Hopefulgirl
New member
Hello,
My name is laura and i am 23, transgirl, and lesbian.
No one in my personal life understands what it means to be poly. I have debated in my head for months if i would write here, but honestly, i just need friends too much not to write.
I'm happily, and i do mean it when I say it, married to my wife. We've been together 9 years, 9 wonderful years. I am not looking for a relationship here at all, just friendship.
But i also have feelings for my friend. They went away at first, but they came back. I've liked her for a little over a year. I've always known i was polyamorous. My friend isn't, but im not looking for her to join my relationship. My wife is strictly monogamous. i'm not, but i practice monogamy to make her happy and feel loved, even though i love multiple people at once. i guess this is where whoever is reading this comes in.
I need to vent, to anyone who will listen. I want to talk to my wife about my feelings when they come up, but i dont want her to feel unloved, even though i don't mean it that way. I don't want her to think i'm falling out of love, but i've been bottling up these feelings for my friend for a year. if i dont talk to someone about this and process it, i will end up confessing soon, which isnt what i want. i've already noticed the things i say are starting to feel flirty. i just need to tell someone about my feelings so i can get it out of my system.
I may not be monogamous, but i do think i can make it work. i just need to express my polyamorous love with a friend and talk about how much i cherish both these people in my life and how amazing they make me feel.
If you need to know my hobbies, i love videogames, a lot. I've recently been playing Elden ring. And i love mushrooms! I grow them for fun and love learning about them. I also love hiking, and before returning to work, I hiked 3 times a week and have lots of photos. I also love cooking, but i'll be honest, it's the least favorite of my hobbies.
I just need someone to talk to about my love for my wife and feelings for my friend. i cherish both of them and want to celebrate that love and feel pride without making anyone feel unloved or uncomfortable.
My name is laura and i am 23, transgirl, and lesbian.
No one in my personal life understands what it means to be poly. I have debated in my head for months if i would write here, but honestly, i just need friends too much not to write.
I'm happily, and i do mean it when I say it, married to my wife. We've been together 9 years, 9 wonderful years. I am not looking for a relationship here at all, just friendship.
But i also have feelings for my friend. They went away at first, but they came back. I've liked her for a little over a year. I've always known i was polyamorous. My friend isn't, but im not looking for her to join my relationship. My wife is strictly monogamous. i'm not, but i practice monogamy to make her happy and feel loved, even though i love multiple people at once. i guess this is where whoever is reading this comes in.
I need to vent, to anyone who will listen. I want to talk to my wife about my feelings when they come up, but i dont want her to feel unloved, even though i don't mean it that way. I don't want her to think i'm falling out of love, but i've been bottling up these feelings for my friend for a year. if i dont talk to someone about this and process it, i will end up confessing soon, which isnt what i want. i've already noticed the things i say are starting to feel flirty. i just need to tell someone about my feelings so i can get it out of my system.
I may not be monogamous, but i do think i can make it work. i just need to express my polyamorous love with a friend and talk about how much i cherish both these people in my life and how amazing they make me feel.
If you need to know my hobbies, i love videogames, a lot. I've recently been playing Elden ring. And i love mushrooms! I grow them for fun and love learning about them. I also love hiking, and before returning to work, I hiked 3 times a week and have lots of photos. I also love cooking, but i'll be honest, it's the least favorite of my hobbies.
I just need someone to talk to about my love for my wife and feelings for my friend. i cherish both of them and want to celebrate that love and feel pride without making anyone feel unloved or uncomfortable.
