kallax. That gave me space to push my turning flower tower against the wall. I have another kallax to move over into the gym (on the left in this photo) and then MisterMoonbeam is going to build me a second flower tower to go there! That will get the bins of flowers in the photo up off the floor. I can’t wait!
Here’s the green & black collection that I put together last night. The 4-pack tentacle headbands are new - I’ve only ever sold 8-packs. I also made a matching Flourish flower crown this morning using this color scheme.
Love!
I had this banner printed recently for the show this weekend. I want it on the backside of my booth, 10 feet in the air, so people can see what I sell from when they enter the space. I set it up on my backdrop in my dining room, at 8 feet high. I hope it looks as good at the show!
I went and saw Superman on Saturday - my son was outside the theater when I arrived. He and DarkKnight had gone to see an earlier movie! I hadn’t seen his face in over a month so I was happy to run over and hug him!
Here’s a Fabulosity I made last week.
I was wearing this amazing outfit, though the romper is too big now. I own four of them, and I’m going to donate them soon. I actually bought it again in a different color pattern in a smaller size during Prime Days.
Me today:
BugGirl came over this weekend and did a bunch of cleaning in exchange for some cash. Part of what she helped me with is reconfiguring my studio space. I’m stealing the yoga area of the gym, to put my scrapbooking stuff and beading supplies there instead. She moved over a gray kallax that was being underutilized, and MisterMoonbeam moved over the scrapbook kallax. That gave me space to push my turning flower tower against the wall. I have another kallax to move over into the gym (on the left in this photo) and then MisterMoonbeam is going to build me a second flower tower to go there! That will get the bins of flowers in the photo up off the floor. I can’t wait!
Here’s the green & black collection that I put together last night. The 4-pack tentacle headbands are new - I’ve only ever sold 8-packs. I also made a matching Flourish flower crown this morning using this color scheme.
Love!
I had this banner printed recently for the show this weekend. I want it on the backside of my booth, 10 feet in the air, so people can see what I sell from when they enter the space. I set it up on my backdrop in my dining room, at 8 feet high. I hope it looks as good at the show!
I went and saw Superman on Saturday - my son was outside the theater when I arrived. He and DarkKnight had gone to see an earlier movie! I hadn’t seen his face in over a month so I was happy to run over and hug him!
Here’s a Fabulosity I made last week.
I was wearing this amazing outfit, though the romper is too big now. I own four of them, and I’m going to donate them soon. I actually bought it again in a different color pattern in a smaller size during Prime Days.
Me today:
Bluebird
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I had a good show this past weekend. I made $2750 in the two days I was there. Not the best show but not the worst either! I am happy though - this will pay down a chunk of my startup costs that are marinating on a credit card, and I can purchase some materials for the next show. I’m going to be super busy moving forward - I have my 50-crown wholesale order due on August 8, which will bring in another $2750. Then, the next Ren Faire is the 16th!
Bluebird
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I’ve been missing MisterMoonbeam something terrible this week - he’s in Arizona. No way was I gonna go with because Arizona in July sounds like absolute hell. Still, I wish I was with him. He promised to send me dick pics but so far I haven’t gotten one. He says tonight!
TheEngineer stayed over Monday night and we spent all of Tuesday together - he took me to IKEA so I could buy a 5x5 kallax. He’s coming back to sleep over again on Friday. He wanted to make sure I wasn’t lonely while MisterMoonbeam was gone. I super appreciate that because I’ve had partners in the past who said they’d be supportive and then weren’t. This has been lovely!
BugGirl came over twice this week to help me paint my studio wall, and tonight we are going to get our nails done together. I haven’t heard from LittleMichigan - I’m not sure what’s going on with her lately! BeanBoy’s birthday is tomorrow and we are taking him to see The Fantastic 4.
DarkKnight has two shows happening right now - he’s in a one-act this weekend and I’m gonna see that tomorrow night with TheEngineer. He’s been gone every night this week since it’s tech week, so I’m basically home alone all day and night.
TheEngineer stayed over Monday night and we spent all of Tuesday together - he took me to IKEA so I could buy a 5x5 kallax. He’s coming back to sleep over again on Friday. He wanted to make sure I wasn’t lonely while MisterMoonbeam was gone. I super appreciate that because I’ve had partners in the past who said they’d be supportive and then weren’t. This has been lovely!
BugGirl came over twice this week to help me paint my studio wall, and tonight we are going to get our nails done together. I haven’t heard from LittleMichigan - I’m not sure what’s going on with her lately! BeanBoy’s birthday is tomorrow and we are taking him to see The Fantastic 4.
DarkKnight has two shows happening right now - he’s in a one-act this weekend and I’m gonna see that tomorrow night with TheEngineer. He’s been gone every night this week since it’s tech week, so I’m basically home alone all day and night.
Happy birthday to our sons!
Bluebird
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I’ve been really busy with my business. I feel like I’ve reached a crossroads with it. I need to go bigger, and it’s a struggle because I am only one person. I’ve had a few friends come over and continually want to be involved, so that’s been really helpful. I definitely can only make so much on my own - I don’t have them doing anything creative, just assembling boxes, counting inventory, etc. It helps though!
Today I have an appointment to get a colonoscopy. The colonoscopy itself is not today, but it’s like a checkup beforehand? Until yesterday I thought it was the actual procedure but I called because I hadn’t been given any instructions! It’s not until the afternoon though.
In the morning the electrician is coming back over. He says it’s half a days worth of work that I’ve asked him for yesterday! TheEngineer and I had gone to lunch prior to a price quote appointment to install an outlet or two, and I ended up buying a portable air conditioner for my studio from the pawn shop next to the pizza shop. Now I am getting a new circuit installed in the expanded part of my space, as well as the additional outlet I wanted on the other side of my main work table.
I also bought two 2x4 lay-in LED panels from Lowe’s yesterday - the company wanted several hundred dollars for those and it cost me $170 instead to buy them myself! The electrician is replacing my overhead ceiling light (because it sucks ass and it’s ancient and isn’t sealed so in the winter there’s a draft right above me ugh) and installing the other one at the base of the stairs, which is a dark point right now.
TheEngineer is coming back over on Thursday to finish setting up my portable AC. It only cost me $106! It came with a remote, but no hose or anything. Amazon actually just delivered the hose, and I ordered a water alarm and a drip pan to put under it, which should arrive later today. My window in the studio is small and louvered - he removed the screen and replaced it with a piece of acrylic I also got at Lowe’s. He’ll cut out a hole for the hose - he started a 3D print clamp for that before he left yesterday.
So yesterday there was a bunch of stuff going on, and today there will be as well!
TheEngineer’s wife went on vacay with her expanded polycule for the week. While she is gone, he is moving out of their bedroom and crating a new space for himself in their second living room downstairs in their house. He was distressed about it at first - they aren’t doing well at all - but he’s looking forward to having a private bedroom. I guess they fight a lot at night and he says both of them having their own retreat will be a positive. He’s upset not to have his own bathroom anymore but he says he is only going to use this space for at max a year.
Right now he says she doesn’t want to date him and they’re now just coparenting. I ask questions when he brings it up, but I’ve honestly only met her in person twice, so I really can’t advise him. To me it sounds like they won’t be getting back together-together, but he is hopeful. I still think the way he describes their interactions is abusive - when they fight she will give him the silent treatment for a week or more and refuses to further discuss anything at all. Perhaps he sucks terribly in the way that he fights though, I don’t know. She is still refusing couple’s therapy and he is going by himself a lot, and he’s changed up his meds.
Speaking of meds, MisterMoonbeam got diagnosed with ADD but so far the medication he’s on doesn’t seem to be helping much. He’s had his prescription changed but nope. He went to Arizona for a week and it was a successful trip. Things have been really positive with his boss, and he has another trip there planned for September before my birthday. He’s not seeing anyone else right now, but he says he’s on OKCupid every now and then. Since returning home he’s been in a depressive funk.
For a while MisterMoonbeam was in physical therapy to get stronger, and he just graduated out of the program. He was down on himself for not doing the daily exercises, so in addition to walking together each day like we have been doing, he’s now completing them while I work in my studio in the evenings. We’ve done that twice now and it seems to have been helpful!
DarkKnight had a successful show this past weekend! He was cast in another performance at the same playhouse last week, so he’s gone for practice most evenings again. He’s still in his choral group and on their board of directors as well. He’s busier than I am, I think! He brings home dinner or cooks and then is gone until bedtime most nights! We stay connected through text and our dinner together, but I miss him. He and I - and MisterMoonbeam - have tickets for Twenty Sided Tavern this weekend, and we’re going to spend the day in DC. I got us tickets to the Air & Space museum downtown.
I am not dating anyone new. I don’t have time, nor the energy. My business is my focus right now!
Today I have an appointment to get a colonoscopy. The colonoscopy itself is not today, but it’s like a checkup beforehand? Until yesterday I thought it was the actual procedure but I called because I hadn’t been given any instructions! It’s not until the afternoon though.
In the morning the electrician is coming back over. He says it’s half a days worth of work that I’ve asked him for yesterday! TheEngineer and I had gone to lunch prior to a price quote appointment to install an outlet or two, and I ended up buying a portable air conditioner for my studio from the pawn shop next to the pizza shop. Now I am getting a new circuit installed in the expanded part of my space, as well as the additional outlet I wanted on the other side of my main work table.
I also bought two 2x4 lay-in LED panels from Lowe’s yesterday - the company wanted several hundred dollars for those and it cost me $170 instead to buy them myself! The electrician is replacing my overhead ceiling light (because it sucks ass and it’s ancient and isn’t sealed so in the winter there’s a draft right above me ugh) and installing the other one at the base of the stairs, which is a dark point right now.
TheEngineer is coming back over on Thursday to finish setting up my portable AC. It only cost me $106! It came with a remote, but no hose or anything. Amazon actually just delivered the hose, and I ordered a water alarm and a drip pan to put under it, which should arrive later today. My window in the studio is small and louvered - he removed the screen and replaced it with a piece of acrylic I also got at Lowe’s. He’ll cut out a hole for the hose - he started a 3D print clamp for that before he left yesterday.
So yesterday there was a bunch of stuff going on, and today there will be as well!
TheEngineer’s wife went on vacay with her expanded polycule for the week. While she is gone, he is moving out of their bedroom and crating a new space for himself in their second living room downstairs in their house. He was distressed about it at first - they aren’t doing well at all - but he’s looking forward to having a private bedroom. I guess they fight a lot at night and he says both of them having their own retreat will be a positive. He’s upset not to have his own bathroom anymore but he says he is only going to use this space for at max a year.
Right now he says she doesn’t want to date him and they’re now just coparenting. I ask questions when he brings it up, but I’ve honestly only met her in person twice, so I really can’t advise him. To me it sounds like they won’t be getting back together-together, but he is hopeful. I still think the way he describes their interactions is abusive - when they fight she will give him the silent treatment for a week or more and refuses to further discuss anything at all. Perhaps he sucks terribly in the way that he fights though, I don’t know. She is still refusing couple’s therapy and he is going by himself a lot, and he’s changed up his meds.
Speaking of meds, MisterMoonbeam got diagnosed with ADD but so far the medication he’s on doesn’t seem to be helping much. He’s had his prescription changed but nope. He went to Arizona for a week and it was a successful trip. Things have been really positive with his boss, and he has another trip there planned for September before my birthday. He’s not seeing anyone else right now, but he says he’s on OKCupid every now and then. Since returning home he’s been in a depressive funk.
For a while MisterMoonbeam was in physical therapy to get stronger, and he just graduated out of the program. He was down on himself for not doing the daily exercises, so in addition to walking together each day like we have been doing, he’s now completing them while I work in my studio in the evenings. We’ve done that twice now and it seems to have been helpful!
DarkKnight had a successful show this past weekend! He was cast in another performance at the same playhouse last week, so he’s gone for practice most evenings again. He’s still in his choral group and on their board of directors as well. He’s busier than I am, I think! He brings home dinner or cooks and then is gone until bedtime most nights! We stay connected through text and our dinner together, but I miss him. He and I - and MisterMoonbeam - have tickets for Twenty Sided Tavern this weekend, and we’re going to spend the day in DC. I got us tickets to the Air & Space museum downtown.
I am not dating anyone new. I don’t have time, nor the energy. My business is my focus right now!
Bluebird
Well-known member
Photo drop!
Studio updates & expanded space:
This is the view from my work table seat
Behind where I sit - window looks into the sauna
Expanded space
The far wall remains unpainted. The plan is to open that up to install a whole-house water softener in the next two years, so it doesn’t make sense to paint. The small window there is where my portable AC will be venting. I’m going to IKEA again on Thursday to buy another 2x4 Kallax to match the empty one on the far right. Those are getting set sideways, and I’m making them into a big island. I’m going to eat more of the gym space to use those as another workable. MisterMoonbeam is going to build yet ANOTHER rolling flower tower to go at the end of the room - where the empty Kallax is now.
My cats saw a bug! From the top - Harry, ColePorter & Lenny. Albus was someplace else in the house. lol I need to paint the stairs going down to my studio but that isn’t happening anytime soon.
A friend had a crafting party on Sunday, and everyone in attendance made these beaded succulents. It was fun!
Pics of me:
I need to buy a new jean jacket and pajamas.
Pics from my last show
Studio updates & expanded space:
This is the view from my work table seat
Behind where I sit - window looks into the sauna
Expanded space
The far wall remains unpainted. The plan is to open that up to install a whole-house water softener in the next two years, so it doesn’t make sense to paint. The small window there is where my portable AC will be venting. I’m going to IKEA again on Thursday to buy another 2x4 Kallax to match the empty one on the far right. Those are getting set sideways, and I’m making them into a big island. I’m going to eat more of the gym space to use those as another workable. MisterMoonbeam is going to build yet ANOTHER rolling flower tower to go at the end of the room - where the empty Kallax is now.
My cats saw a bug! From the top - Harry, ColePorter & Lenny. Albus was someplace else in the house. lol I need to paint the stairs going down to my studio but that isn’t happening anytime soon.
A friend had a crafting party on Sunday, and everyone in attendance made these beaded succulents. It was fun!
Pics of me:
I need to buy a new jean jacket and pajamas.
Pics from my last show
Bluebird
Well-known member
lol what?
I heard they were screening for admission to Kennedy Center events.
Bluebird
Well-known member
Ahhh gotcha. lol We weren’t screened at all, but the president was not in attendance.
The event did start out with disparaging remarks against him too, with tons of shouts and applause from the audience! 
Bluebird
Well-known member
So all of my friends made the LookBook! I however, did not. Not gonna lie, I was feeling really bad about this. Having body dysmorphia and then being completely rejected over something I thought I did amazing at is awful. Having everyone excitedly message me to tell me they got accepted was like a stab wound over and over. I’m like, super happy for everyone, but I’m also completely confused as to why my stuff wasn’t good enough? I am trying not to let it affect my day to day. I moved on pretty quick, but then all the posts on the fan sites I belong to started and I had to avoid them for a day or so.
Anyway. Today I am moving stuff around in my studio and banging out some more headpieces. Less than a week to deliver my wholesale order!
Anyway. Today I am moving stuff around in my studio and banging out some more headpieces. Less than a week to deliver my wholesale order!
Hey BB, I am sorry you didn't get into this LookBook, but I don't see where you mentioned it here before? Your looks you post are always super cool.
Bluebird
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I scrolled up -I mentioned it in my July 7th post. I shared a couple of photos that I submitted too. lol Not all the ones I posted were ones I actually submitted though. Here are the five I sent in:
I feel like the last one is a little too dark, and the one where I am all in teal is too popular - many, many women probably submitted outfits that are similar and they were better. Zero doubts about that. However, I felt pretty good about my odds with either the chicken or the snail - they’re looks where I’ve put together multiple pieces from different collections in a unique way. But, it didn’t happen for me this time!
MisterMoonbeam sent in some as well of himself, and some with him & I together. Those also weren’t chosen. In a second set submission, I sent in ones with my friends and I as a group. I did mark down that if any of my group pics were used, I’d like a specific friend to get the credit. I didn’t get any notifications at all, so I am assuming that means I’m completely out.
Tonight I couldn’t care any less about it. I’m sure when the books are printed and I get one in the mail though, I will be back to feeling rejected and a sense of pervasive wrongness when it comes to parts of my body.
Thanks for the positive comment though. I think I look pretty good in my garb. It’s one of the reasons I like it so much! Like I said, I’m a little worried about how this could domino with my body dysmorphia. I had fun with my friends though. I’m trying not to think about it much until therapy.
davidisfun67
Active member
Do you sell the stuff I have seen in your pictures or is it just stuff you like to show others: