I AM STUNNED
Not disheartened about America, but dumbfounded. I don't think that people who voted for Trump are stupid and in fact, Trump might do a lot of good for our budget and our world economy. But I was wrong in a big way and I admit it! Wow.
Trump's victory speech "I will be president for all Americans."
Watching this speech, I can see why he won. He wasn't my choice by a long shot, but he will be our president and today I'm going to make it my business to look for the good that this man's presence will do in the world. I'm not going to start doomsaying or hand wringing and today I am going to listen to what he has to say. I'm sure that there will be much for me to disagree with him about, but today I'm going to start with listening.
I very sincerely and deeply, almost desperately, hope that this works out for you. It would be amazing if my fears do not come to pass.
With our government entirely in the hands of Republicans and the world stage set as it is, I see no possible good coming of this. I want to run, hide, and have fleetingly contemplated alternatives more dire.
My Grandpa is dying. Before he goes, he will know that every civil right won in his lifetime will be wiped away, and that his daughter and granddaughter are looking to a pretty hopeless future.
My Mom is dependent upon the state welfare system not only for benefits or healthcare, she WORKS for DHS. I expect that will be gutted.
Social security? Not for long.
Trump doesn't think that consent matters...but it's not really like women had much legal protection from rape anyways. It's just that a generation of young men will grow up thinking that's what being a real man and not a loser looks like. Those willing to violate women, and they are many more than I wanted to give our society credit for, shall now be emboldened. I do not feel safe. I used to defend men. Now I will defend no one. The well of compassion has officially run dry. I'm having a hard time even looking my teenage son in the face, I can't even lie. I have never felt so betrayed in my life. I feel like a majority of my country has just told me that I am not a human and deserve no rights, no decency, and no civility.
If you aren't a rich man you're a loser. If you aren't a hot woman, you're a disgusting pig. If you are a hot woman, you're just a piece of ass. If you're not white, you're a rapist, criminal, basically an animal. If you're not a Christian, you must be a terrorist. Welcome to Murica. Klan rallies and lynchings, mass deportation and walls. Oh, and don't insult the leader or he'll sue you at the very least. He only likes free speech if he's the one running his mouth. Tried to teach your kids not to be bullies? We just elected the biggest bully of them all.
Fear and hate. And here I gave us so much credit.
I feel cold today, and like I have stones in my stomach, my heart. I can't speak to anyone out loud. I've been unfriending people left and right on Facebook, because I no longer wish to have contact with the many I can no longer trust. I'm actually thinking I should just leave social media, and all of my social groups behind.
But all of that...it's nothing really. It sucks. But it's nothing.
I'm still worried sick about Russia. Because on the one hand, we had Putin making threats about war if we elected Hillary, and her saying she would impose a no-fly zone over Syria. We are SO used to our foreign policies being about stuff that happened outside of our nation...only peripherally effecting us, never on our own soil, except in the eyes of our soldiers.
But what if Putin really had a horse in this race, far beyond wanting an American president who would let him do as he pleases with Syria. What if he actually stood to gain? I personally think that Trump would sell his own mother out for a gold leaf roll of toilet paper. Now he's got the support of the majority who are hateful and angry. So. What are we looking at? The destruction of America from within, as it could never be done from without? And Russia has a problem with declining birthrate for a long time now, and an aging and quickly dying population. Their biggest population growth has been from annexation and flexing its muscle in its neighborhood. Russian men are dying, drunk, and Russian women aren't breeding.
We have a lot of healthy, fertile breeders here in the States. What's stopping Trump from shipping Putin some nice human cattle? This is what we signed on for. The possibilities don't stop being horrifying.
Of course, most of America probably doesn't think it's really that horrifying as long as it doesn't effect them. As long as it's not YOUR woman, who cares? Women aren't human people like men anyways. Best get cozy with it, it's what I used to fear, it's the gremlin voice in my head, and it was right all along. This is what the men around me want, and fuck, some of the women, too. And me trying to trust and feel safe was nothing but a bad, delusional joke.
Though the reality is, the fools sold out the nation out of not only hate and fear, but a hopeful greed. They think their big chance to "live the dream" and have lots of money is personified in Trump. Uh huh. I can find no indication that he has ever in his life served anyone but himself. America is not going to prosper under him.
So yeah. Russia is talking peace now. Fantastic. And meanwhile, the world's economy is tanking.
