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Magdlyn

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Are you going to a cool party?
 

Rooster

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Are you going to a cool party?
The coolest thing I'm doing is entering the contest at the casino (not expecting to win but still fun to enter). Also taking the kids to the zoo trick or treat party where they set up stations throughout the zoo with mini games and stuff. We will be going to a party at the local micro brewery if we get a sitter.
 

Ostrich

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Rooster,

I read through your posts, and there a lot of similarities between your situation and what I went through with DAG. Even similar views on sex. I can do one night stands, but DAG needs an emotional connection to someone before he can have sex. Also, I went through a long period of not having a sex drive, which really negatively impacted our relationship and was one of the reasons DAG wanted to step outside of our relationship and explore a pleasure (kink).

As far as metas, it took forever for DAG to convince me that I needed his partner's phone numbers. I didn't want them because I didn't see a need to be connected to them. Only when he mentioned their use in an emergency did I get the point. Begrudgingly, I took the numbers and later regretted it. I was being sucked into their text conversations and wanted nothing to do with it. Which is why I now have a boundary about contact info.

It's good to know you found someone outside of your relationship to speak with (the gay colleague). There were things I refused to bring up with DAG, because I felt he had a bias towards Bruiser and Fisticuffs, but I felt free to talk to my other friends, as I felt they were honest brokers.

The one thing that hit home with me from your post is about your fear of KC loving someone more than she loves you. I think (I have no proof) this is the biggest reason why people have a hard time in adopting a poly lifestyle. I hate to say this, but you have no control over how she feels towards anybody. What gave me comfort was that DAG always came home. He never stayed overnight with either of his partners. He told me several times I am his one and only, and I accepted it as truth. That reinforcement helped me work through my jealousy and eventually realize that I was feeling envy more than jealousy. Now I see envy as a good emotion as it motivates me learn more about DAG, his dreams and wants.

Keep posting! It's great for processing all sorts of stuff and the people on this board have been very helpful and understanding.
 

Rooster

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Ok so, KC is planning her first 2 night stay with Jem. Therefore this time we have to work out more details than "you going out tonight?". Throughout the planning and discussion I found myself getting sick of using the term "your girlfriend" and I let a backhanded statement slip out. I said "so if your staying two nights you must be at THAT LEVEL". She froze for about 10 seconds just staring at me. I was bracing for an outburst, but then she just kept on with the conversation as if it never happened.

So that was on Friday and she stayed with Jem Saturday night. Before she left though I told her I didn't think it was fair that Jem gets to know my name and I can't know hers. It felt childish to say "it's not fair" but that's just how I felt from the gut.

Then on Sunday KC went into town to do some shopping and I was on the computer checking on a loan for a car (witch we did not purchase) and I got a text FROM JEM!

It said "hi [my name] this is [her name],you know who I am, please add me to your contact list.

It made a shiver go down my neck and then it literally felt like there were 100 rubber bands wrapped around my torso and one by one they were breaking and falling off. I've never felt anything like that from such a seemingly benine text, but to me it was huge. I now understand the saying "taking a weight off my chest" because it physically felt like that.

I responded "will do, thank you" and that was all the communication I've ever had with her but now I feel a lot better.

As soon as KC got home I started helping her put groceries away and she noticed I was smiling. She asked "what's so funny?"
Me: nothing
KC: she texted you didn't she?
Me: she sure did
KC: it's only for emergencies
Me: can I look for her Facebook?
KC: you won't find it, she uses a different name....no don't.
Me: ok fair enough

Now all of this relates to another situation that I will have to write about at a later time, but ever since Sunday I've felt much more comfortable about my wife and Jem being together.
 

Rooster

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As far as metas, it took forever for DAG to convince me that I needed his partner's phone numbers. I didn't want them because I didn't see a need to be connected to them. Only when he mentioned their use in an emergency did I get the point. Begrudgingly, I took the numbers and later regretted it. I was being sucked into their text conversations and wanted nothing to do with it. Which is why I now have a boundary about contact info.

It's just to big of a coincidence that we were both typing about this at the same time, THE UNIVERSE IS WATCHING US!!

Edit: and we are both birds
 
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Ostrich

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It's just to big of a coincidence that we were both typing about this at the same time, THE UNIVERSE IS WATCHING US!!
I will open up and say this: If you ever want to vent, ask questions, or just shoot the shit, contact me. I think you've seen my blog on this site, so you can post there too.
 

Rooster

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I don't even know where to start tonight. I got a call from the heath department, my son was exposed and now has to quarantine. He was suppose to go on a field trip next week that I already paid for but it looks like the earliest he can go back is Wednesday if he tests negative and I have to wait till Monday to get him tested.

KC still has profiles active on some dating apps and sometimes she will have several new "potential matches" or notifications. There was a time when I felt like she has me, she has Jem, isn't that enough? but I don't think that way anymore. So sometimes she will swipe through right in front of me and the other night one of my first girlfriends (from way before I met KC) showed up as a potential match on her notifications! She said "oh honey look its your old friend". Now normally that wouldn't be scary, but in this case KC thinks my "old friend" was only a friend and has no idea how intimate we were at one time. Not that I was keeping it a secret it just never came up. So I asked if she was going to respond and luckily KC said no way. KC seems to dislike her enough that she would be upset with me if she found out we were ever together.

Still waiting on more costume items to arrive, I need the torso so I can try to attach the tail. I hope I can handle walking in the boots. I have a tracking number on those and they left China, still not stateside yet. Wings are coming from Russia and no tracing on that order. I sure hope everything gets here in time.

Strangely I've felt like I'm living out the movie "The Truman Show", there have just been so many times I've felt like everyone can read my mind. It's not paranoia its just that things have unusually been falling into place at the right times lately.
 
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