Yay! My new washer and dryer have arrived and I’m spending the rest of my life using them, apparently! Lol We have a laundry mountain that seems insurmountable, but I am trying. So far these are working wonderfully.
MisterMoonbeam’s comet partner messaged me this morning and wanted to talk about him, and coming down to see him again. I have no objections, so I guess she can set that up with him. It was a nice conversation and I feel more than ever that she is a good person, with a good heart. MisterMoonbeam deserves all the love in the world.
Things are still going well with me and YellaBelly - we all went to the movies to see Across the Spiderverse last night. He took me to a pizza place right before, and that was nice. I’m uncertain about moving forward. I like him a lot in a friendly way, but I’m not feeling NRE at all, and I am feeling confused about a lot of things that are probably stifling that.
This morning I was checking out videos on my Ring doorbell, and I got to see my brother’s arrival last Friday at midnight, and him and my mother leaving and moving away at 6 am the next morning. That put me into my feels, that’s for sure. I currently have no way of contacting my mother, and not really wanting to anyway, honestly. It’s drama I don’t desire to add to my heart right now.
I woke up this morning to an amazing view, and MisterMoonbeam and I got up and opened the curtains. Then he gave me a massage. I do desire him right now - I wish it was his Friday off of work!
I told him that I wake up everyday in awe that this is our home. I also sometimes get teary, because I know how fast a life can change. The lies that PunkRock told me left scars. I think they’re scabbed over real well, but again, I’m back on the theme that great joy is only so amazing because great pain exists in the past.
I don’t want to think about great pain.
I need to shower today and head out to the bank to transfer money around for my son. I need to get the mortgage paid on our other house, and again, continue doing laundry.
This evening I would like to repot some begonias and have sex with MisterMoonbeam. DarkKnight is going straight from work to hang out with BeanBoy and eat Chinese.
I’m feeling not so good with my relationship with SirGawain again. He gave me the silent treatment yesterday and everyone but DarkKnight had something to say about his behavior at the birthday party the other day. I guess I didn’t really clue into it at the time, but after others pointed it out to me, it was pretty clear he was either angry, or upset, or depressed. I don’t know, and he won’t talk to me about it. He always seems to get into his feels when I start seeing another partner and I think this is no different.
However, it’s a guessing game, and I dislike those intensely when it comes to relationships.