Sailing Solo

I meet Kip, it was great and I mean great. I needed a really good fuck. It was all about me and I absolutely enjoyed it.
He wants to start over, says he didn't realize how much I meant to him till I was gone. I am done with the previous relationship though, I don't want to go back. We can meet and have fantastic sex every once in a while but for me that is it. We tried the other way twice. He wants to be my master again. I said no way, I trusted you and you blew it. Twice. FBs is my offer, he accepted.

I am seeing Prof 4 nights this week. I offered to cancel Wednesday so he could have " lonely time."( my kids expression ) He said his 2 favorite things to do right now are ride his scooter and hang out with me, so no to cancelling. Apparently he is super stressed at work, 6 months since Ms Text died and feels overloaded and overwhelmed (my words not his) and I help him to relax and sleep. Human Ambien at work!

We ended up at the restaurant where he and Ms Text went at the same time last year for the same event. I was doing a little internal eye rolling, why bring me to somewhere on the 6 month anniversary of your partner's death that was special to you? But he needed to talk about that, so I let him talk, and he talked and talked, a little about Ms Text, a lot about work, fixing the garage door with the kids last week, all sorts really. We were asleep by 11pm which is very early for him, he is in a cycle of going to sleep at 3-4am and getting up at 9. No sex and just a very quick quickie the next morning.

We had the dinner with his real estate agents on Tuesday, so cat is out of the bag there I assume. Some ok sex after.

I hope we are having BD play tonight after the trick or treating ends. I miss extended sex sessions and hope a little BD play will get him in the mood. I don't know what else to do or say on the subject. Libidos are not matching. If Joe didn't have a goatee then I would be fucking him tomorrow. He offered to shave it off but he is still with Ms Mono, so no point.

I am having my kids tonight for a little. #1 was crying about wanting to go out with me, and the ex agreed I could have them, so I have 3 stops to take them, my BFF, Prof and former neighbor. Prof was disappointed we are not doing sleepovers, he got marshmallow and sticks so we could have a FIRE! in the living room with MARSHMALLOWS! #2 child is in a shouty stage :)

I made a costume, oh yes I did. #2 wanted to be a spider. I sewed and stuffed and used string and stuck on cob webs and little plastic spiders. Awesome.
#1 Is going in last year's costume, thank goodness.
Then tomorrow I work on class, clean house and try to be alone for more than 30 seconds. Prof has a few trips scheduled in November so I can back away a little and it not be noticed. I just do not have the time for 4 nights in one week. He has some other lovely ladies to spend time with too.
 
Hmm, do you see any yellow flags in Prof's behavior? It seems to me he wants to be your main man and live with you, perhaps replace Ms. Text with you. I would be cautious. He is still grieving and yet has gone from 10 mph to 100, in terms of his involvement in your life (buying the house for you, seeing you much more frequently, taking trips together, etc.). Is that what you want? Especially when the sex is so mediocre? It seems he gets you more tangled up in his life all the time, and I am sure the ease with which he can treat you to nice things is a temptation, but you might be getting into something that you will find yourself wanting to extricate yourself from.

Also, the idea of you renting out the house and living with him somewhere else makes me wonder if he bit off more than he could chew, and is now trying to minimize damage, or that he wants more control over how you spend your time.

Sorry, just had to point that out - be careful.
 
HI NYC,
I always appreciate your thoughts.
I have been thinking quite a lot along the same lines. I am not sure what you mean on the house situation. He already owns 4 outright, so it is not a money thing. And much as it is flattering that he would like to live together, I really don't want to. Never say never, but I am very happy having my own space and wouldn't want to move the kids into another new school. I am hoping he will simply let the topic drop, maybe just pillow talk.
Yes, it does seem to have developed awfully quickly. I have been thinking a lot about this too. We went out last night in our matching Halloween costumes, I have never done that before, same costumes we took on the "geekend." I was laughing at how cheesy we are being and he got all serious said and said he was having so much fun, we do things that he has wanted to do for years but none of his partners were interested in, I travel how he likes to travel, laugh at the same terrible classic sci-fi shows. And in a way it is the same for me, my ex refused to do anything that didn't have a bar available and managed to ruin what few trips we took with his temper. We have the levels of NRE that you find in the beginning of a relationship, but yet are heading towards being together for 2 years. There are more than a few moments that I do not recognize him as the man I dated before Ms Text died. Is he replacing her with me? I can't rule it out, though her and I seem to be very different people.Unlikely she would put on a Star trek uniform and drive around back roads looking for the Roswell UFO crash site. :D That's one thing we did on the geekend.
Does he want to be my main man? I think yes to that. We discussed dating a few weeks back and he expressed that he wouldn't like to loose priority pick on the free time that I have. Do I worry about being able to extricate myself? No, but I do agree we see each other too much right now and that he has a few business trips booked so I can use that dial back time to gauge my feelings from a distance. Do I enjoy the treats and someone wanting to care of me? Yes, I have never dated anyone who is in the financial position he is is in. When we were on the plane I read through the Skymall magazine with him and was laughing my leg off at the shower head with built in LED lights, who comes up with this junk? It was a party in the bathroom! So he bought one, put it in his shower and last night we had a party in the shower. He was so pleased with himself, loved my reaction. They are not expensive by any means, but he did it cause he thought we would have fun with it. He brought me out a cup off tea in the rain last night when I was trick or treating with my kids, cause he thought I looked frazzled. Little things but very touching.
Mostly, I am happy, we have a lot of fun and laugh a lot.
But the sex... it was very good last night but not much PIV. There was some hungover PIV and PIA this morning. I do like PIV, and PIA a lot. Oral and manual is all well and good but I don't want it to be the majority of activity and that is what it is. I cant quite remember his exact words from last night but it was along along the lines of the sex is great no matter if it includes penetration or not. I thought to myself, no, my favorite is the penetration.
 
HI NYC,
I always appreciate your thoughts.
I have been thinking quite a lot along the same lines. I am not sure what you mean on the house situation. He already owns 4 outright, so it is not a money thing. And much as it is flattering that he would like to live together, I really don't want to. Never say never, but I am very happy having my own space and wouldn't want to move the kids into another new school. I am hoping he will simply let the topic drop, maybe just pillow talk.
Yes, it does seem to have developed awfully quickly. I have been thinking a lot about this too. We went out last night in our matching Halloween costumes, I have never done that before, same costumes we took on the "geekend." I was laughing at how cheesy we are being and he got all serious said and said he was having so much fun, we do things that he has wanted to do for years but none of his partners were interested in, I travel how he likes to travel, laugh at the same terrible classic sci-fi shows. And in a way it is the same for me, my ex refused to do anything that didn't have a bar available and managed to ruin what few trips we took with his temper. We have the levels of NRE that you find in the beginning of a relationship, but yet are heading towards being together for 2 years. There are more than a few moments that I do not recognize him as the man I dated before Ms Text died. Is he replacing her with me? I can't rule it out, though her and I seem to be very different people.
Does he want to be my main man? I think yes to that. We discussed dating a few weeks back and he expressed that he wouldn't like to loose priority pick on the free time that I have. Do I worry about being able to extricate myself? No, but I do agree we see each other too much right now and that he has a few business trips booked so I can use that dial back time to gauge my feelings from a distance. Do I enjoy the treats and someone wanting to care of me? Yes, I have never dated anyone who is in the financial position he is is in. When we were on the plane I read through the Skymall magazine with him and was laughing my leg off at the shower head with built in LED lights, who comes up with this junk? It was a party in the bathroom! So he bought one, put it in his shower and last night we had a party in the shower. He was so pleased with himself, loved my reaction. They are not expensive by any means, but he did it cause he thought we would have fun with it. He brought me out a cup off tea in the rain last night when I was trick or treating with my kids, cause he thought I looked frazzled. Little things but very touching.
Mostly, I am happy, we have a lot of fun and laugh a lot.
But the sex... it was very good last night but not much PIV. There was some hungover PIV and PIA this morning. I do like PIV, and PIA a lot. Oral and manual is all well and good but I don't want it to be the majority of activity and that is what it is. I cant quite remember his exact words from last night but it was along along the lines of the sex is great no matter if it includes penetration or not. I thought to myself, no, my favorite is the penetration.
 
I booked concert tickets for September next year and invited Prof as I know he wants to see the band too. I thought well, I can keep the tickets and if we are not together then I can find someone else or try to sell the second one. I paid quite a large sum of money as this is my all time favorite by far band and I want good seats.
Before I know it, Prof is organizing his old scooter club buddies, getting ready to order a scooter lift for the camper van and talking hotels and tells me I need to re-up my bike license as I never took the test and my permit expired.
I was getting my knickers in a bit of a twist and then thought to myself that there is no way I wont go ( barring accidents ) and I'll just have to leave it to the gods as to whether or not we are still together.
And yes, I know I said no more tickets but this is for next year. :D
So my backing off thing and not wanting to commit is not going too well! :rolleyes:
 
I pressed "refresh page" by accident and lost my update.
Short version:
Monday: Prof visited for a few hours, he wanted to turn up my water pressure, I made dinner, he stayed till a little after the kids went to bed, then I went to bed, he went home.

Tuesday: Kip and sex sex sex, oh how I love the sex. Plus a lovely bag with picnic treats, a house warming gift card and a belated birthday gift card for me. He is trying really hard, but there is no need, I have moved on from that.

Wednesday: Prof arrived late due to a dinner meeting, we watched tv, no sex, went to sleep. We did have some good enough sex the following morning.

And that is it, a few texts with Prof but I am happy to have space this week and weekend. We will probably meet at least twice next week as his postponed party is on Friday.
 
I saw Prof last night. We texted a little about the camper van and he said he would come over to give me the update in person. It was fairly brief as the van is ready! But he stayed to watch an episode of tv and then we watched "The Bus" a short documentary about VW buses. No sex. :rolleyes: He said he would come over tonight to make up for it. I am a bit of a loss here. When I think of the intensity of sex with Kip, then what I have with Prof, I find it is frequently just so so.But on the other hand we do have so much fun, travel well together and I do find him to be mentally stimulating, just would like the stimulation to happen below the belt too. I think another frustration is I think he is pretty hot, I find him visually appealing and want to be naked and get to the level that I know we can. Och well, all else is good.
Kip says I have a high libido :D
Other news is that my ex decided to give-up all but one day of school pick up for the kids with 20 hours notice that the 6.7 mile trip was too far and he was "over it". The after school program has a wait-list, I know cause one of mine has been on it since September. I am scrambling to get help and looking for someone to transport them to their old daycare across town. It is a major pain in the ass, which is what the ex wanted.
I joined a local gym too. I can't do the lunchtime work-outs at work as I don't have a lunchtime and have been starting to feel slobby and unfit, it has been a few months since I did any exercise regularly. They have an awesome daycare with all kinds of equipment and trampolines too. The kids love it, they worked up a sweat while I did yoga, my arms were shaking, and it felt good. We went for a walk this morning with my friend, played not intense tennis yesterday and hit the bike track this evening. Trouble is, most of it is just does not raise my heart-rate for long enough, but getting outdoors is always great.
We plan to hit the gym tomorrow on the way home,but will have to see how tired the kids are. I feel bad putting them into daycare 4 days a week. I haven't met a single other parent from the kids classes as I drop them off early and pick them up late. I don't know how else to do it. Everyone I know works. :( On the plus side they usually complain that they are in the middle of something and don't want to leave.
 
No sex last night either.
He made a fun pass at me this morning when I took him some tea and asked for morning sex. I laughed and said I was worried he was losing interest. He replied that he thought we had got stuck in a beer, tv and sleep rut. I said I don't drink beer and know he loves the program we are watching, and don"t want to interrupt, but I find it hard to resist jumping on him. He said, "Don't resist, more sex, less tv." We will see what happens, at least it is out there in a light hearted way.
He said no to tonight, I want to get started :) but yes to Tuesday and yes to weds and we can have some BD play.
 
Veteran's Day.
Thank-you for your service.

I drove Prof to pick-up the camper van yesterday. Yeah!!!!!! However, the check engine light came on near home so it has to go back :(
It is hardly the weather for camping but we can have some fun in the driveway after dark :D
It is a fairly long drive up there, about an hour 30 mins, so we had time to talk, well, he talked and I listened. He talked about his kids, the age spread and genders are the same as mine, a little about Ms Text, a lot about ex-wife. Skipped the chat about sex but later did text a nice pic of boobs in a cute bra.
He is going to help with the school pick-up on Thursday, get #2 child and drive them to daycare. I will get #1 later. There will be ructions when #1 finds out #2 got a ride in the sports car with Prof, but there is nothing to be done. I hated asking him, but I am over a barrel until a space opens at the school daycare.
Fingers crossed there will be some spots opening over the winter holiday.

Planning some fun time with Kip tomorrow, cause great sex is worth planning for.
 
No sex with Kip, he had a cold. No idea if it was true story or not, but he cancelled. Worked for me. I used the time to virtually complete my intern project, still have to scan some attachments and get some signatures but, wow. that part is pretty much done! Barely touched my thesis however.

I am seeing Prof so much. Tuesday, Weds, he picked up #2 kid for me on Thursday, Friday and supposedly tonight. Admittedly, he comes round at about 8 and I am so done with day that the odds of me doing school work are minimal. He has been amazing with getting some projects done around here. I told him I cant afford it right now, but he went ahead and got new lights for the garage, diverter spout for the bath, some rather expensive LED bulbs for the living room, and a $300 ladder so we can reach one of the lights that has gone out. He said he needed a ladder, but hey seems to have managed up till my light went out, and wood for a closet project that he finished this morning. As always, it is the time, that impresses me. He is back to working 7 days a week and still found time to do these things for me. He also picked up a bike rack and ordered the extender part so "we" can put 4 bikes on it. All very happy families.

I am taking deep breaths and trying to go with it. Trying not to get all "you want to come over again?" We did have a super fun dinner and BD night on Weds. I went out wearing stockings and heels, a dress and not much else. He enjoyed that, we did the naughty in the camper in the parking lot outside the restaurant, very funny. then back to his for a very fun BD session. Was like the old days when Weds was pretty much fun and extended sex sessions.

I stopped writing this to go and clear old caulk from the shower/tub. I scraped and then put dissolving gel on it. The whole time thinking, I don't have time for this I need to be working on my project. I did some paint touch up earlier too, in between grocery shopping and laundry, climbing the ladder to change bulbs..

I am fairly sure I have told Prof on more than one occasion that I do not have the time or money for home improvement till next year. I am not being coy about it, I don't want him to buy stuff, I can do it myself, but not until next year. He wants it to look perfect for (apart from the garage door, that was beyond what I would feel comfortable doing) my parents arriving. It won't look perfect, but it is clean and comfortable. Every time I write about Prof telling me to do house stuff I imagine those homes on hoarders and that is what you all must imagine my place looks like, it does not. :rolleyes: I do appreciate his efforts, very much so, but I am starting to feel like a failure if I don't get the jobs done that he asks me to do. Plus he is here so much, which I do kind of like but at the same time need him to cool it a little.
Oh dear, time for a talk.
 
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I wrote a whingey post about Prof and the fact I felt forced into spending my weekend scraping caulk out of the tub. However, he is doing the actual caulking tomorrow and I bet it will look fab. So Yeah :D for Prof and helping me do things around here to make my home cleaner and mold free.
He is out of state mid-week so I can pound out some classwork on Wednesday, trying to stay positive here.

He cooked a lovely dinner last night, goat's cheese ravioli with vodka cream sauce, grilled salad, homemade vinaigrette and warm bread. I did assist :) mostly cleaning and chopping garlic. I was asleep just after 10pm, so it was me too tired for sex. We did have fun this morning and made use of his, as I like to call it, full-length fucking mirror. I find it quite the turn on watching him fuck me:D

Kip and I are planning to meet next week sometime, probably Weds. I let him ask for time these days, which he does. I am not even sure about Weds as the whole school run thing is sucking up too much time.
I am paying back the work time with not taking lunch, arriving earlier and leaving later. Hopefully will get it sorted in court tomorrow and fingers crossed the ex doesnt serve me papers to revoke the divorce. I will be dismayed if he does.

There is only so much I can deal with at once and opening that can of worms again would drive me nuts. I do not have the time to deal with it. Prof said he would loan me the money for a lawyer and I might have to take him up on it :( Think positive Atlantis! Court tomorrow then and done with it for another year, no reversed divorce, click heels together 3 times and repeat.
 
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He cooked a lovely dinner last night, goat's cheese ravioli with vodka cream sauce, grilled salad, homemade vinaigrette and warm bread.
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Ohhh, delicious "food porn" - I am drooling.

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Hopefully will get it sorted in court tomorrow and fingers crossed the ex doesnt serve me papers to revoke the divorce. I will be dismayed if he does.
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WTF...you can "revoke" a divorce?!:eek:
 
Revoke isnt the right word. Claim that process wasn't followed and he wants the case reopened. Anyway that didn't happen, not to say he won't try it later.

The judge kept with the new plan of reduced time for him, I had documentation up the wazoo, the ex had nothing and told lie after lie, which was refuted by paperwork. The judge was getting annoyed with him and the lies, especially when my ex called the judge a bad tipper and the ex's lawyer just about crawled under the table with shock.

The judge ordered the ex to turn up on his assigned days, keep the kids and do their homework, he hasnt helped them with it for weeks. Ex texted me yesterday to say he couldnt do pick-ups this week but would start after Thanksgiving. @@ then texted to say he could get one kid but not the other, then his GF could get one, then he could do both. I am going to get them as planned and see if ex turns up. I suspect I will get the flake text sometime tomorrow morning.

I also found out that not only has the ex been withholding school paperwork and filling it in( incorrectly ), but his GF had signed things as legal guardian. I sent her a cease and desist text.

I was hoping all this would stop at the new school but my ex loves to push buttons. So the teachers are now aware he lost legal rights in addition to the school office, and not to accept paperwork from him. I have no objections to my ex receiving information but the man doesnt even know who the kids doctor is. I emailed and gave him printed copies of the kids medical cards @@ he still couldnt get it right.

Yes, Prof is a good cook. He enjoys cooking, i enjoy eating. He cooks when we camp, I do dishes, breakfast and prep. the vodka cream sauce went over hand-made ravioli. Was incredible. no left-overs :(

He is out of town till friday and unavailable till sunday. Probably has a date on Saturday. I dont think he has been seeing much of his other partners recently, but don't really know. I suppose we should have a relationship check-in chat soon. I am planning to meet Joe in a couple of weeks for some naked time. I would never date him again, that bridge is long burned, but some sex lasting as long as i want it to, would be awesome.
 
The bath/shower does look fab. When I moved in there I was contemplating ripping the whole thing out. Many hours with a stiff brush and bleach later and the new caulk, it looks like new. The grout was in very good condition, just needed a scrub.
I did the paint touch-ups last night and finished a class assignment. Amazing what can be done with no kids and no date! The kids should be with their dad for 5 nights over the holiday so I can crank out all sorts of work, at least that is the plan. The ex usually does all his nights when my parents are here, spiteful man.

As I was driving this morning I realised that I do practice hierarchical poly, time hierarchy. Prof has had Weds for nearly 2 years at this point, I can't imagine pulling that out from under him, but yet it severely cuts back the opportunities I have for meeting new people, hence the recycling of Joe and Kip.
Under normal circumstance I would not have looked back at either of them, but time constraints being what they are, I have reengaged with both. I have kind of known this but not fully explored the idea. I am not sure if I am driven to make any changes right now but think that I will sometime in the near future. I find myself unwilling be in a romantic relationship where I feel my sexual advances are gently rejected or sex is infrequent and inadequate, yet I give the bulk of my free time to this partner. On the other hand Prof is such a wonderful person, we had some lovely emails and texts last night. bigger news in the emails and chitter chat in the texts. I feel I should be more thankful for having a solid partner and less desirous of wild sex.
 
On the second night Prof was out of state, I sent him a photostory via text. Safe to say he enjoyed it. He actually asked me to call him for a chat, we did Facetime and the kids spent most of it showing him Pokemon cards. I am not in agreement with Pokemom, waste of money. At least Lego sets can be used for other things when they fall apart. Prof knows a lot about Pokemon, I was quite surprised. We booked a weekend slot for the second set of cheap plane tickets. It is pretty challenging when I am back to only 2 nights kid free weekends (what was I thinking ) but we will work something out. It did make me appreciate how hard it must be to work with my schedule. No longer time possible till Spring break.

I met Kip on Thursday, I had to go back to work for a bit but he stayed and we had lots more sex when I returned. It was very good. I have a lovely thumb shaped bruise on my wrists, makes me smile when I look at it.
That has been it for the week, but I am not prepared to do anything about it until I finish my thesis, so should quit complaining, but I won't ;)
I am meeting Prof tonight. The parents are here and sending me off to have some fun. I hope Prof is in the mood for some sexy time tonight. I suspect he had a date last night, and he seems to need a recovery day off in between, so ...och well, it is what it is.
The parents think the house is fab and it is wonderful to see them.They took the monsters out yesterday and I got the car cleaned out and then started washing the wood trim. Made it all the way from the entry way up the first flight of stairs and finished the downstairs bathroom. Today is hang pictures, get the ladder out for the bulbs, gym, some classwork time and slobbing. It is amazing what can get accomplished when there are 3 adults to help with the basic honey dos. Leaves time to get some extra stuff done and watch a bit of tv!
 
Was it Sunday night when I met Prof? Lots of really fun and intense sex. Started with sex in the kitchen, had dinner, moved to living room, more sex, tea break, shower sex and mirror sex. Awesome! But he sent me a text the next day that said it was fun and wild but did not want it like that too often :rolleyes: Was a bit of a downer TBH. I said I thought he had been losing interest recently, his reply was "incorrect." I think we are simply mismatched libidos and preferred level of intensity. He likes that level once in a while, I like that level frequently.
I asked Kip about how often he could do what we did on Thursday and want more? He said later that night. :D
Prof did not have a date Saturday night. He had his friend staying over. I must admit that I would have minded if it meant not good sex on Sunday with me, resentful is probably the best word. Not a good emotion. It didnt happen but while there might be more than enough love to go round, there isnt necessarily enough making love to go round. And still I am not prepared to do anything about it.:eek:
 
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Awesome! But he sent me a text the next day that said it was fun and wild but did not want it like that too often :rolleyes: Was a bit of a downer TBH.
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Yeah, really - what a way to harsh your buzz. Maybe he was afraid he wouldn't be able to perform like that again and just didn't want to get your hopes up for more of the same - but that kind of a message after an awesome day of sex would really piss me off.
 
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HI NYC,
I said it would be great to have that kind of session " fairly regularly," he had 2 comments, "not every night" and "he needed "a period to dwell and recharge." So yes, doesn't want to get my hopes up but as we were texting about our favourite parts it seemed unnecessary to bring in the negative. I wouldn't describe myself as pissed off, but definitely a bit taken aback.
After sitting here thinking about it, I have made it clear that I don't think we have sex often enough and that it was getting into a bit of a rut, the rut being that it was consistently not very good quality, not that it was vanilla, too frequently he would basically fade away mid session. Hence asking for BD play, cute outfits, naughty text pics and trying to spice things up. Maybe it was becoming a bit much and he is nicely saying back off for a bit. I am trying to fix something that maybe doesn't have a solution from my end. The interest and performance level is what is.
Rather sadly, I was taking it personally, rejoined a gym, lost 5lbs, but none of this is new. I have been complaining about it since I have known him. He used to send the " I am tired, do not expect much" texts. I know he has been on Cialis for years. I have to let it go, but I keep picking at it. I need to lower expectations and work with that, but I don't. I want great most of the time.
 
And it has been really good sex with Prof since that last post. Not one disappointing session. He did bring up the topic of sex, said he needed to be more on top of taking the Cialis but that he didn't like taking it regularly. I suppose he must be taking it more often because the results have been noticeable. Lots of very fun sex that lasts for hours.
He is out on date tonight. I dont think he has dated for weeks, we have been together almost constantly since he came back from his last trip. It will be interesting to see how things settle down now the holidays are over and the new kid schedule kicks in. I did tell him that I was feeling like things will change and was a little worried about it. He said he is happy and things will be fine :D He said he feels he has the only non-disfunctional relationship out of all the people he knows, so that is good.
I met Ms Bike last weekend, she was very nice, friendly, seemed a little nervous to meet me. Pin-up girl style and fairly curvy, looked likes she takes care of hair and make-up.
I also didnt meet his ex wife. :rolleyes: She was at the game with his #2 son. At the end of the game she came over, hugged as in HUGGED,and squeezed and kissed Pro, totally ignored me. I was a little surprised as I though they didnt get along so well but really didnt give a rat's ass about the rest of it, I knew i was the one fucking him later. Prof later told me the hugging was entirely for my benefit and she actually tried to kiss him on the lips, he was annoyed by it. He also appreciated that I wasn't at all upset by the display and didn't turn it into an issue. I thought it was an obvious attempt to create ructions and found it quite amusing in its immaturity. I didn't tell him that.
Great sex with Kip.
He is trying to be sweet and affectionate, I find it disconcerting. The boundaries have shifted. It was what I wanted but now I have it I don't know if it is genuine or not. He offered to make me a cup of tea, for only the second time in over 2 years.. :p He has no idea how I take it :rolleyes: Prof and Joe know. Says quite a lot doesn't it?
Holiday preparations are under way. Prof is going a little mad with gift buying, he is picking things up for me and the kids left, right and center. The big thing is the 2 way Kuat NV bike rack with 2 bike extension. I was floored. I helped him put it together and when we finished he said it was for me and the kids so we could all go biking together :eek: and could he borrow it occasionally? He will fit the hitch to my car when it arrives but till then I can borrow the van and take the monsters out for a trial run this weekend.
 
I lost this morning's post. Can't even remember what thrilling details I imparted, something about Kip and his bursitis on Friday, I massaged, gave painkillers, hot water bottle, lots of sympathy and cuddles. very little sex!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Poor man tried:( Wow but he tried. He was a little angry and upset when he left, in pain but more disappointed about the lack of sex. He offered to take me to dinner :eek: but I was meeting a friend before I got the kids back so had to decline.
There was something about watching Dr Who with Prof then fucking the Dr. :p
Prof said he was busy all weekend but came round last night to play trains and watch tv and have some very good sex. I was worried that the "watch tv" was the beginning of the decline but nope! We bounced around till I said enough, which doesn't happen often :D

Reading Opalescent's post about being secondary... wow but did that bring back some unhappy memories. I occasionally leave my toothbrush out at Prof's now, I asked to leave some jammies at his and he said yes. He has half a drawer at my house :rolleyes: and actually has a drawer at his with forgotten date's clothes, so I figure I can have a bit of that one. That wouldn't have happened this time last year.
I was asking how Ms Admin ( I think I called her) is doing, he said she has "dispensation" to have sex with him cause it's Christmas. Ugh, partners dictating relationships. Been there done that. I said I want dispensation and he said we don't have any rules to give dispensation for. I said I want it anyway and it was granted :D He then reiterated that I really was an easy going person and that other people ( read Ms Text ) would have flipped her lid at the ex wife incident at the game, tears, drama, phone calls.

I told him that I loved him the other day. He looked stunned. It popped out during a "my parents never told us kids that they loved us but they tell the grandkids" ramble. It hasn't been mentioned since. I felt good to say it. I care deeply for him, I smile when I see him, I plan things that I think he will enjoy. Is a good enough definition of love. It was a little hypocritical bemoaning the lack of parental expression and not saying it myself to my lover of nearly 2 years :eek:
 
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