After being sequestered all week by himself, MisterMoonbeam came over again this weekend and we spent most of the nighttime in bed having hot as hell sex. During the day, he helped me in the overflow room (the Box has been closed since Wednesday but I still needed to organize) and we played some board games & had dinner with DarkKnight.
I worry about him putting himself at risk, but I don’t feel worried about myself - he isn’t seeing anyone working from home, so he’s not apt to give me anything. He showed up Friday night, and we were together until Sunday afternoon. He had a video date lined up with his girlfriend so he needed to get home. He isn’t seeing her and hasn’t seen her in person because she’s immune compromised and sequestering completely by herself. Apparently though, the date didn’t happen for whatever reason.
Anyway, things are progressing, I guess? He told me he has serious NRE and would be devastated if I decide not to see him anymore. I like him a lot. He’s super sweet, and we are joking that we still haven’t had a real first date. It’s weird because our first date was 2 overnights and a 12 hour round trip car ride. That’s certainly a way to find out if you are compatible or not! We’ve both shared a whole lot of heartfelt information about our current feelings, past relationships, etc.
I told him I really don’t know what is in my head. Like, I am still struggling with my breakup, but I definitely do have some feelings toward him. I don’t really know about rebound relationships - I have never had one, I don’t think, so I am not sure about what I should be avoiding or on the lookout for. The sex is amazing - like, really amazing. I would not classify him as a FWB but just on that alone I would love to have him in my life! He’s like the most respectful Dom-ish guy ever. Asks for consent for everything, is careful to check in with me and hasn’t tried out anything too extreme, even though I know he is excited to move forward. He makes me feel sexy, valued and happy. And very, very horny!
I love talking to him and hearing his input on things, and learning about his life. I definitely have butterflies. We have a lot in common, and we are both kind of muddling through with what our own individual lives are going to look like moving forward. Me, because of losing PunkRock (who still isn’t all the way moved out yet) and him, because he wife of 20 years passed in October.
I really love snuggling up with him - he’s just tall enough and big enough and fuzzy enough so I fit next to him perfectly. So cuddly! We plan to meet up again this weekend as long as he is remaining sequestered at home in the meantime, and I continue to take precautions at my house. Right now neither of our states have shelter-in-place orders, and I am hoping that continues. If that changes we will have to adapt. I told him right now he’s it for me. I didn’t have any intention of meeting anyone yet anyway, but the issue with AntMan accelerated things. And Corona has put other dating prospects on hold and the only reason I feel comfortable continuing to meet up with him is because he isn’t having contact with other people - he’s the one taking risks to meet up with me! Plus now I wouldn’t consider sleeping with anyone new, as I always now wait a month between new sex partners to minimize STD risks. With Corona, I won’t be going in to get those panels run anytime soon. I don’t fear I will catch anything from him - his last test was in January - but I will always be safe.
That said, I have been using my diaphragm without any spermicide! I am out and our local Walgreens is as well. I ordered some from Amazon and it should be here this week. However, it’s not a major concern as he has the typical middle age man plight of having difficulties with finishing inside a woman and needing a specific technique that does the trick. So he hasn’t put me in any situations where I feel there is a risk. He didn’t even come during every encounter - his priority was always on me and my feelings and just giving me as many orgasms as he could. Which was a lot!
DarkKnight and MisterMoonbeam seem to have the same level of compersion- it’s interesting to have two partners who are both checking in with me about each other and encouraging me to keep communication flowing. When MisterMoonbeam left Sunday afternoon, DarkKnight and I finished watching episodes of Tiger King (holy shit that was a train wreck and hilarious!) and then fell into bed with each other as well. I have been concerned about him but he has been clear about wanting some space to deal with his grief over his mother’s death and the feelings he has about his extended family. He told me to go spend time with MisterMoonbeam so he could handle that. So I did. Reconnecting in the bedroom after a weekend with MisterMoonbeam was great, even though I was exhausted! We took a nap afterward, and then in the evening we ordered in pizza and started rewatching the first season of The Expanse.
SmoothJazz out of the blue messaged me again and I told him I was seeing someone and he seemed disappointed and didn’t have much to say afterword.