So in an unexpected turn of events, Missy's primary came into my work today to visit with me. Let's call him "Van" for the sake of clarity.
So Van stops into my workplace and on his arm is a woman I have never met. He cheerfully shouts "Hey Tsuki, how are you?!" to get my attention. I turn and smile back and go to greet them. He introduces me to one of his other relationships and I greet her with a warm smile and a polite hello. He tells me that he would love to have me over to the house sometime, for a group get together. He would like an opportunity to get to know me better, since I have become a big part of Missy's life these days. I was very excited and agreed that it sounded like fun. I like Van, he is a really nice guy and always seems to have Missy's best interests at heart. We chatted for about 10 min, about how things were going with him, and how his new job was going, and how he got Missy an interview at his job. I sorta balked when he mentioned the interview. I told him that 90% of the time we see each other, is the moments we share at work, and if she left... I most certainly wouldn't see much of her anymore. He seemed put off by that, and tried to come up with some ideas to increase our time together... I smiled sullenly and sighed. I told him that it was disappointing but if this new job will make Missy happier than the one she has now, and if they are willing to give her 40 hours a week, then I am all for it. I told him with a half smile that her survival and happiness was the most important thing and that should be the #1 priority. Van smiled softly and nodded when I said that... he seemed impressed with me I guess LOL.
He then steered the conversation back to getting together in the near future, and mentioned with an air of annoyance, "We can do something more fun... than watch anime vines with Mika...". I looked away, trying not to show my feelings and I mumbled, "Oh... you heard about that huh?". Van shook his head and said in hushed, but clearly angry tones "That's just the way Mika is, she always takes over the whole room. I can't begin to tell you how many private moments she ruined between Missy and I, just because she hates to be alone". I looked him in the eyes, a little surprised, "You mean, she does that ALL the time?!?". He nodded and frowned, "Yeah, and quite honestly I consider the both of them 'ex-roommates'. That's why I want Missy to get this new job, so we can move out". I tried not to show my shock as I struggled to continue the conversation, "Oh... really? Have you found a place... nearby?". Van said flatly, "Not really... it's like a 40min drive away from here... but closer to my job...". I tried really hard not to get teary eyed as I nodded politely, "Well... that's... convenient...". I smiled and feigned a laugh, "Well... I better get back to work... heh, before I get into trouble... nice to see you Van, don't be a stranger okay".
Ugh... seems like we have hit a pretty big snag. On one hand, I am glad that Van approves of me so much, and WANT'S me to be in Missy's life... but on the other, the fates are cruel to place such a distance between us. Missy's house is literally a short walk away from my work, and less than an hour's walk from my house. The only times I was able to see her, were early in the morning after I dropped my son off at school, and up until I picked him back up again. I literally have no free time after that. I have a family to look after, and important obligations that must be met on a daily basis. I have very little wiggle room. If she moves so far away, and changes jobs... I don't think I will ever see her again. I know that sounds over-dramatic, but it's the simple truth. I have turned my schedule over and over in my head, and if she worked monday through friday, 9-5 every day... and I always have to work weekends... so yeah, not good. Regardless, we will just see what happens. Once again, maybe I am stressing over nothing. I guess we shall see.
