Fun and Frolic With Long-Term Love
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Bluebird
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I am a ball of stress and exposed nerves. Tomorrow is my first dental appointment in…hold on while I try and figure that out. 2019? Wow. That’s longer than I thought. I have one Xanax left from then, and I will be taking that tonight so I can sleep. I was having an emotional day yesterday because of thinking about things, but the guys kept me distracted and I buried myself in work.
Today I am home alone and I can’t get out of bed. After writing this I am going straight down to my studio because I can’t delay production any further - I have a show in less than two weeks and I need every single piece I can possibly create so I can make bank. MisterMoonbeam is driving me to my appointment tomorrow morning, so he went into the office today.
I literally feel dizzy and panicked right now just thinking about having to go but it has to happen! I want to get these old attachments off of my teeth and I need to get on the schedule to restart Invisalign, so this gap in my teeth is closed up.
Anyway…that’s my main focus right now. The dentist and my upcoming show. Last week I had three days where friends came over and we played dress up and had MisterMoonbeam take photos of us in our garb. The corset-maker we buy from is having a model contest and if you get put on the cover of her customer Look Book you score a $500 credit. If you get chosen for an inside page it’s $75. I mostly did it so my friends would enter - they borrowed lots of pieces from me and I would love to see them win! Still, I had a blast and I entered, though I mostly submitted pics of me from events. I’m sharing some of the new photos here though.
Things have been really good with me and DarkKnight, and me & MisterMoonbeam. I feel so in love and so supported, and just seen. I can’t explain it. I love my life and though I spend a lot of my time focused on my work now, we always make time for each other.
House-wise, BugGirl came over this past week and repainted our front stoop and sidewalk. We bought her a new bed so this was how she is repaying us. It looks great! I am currently waiting to hear from our contractor on a quote for installing a crawlspace dehumidifier in the basement. Things are musty again after a solid week of rain. The good news is that there is no visible wetness on the foundation cinder block and no puddles, but clearly there are still issues in the area. Our cheapest quote so far has been $5,000.
MisterMoonbeam and I have been emptying one box/bin a day together, of his late wife’s items. We have a huge stack along the side of the gym of everything that was in a storage unit for 5 years and then now a couple of years in this house. It’s time. He is doing great and we located some photo albums that belong to his in-laws that they had asked about. He has to travel to Arizona this month so he’s going to bring those along to return them, since that’s where they live now.
The plan for the gym is that I am going to steal the area where the boxes are now, and use it for regular crafting storage. I want to move my beading trays and scrapbooking items out of my studio. I desperately need the space for flowers. I’m literally surrounded by a floral explosion down there!
Things are mostly good with TheEngineer. He continues to be an amazing contributor with my business with 3D print designs and modifications to my displays. He’s got such a sweet intensity about him. He’s a good hype man too - always complimenting my work! I like helping to motivate him with his business as well, though he has a lot less forward momentum than I do! I enjoy our sex together, though I wish there was more of it. I admire his intelligence.
He is still having issues with his wife. I really feel like she’s using poly to escape their marriage and he feels like it is still salvageable. I am rooting for them but I would not personally be able to survive their relationship if it were mine! I am quite sure his mental health struggles (ADD & executive dysfunction) have an impact on their day-to-day. He’s very impulsive. However, she does not deal well with any criticism or requests for consideration well - and apparently she screams at him often and then will give him the silent treatment for weeks. He has requested couples therapy but she refuses and says he’s all of the problem. He is in therapy and is on medication now.
He talks to me a lot about his new coping mechanisms and how he’s changing ways based on his therapist’s recommendation. Idk, to me it looks like he’s really trying to better himself while she escapes. That said, every time I see him he is convinced this OTHER THING is the root of all of his personal problems. Like, he asks too many questions; he doesn’t think before speaking; he can’t focus on at one thing to completion. It’s always a new issue he is working on. However, he is addressing those and he does have plans in place. It’s exhausting but it’s also good to see him try to fix his issues.
She will tell him she wants to separate, or just be platonic roommates, or she’s now into relationship anarchy and he can keep the kids (including her three from a previous relationship) but then when she is home she’ll ask him to go out with her. He said it’s extremely confusing and stressful because she gets mad that he’s planning dates with me and not putting enough effort in to their time together. However, if he does plan something, she gets upset and says they’re not dating. He says he can’t win. This is a little confusing to me because he hasn’t planned any actual dates with me - I am full up on time but have been having him come over and hang out while I make headpieces. I asked him to an escape room (which became a fight between them) but then he canceled because he wasn’t in the right mood after that.
I would be more concerned but frankly I don’t have time to want more from the relationship. I am 100% swallowed by my business. I am not looking for more and won’t be attempting more. I’m at capacity with what I am willing to take on with this.
In spite of their issues, he is now dating his wife’s other female partner, casually. His wife has at least six partners, including her husband. She keeps adding new ones, and is actively dating. I feel like they need to focus on their issues before adding more noise into their lives but I am trying to not be involved, honestly. I listen to him vent, give advice when he asks, but then try to steer stuff back to our own relationship.
Today I am home alone and I can’t get out of bed. After writing this I am going straight down to my studio because I can’t delay production any further - I have a show in less than two weeks and I need every single piece I can possibly create so I can make bank. MisterMoonbeam is driving me to my appointment tomorrow morning, so he went into the office today.
I literally feel dizzy and panicked right now just thinking about having to go but it has to happen! I want to get these old attachments off of my teeth and I need to get on the schedule to restart Invisalign, so this gap in my teeth is closed up.
Anyway…that’s my main focus right now. The dentist and my upcoming show. Last week I had three days where friends came over and we played dress up and had MisterMoonbeam take photos of us in our garb. The corset-maker we buy from is having a model contest and if you get put on the cover of her customer Look Book you score a $500 credit. If you get chosen for an inside page it’s $75. I mostly did it so my friends would enter - they borrowed lots of pieces from me and I would love to see them win! Still, I had a blast and I entered, though I mostly submitted pics of me from events. I’m sharing some of the new photos here though.
Things have been really good with me and DarkKnight, and me & MisterMoonbeam. I feel so in love and so supported, and just seen. I can’t explain it. I love my life and though I spend a lot of my time focused on my work now, we always make time for each other.
House-wise, BugGirl came over this past week and repainted our front stoop and sidewalk. We bought her a new bed so this was how she is repaying us. It looks great! I am currently waiting to hear from our contractor on a quote for installing a crawlspace dehumidifier in the basement. Things are musty again after a solid week of rain. The good news is that there is no visible wetness on the foundation cinder block and no puddles, but clearly there are still issues in the area. Our cheapest quote so far has been $5,000.
MisterMoonbeam and I have been emptying one box/bin a day together, of his late wife’s items. We have a huge stack along the side of the gym of everything that was in a storage unit for 5 years and then now a couple of years in this house. It’s time. He is doing great and we located some photo albums that belong to his in-laws that they had asked about. He has to travel to Arizona this month so he’s going to bring those along to return them, since that’s where they live now.
The plan for the gym is that I am going to steal the area where the boxes are now, and use it for regular crafting storage. I want to move my beading trays and scrapbooking items out of my studio. I desperately need the space for flowers. I’m literally surrounded by a floral explosion down there!
Things are mostly good with TheEngineer. He continues to be an amazing contributor with my business with 3D print designs and modifications to my displays. He’s got such a sweet intensity about him. He’s a good hype man too - always complimenting my work! I like helping to motivate him with his business as well, though he has a lot less forward momentum than I do! I enjoy our sex together, though I wish there was more of it. I admire his intelligence.
He is still having issues with his wife. I really feel like she’s using poly to escape their marriage and he feels like it is still salvageable. I am rooting for them but I would not personally be able to survive their relationship if it were mine! I am quite sure his mental health struggles (ADD & executive dysfunction) have an impact on their day-to-day. He’s very impulsive. However, she does not deal well with any criticism or requests for consideration well - and apparently she screams at him often and then will give him the silent treatment for weeks. He has requested couples therapy but she refuses and says he’s all of the problem. He is in therapy and is on medication now.
He talks to me a lot about his new coping mechanisms and how he’s changing ways based on his therapist’s recommendation. Idk, to me it looks like he’s really trying to better himself while she escapes. That said, every time I see him he is convinced this OTHER THING is the root of all of his personal problems. Like, he asks too many questions; he doesn’t think before speaking; he can’t focus on at one thing to completion. It’s always a new issue he is working on. However, he is addressing those and he does have plans in place. It’s exhausting but it’s also good to see him try to fix his issues.
She will tell him she wants to separate, or just be platonic roommates, or she’s now into relationship anarchy and he can keep the kids (including her three from a previous relationship) but then when she is home she’ll ask him to go out with her. He said it’s extremely confusing and stressful because she gets mad that he’s planning dates with me and not putting enough effort in to their time together. However, if he does plan something, she gets upset and says they’re not dating. He says he can’t win. This is a little confusing to me because he hasn’t planned any actual dates with me - I am full up on time but have been having him come over and hang out while I make headpieces. I asked him to an escape room (which became a fight between them) but then he canceled because he wasn’t in the right mood after that.
I would be more concerned but frankly I don’t have time to want more from the relationship. I am 100% swallowed by my business. I am not looking for more and won’t be attempting more. I’m at capacity with what I am willing to take on with this.
In spite of their issues, he is now dating his wife’s other female partner, casually. His wife has at least six partners, including her husband. She keeps adding new ones, and is actively dating. I feel like they need to focus on their issues before adding more noise into their lives but I am trying to not be involved, honestly. I listen to him vent, give advice when he asks, but then try to steer stuff back to our own relationship.
Bluebird
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My dental appointment yesterday was awful but it was also good. I cried nonstop, pretty much. The new office was very considerate and kind, and helped me through it. My teeth are clean and I now have a follow up appointment scheduled to get rid of two tiny cavities, and to get the attachments removed. At the present time I can’t move forward with Invisalign - the gap in my teeth has to stay.
Unfortunately I have to go see a specialist because the trauma I had from the other dentist has resulted in bone loss, and I need to have a gum graft. They were VERY clear that this is not anything I did, but that it very much came from the issues surrounding the post in my jaw that would not stay in, from several years back. That specialist evaluation is now scheduled for August.
I’m very anxious about this but there’s nothing to do but wait.
DarkKnight performed at a ballpark in our city last night - he sang the national anthem with a group of choral members. So MisterMoonbeam & I got tickets to cheer him on, and then the three of us watched the baseball game.
MisterMoonbeam, me, DarkKnight
It rained a little and my hair was frizz city!
Unfortunately, all of the earlier trauma from my dental visit piled on and when we got back home I had a complete nervous breakdown after my google calendar wiped out at least a month of appointments in my phone. It was just too much.
Today I am regrouping and adding things back as I remember them. I had an appointment in the morning with a networking group that helped me focus back on my business and now I am in my studio about to get to work on a new headpiece!
Unfortunately I have to go see a specialist because the trauma I had from the other dentist has resulted in bone loss, and I need to have a gum graft. They were VERY clear that this is not anything I did, but that it very much came from the issues surrounding the post in my jaw that would not stay in, from several years back. That specialist evaluation is now scheduled for August.
I’m very anxious about this but there’s nothing to do but wait.
DarkKnight performed at a ballpark in our city last night - he sang the national anthem with a group of choral members. So MisterMoonbeam & I got tickets to cheer him on, and then the three of us watched the baseball game.
MisterMoonbeam, me, DarkKnight
It rained a little and my hair was frizz city!
Unfortunately, all of the earlier trauma from my dental visit piled on and when we got back home I had a complete nervous breakdown after my google calendar wiped out at least a month of appointments in my phone. It was just too much.
Today I am regrouping and adding things back as I remember them. I had an appointment in the morning with a networking group that helped me focus back on my business and now I am in my studio about to get to work on a new headpiece!