Fun and Frolic With Long-Term Love

[Bluebird]

I genuinely hope this is just a bump for him - that he can move past whatever gave him a jealous moment! She messaged me several times yesterday and I guess they are “all good” now.

Yesterday was pretty busy for me. SirGawain broke our 8 month dry spell with a sexual reconnection after 1 in the morning. It was rather odd - after an evening of just existing near me and then laying in bed, with both of us on our phones, he started touching me the second the lights were off. I was confused at first, but I was down to clown.

He hadn’t brought any condoms, but I had a box next to the bed that my bestie had bought at Housewarming. Always be prepared! Lol It was a good time, and to be 100%, it was the first time someone had finished inside me since…last summer? And it was him then too. My other partners always cum elsewhere, so this felt pretty great, ngl. I didn’t feel like that sort of thing was something I miss, but damn. I always forget how intense SirGawain is as well. Yes please!

DarkKnight made everyone breakfast later in the morning - much later! - and SirGawain went home after eating. DarkKnight left as well to handle nonsense over at our other house. MisterMoonbeam messed around with our 3D printers for a bit, and then messed around with me for a bit! Another really satisfying sexual encounter, omg!

Lately MisterMoonbeam’s drive has really picked up - before moving into the new house, he seems to have gotten over some of his mental blocks and issues surrounding sex. Being able to see him be more confident, but also just be on the end of that shift, has been amazing.

Anyway, yeah, two super awesome sex experiences yesterday, and the day just continued to be lovely beyond that too! MisterMoonbeam and I went to McDonald’s after (I was really craving a shitty cheeseburger), and then he suggested we visit a local supply store to look at bird feeders and suet.

Guys, this was the sweetest unplanned date! There were baby chicks and geese and turkeys - I got to pet several of them! We ended up buying a galvanized garbage can to hold our feed corn supply and a hot pink scoop as well. We talked a lot about birds and plans for the yard in the future. It was simple, but I think we both really felt connected afterward.

In the evening yesterday I had a date with YellaBelly. At 5 pm on a Sunday in my city, there’s not a lot to do, but we figured it out. First we went to the local game store downtown and we split the cost of a new board game, and then spent about 90 minutes playing it. We both really liked the dynamic and since we are both gamers, we were both really focused on doing well. Here’s a pic of me that he took, after I won.



After the game, the restaurant we had planned to eat at was closing, so we ended up at my favorite hibachi place. YellaBelly treated me to a meal and a mixed drink, so that was really sweet. It was a good time, and we ended up back at my house, where he had some chitchat with both DarkKnight and MisterMoonbeam. (They were hanging out in the living room, watching Critical Role, when we got home.)

YellaBelly and I had some hang out time in my bedroom after that, where I did some cleanup with my laundry and swapped out the sheets on the bed. We stayed on top of the comforter though. We had a heavy make out session, and I enjoyed the orgasm he gave me with his hand. We are going to be meeting up again Tuesday night, as he’s coming into town with friends in the evening.

So yeah, yesterday was fun.

 

[Bluebird]

I was excited yesterday to play the new game was MisterMoonbeam. When DarkKnight left for his theater practice in the evening, I set it up. Unfortunately it did not go well, and MisterMoonbeam ended up knocking over everything we had done right at the end of the game on accident. He was very irritated and unhappy, even during the game.

I actually just wanted to put it away at that point, because his exasperation was close to a childish tantrum and it made me not want to play anymore. I was almost in tears because he made me feel bad. I get startled and can’t handle anyone who starts acting in such a way - I go into flight mode and just want to get gone. He calmed down super quick though and said he did want to try again.

We finished the game the second time, but I honestly don’t think I will ever ask him to play it again. It makes me feel sad because it was genuinely a fun time for me when I played it with YellaBelly.

 

[Bluebird]

I had terrible insomnia last night and slept in until after 10 am this morning. MisterMoonbeam woke me up with a cheese danish and chai latte from Starbucks, so yay! Unfortunately, he shared the news that he misread the calendar and didn’t make it to his therapy appointment on time. He rescheduled it for the 10th though.

What else is happening on the 10th? Well, thanks for asking! Our realtor has our old house now active on the MLS as “coming soon” with a cute graphic and some outside photos. We are scheduled for professional pictures on the 10th, and our open house will be the following weekend. Squeee!

I am really hoping this goes fast. I was planning on going over there today but with the rain, I think I am going to shift all of that until tomorrow and instead focus on continuing the work in my master suite here at BlackBird Manor.

I finally organized my dresser yesterday.







Which posting these photos now reminds me that I threw out pretty much every single white sock that I own, so I need to buy some.

I’m slowly emptying boxes and cleaning mess in my master bathroom - it’s taking a bit because each bin needs a home created for its contents. Ugh. That said, I am getting excited about starting to strip wallpaper in there so that’s motivating to get the unpacking part done.

 

[Bluebird]

Insomnia all week. Ugh ugh ugh.

To be fair though, one of those evenings I was getting sexed up by MisterMoonbeam, and one was me & SirGawain. Squeeee!

Last night was AMAZING. MisterMoonbeam tied my wrists together, and attached that to the bed frame, and then pulled out my Bad Dragon toy and had me absolutely vibrating. He did something new with the end of the rope - he was pulling it across my chest for a bit and it was this delicious mix of omg TICKLE and pain. I was way too over stimulated on my boobs and it had me squealing. Loved it.

I am so tired though. I keep having no sleep until I finally pass out and then I don’t wake up until late morning. I don’t like it! I need to get back to a regular schedule.

 

[Bluebird]

I had a pretty good day today, except my latest Stitch Fix box seems to be lost in the ether. Oh, and Apollo is gone now, so Reddit is shit for me. I’m not sure if I’m going to go back with their craptastic app, or just be done. I liked it for the fashion subreddits, but that’s pretty much all I really used it for. That and doomscrolling. Perhaps I will go to Instagram more now.

 

[Bluebird]

I spent some time cleaning my bedroom today, and I finally got my cross stitch Pride bees up! A friend of mine made these and they fit PERFECTLY in the space, next to the sliding door out to the deck.

She made me a polyamory one, because even though it’s not considered part of the alphabet, it IS part of who I am.



Yassss


Rainbow - Polyamory
Bisexual - Non-binary


Lesbian - Asexual
Pansexual - Transgender


With these pictures, you can see the grass wallpaper - the entire bedroom is covered in this. Usually people will only put up an accent wall because the cost is prohibitive, so I’m not sure what happened in my house! It’s hand-pasted single-strand grass paper. I’m scared to try to take it down. Lol

 

[Bluebird]

[Started my period yesterday]


AdorkableDude came to our Saturday game night this past weekend and we won a Zombicide Wulfsburg scenario. It was exciting at the end and we were all happy to have a positive result!



He took this photo.

You might notice that SirGawain is actually cut out of this photo. When I asked AdorkableDude to send me it, he was like, oh, uh, I had to crop the picture a certain way because not everyone looked their best. This was a little funny to me, because SirGawain usually needs multiple photos to smile.

Later though, I started getting upset when thinking about it, because it was obvious SirGawain was being sort of dickish during the game. He spent the night, so I asked him straight up if he liked AdorkableDude and he said not really, and I asked him if he preferred YellaBelly and he replied neither. So then I asked him if there was anyone I could date that he could tolerate and he said no.

Then he tried to initiate sex and I was not having it. I hooked up with him the next morning and after he left I realized I had started my period. Ugh. Anyway, MisterMoonbeam came in to snuggle me, and I told him about the conversation and that I really don’t think SirGawain is okay with kitchen table polyamory at the minimum, and it could just be he isn’t into polyamory long term for his mental health.

Though Sir Gawain told me he just always expected that he would be given less time when new partners were introduced, as that had been his experience in the past. Which angered me a little, because we’ve been together for 5 years on and off, and I never once took his time and gave it to someone else. In fact, I’m the one pushing him to schedule dates and things to do, and the reason the guys allowed me the master suite in the new house was so SirGawain could come and stay at times. Since he isn’t bothering to make his house hospitable to host me.

It’s so very frustrating. Even more so that in the morning, AdorkableDude texted and wanted to talk about the game night. He said he sensed a lot of hostility from SirGawain but remarked that it did seem to be less as the game progressed. I explained that it had nothing to do with him personally, and that SirGawain has had issues with every single person I’ve ever introduced him to, and that he didn’t have to be around him if he didn’t want.

AdorkableDude said he understood that and he was okay. He apparently liked MisterMoonbeam and DarkKnight and he wants me to meet his wife soon. He texted me first thing this morning and we are now going to dinner on Thursday.

SirGawain though - I guess he is coming over tomorrow for a BBQ. I’m not sure what to do with this. I did a quick check of a couple of apps and yeah, he doesn’t have me linked on FetLife, though I do link to him. He lists himself there as single, and the statement that he used to be in a Poly relationship for 20+ years but that it ended because of her dishonesty. He doesn’t say anywhere that he’s looking for poly partners. Even the groups he belongs to - only one is like singles/open/poly. The rest are for specific kinks and singles.

His OKCupid account, I just checked, and we are no longer matched. At least, I can no longer see our messages there. But the last time I talked to him about it, I know it didn’t mention polyamory at all, and we had a discussion about why he thought it was okay to not lead with that. I was actually concerned that it seemed unethical. For him to disappear from my list, I’m guessing he unmatched me? Because people who leave the site still show the messages - I just get grayed out photos saying they have been disabled. Hmmm I’m going to ask him to send me a message if he can see me there.

 

[Bluebird]

SirGawain messaged me on OKC after I contacted him this morning, asking about it, so I’m not sure if he unblocked me or there was just a glitch or what. His profile says non-monogamous, but he doesn’t go into detail or anything at all.

That’s his choice, of course, but ethically it still bothers me, and given his behavior, it really has me questioning things. Honestly, I’ve thought about it a lot the last few days, and I don’t know what I really want with this moving forward. I’m going to think on it some more. Right now my thought is just that he isn’t going to be meeting any new potential partners.

Hey, here’s a pic of me.



And of my cat Lenny, in the dining room



And Lenny again, in the living room - this time next to a vintage brutalist lamp that came with our house:


Tonight MisterMoonbeam and I went to see the new Indiana Jones movie. I liked it - there were some fun throwback moments, and it was certainly better than the Crystal Skull. The bar wasn’t set too high with that. Lol

The country club in our housing development set off private fireworks, which we got to see as we were coming home. They were visible through the trees off our back deck and it was kind of nice. DarkKnight was at theatre practice but he came outside, having arrived home just before we did! So that was pretty great.

 

[Bluebird]

I’ve had crazy insomnia for quite a while now. Last night I didn’t fall asleep until 3 am. DarkKnight made me breakfast this morning at 9:30, so I am awake now.

We don’t have any plans - I guess we are going to hang out and play board games! SirGawain is going to come over this afternoon and we’re going to have a BBQ.

The rest of the week is busy - it’s our last chance to empty out the old house, so DarkKnight will be heading there tomorrow after work to empty the shed & sweep it out (I went over on Sunday and killed all of the wasps). MisterMoonbeam is heading into the office all day, so I should have time to continue unpacking in my master bathroom.

Thursday I have a date with AdorkableDude in his town. I told him I’d like to have another one-on-one date before meeting his wife. He said he generally has potential partners meet her after a few dates. I don’t mind, but I also wouldn’t mind if it happened three months into our history together. Whatever people are comfortable with, I guess. I’ve already technically met her, since I have a photo with her from when we went to the Wildling Masquerade and we were wearing the same butterfly wings! That was just a quick picture, but it makes me laugh a little bit!

My nesting partners will probably be assisting my son that evening with moving his last load of items to his apartment, out of our old house. He’s going to stay there until Saturday morning, but other than his bed and AC unit and some clothing, almost everything else will already be relocated.

Friday night I won tickets to a play in Frederick, so I was quick to offer that to DarkKnight and we are both really excited about it. I love going to shows with him, and this is a dinner theater production, so it’s definitely going to be fun.

 

[Bluebird]

Today was lovely. I picked up my son and he hung out with my polycule and I all day, playing board games. We played Love Letter, Loot, Moon Adventure, Kites and Lifeboat. The food was absolutely yummy - DarkKnight made BBQ chicken on the grill.

I heard from AdorkableDude and he asked if we could change our date to tomorrow, because he wants to see me sooner! That made me a little squee, ngl. SirGawain said he’d take Thursday night then, which surprised me because he usually just wants two days a week. I didn’t mind, so now we have plans for dinner and arcade time.

I’m starting to get stressed about getting the old house done. It’s a lot. I’m just taking it day by day - the plan is moving forward and we should be fine. Ugh I hope it sells quick so I don’t have to think about it ever again.

 

[Bluebird]

I’m home alone today and I just hate it. I had insomnia last night so I didn’t wake up until like 9:30 this morning, and of course by then my guys had left for the day. It’s a bummer.

I had leftover chicken for lunch and I fed the cats. Right now I’m in MisterMoonbeam’s bedroom, because our blind kitty looked like she wanted some attention. It’s been a while since I gave Poppy some time, since she’s been closed up in this bedroom. (She won’t stop picking fights with Lenny.) She almost ate me alive with kisses and snuggles and snuffles. Lol So sweet!

In a minute I need to get up and take a shower. I’m hoping to spend some time this afternoon to unpack more of my master bathroom. It’s still stacked with boxes.

 

[Bluebird]

Today I spent the entire day at the old house, waiting for a plumber. The kitchen sink had no pressure, but it turns out the culprit is hard water build up on the end. It’s now in a ziplock bag full of vinegar. Hopefully that solves the issue, but if not we will have to buy a new faucet this weekend. Gah!

I put another coat of paint on the sunroom floor. Things are so empty; it’s strange. Our listing will be live on Monday. Everyone is saying it will sell super fast, and it does look like it’s priced right in the middle of the 4 other comparable houses on the market right now. Keeping my fingers crossed because I have moved on and my family is in a better place. It’s time to close the door on that chapter.

 

[Bluebird]

Updated pics of my living room.

 

[Bluebird]

I checked my mail today and we received a flyer from a neighbor inviting us to a meet & greet next month. It looks like the couple has lived in the neighborhood for 3 years, and belongs to the country club.

DarkKnight asked if he thought we should all go, or just two of us. That made me pause, because I don’t know. We’ve all walked by this house and there’s no flags out front to give us an idea about their ideology. Sigh.

 

[Bluebird]

Today is BeanBoy’s moving day! We’ve gone ahead and hired cleaners to freshen up the old house and make it all ready for the professional photos. DarkKnight and MisterMoonbeam are over there now, doing last minute small projects (hanging a blind, replacing a light bulb) and loading up BeanBoy’s bed and air conditioner. Almost everything else is done already. We’re meeting the realtor tomorrow to install the lockbox. Then the listing is live on Monday!

I stayed home and I’m doing some unpacking in my master bathroom. My focus this month is getting it all set up. The soaking tub is full of boxes and random clothing. I took care of the counters last week, finally.





Once I get everything put away, I’ll be able to start stripping the wallpaper in here. My current plan is to paint the walls a light green and the cabinets flat black. I can’t afford to do anything with the counter tops and sink at the moment. Those will be scheduled for next year - we plan to remove the soaking tub and replace it with a two-person glass shower. So we will do the countertops then as well, so everything goes together. I’m going to change the cabinet hardware this month for sure though.



This bathroom is absolutely massive. Right now it’s not being used at all, so getting everything that got thrown in here for housewarming is going to be great. I can’t wait to have it be a nice retreat!

 

[Bluebird]

Oh my old house goes live tomorrow, and there’s already a showing scheduled! I’m anxious AF. We had the professional cleaners come in today and the house looks great. Professional photos are being taken tomorrow so I should have those on Tuesday to put on the listing. I hope it sells quickly!

I took some pics today just because I was excited! I can’t remember which photos I shared previously…

 

[Magdlyn]

I can't imagine pro photos looking any better! Cute little vintage home.

 

[Bluebird]

I can't imagine pro photos looking any better! Cute little vintage home.

Apparently they have the magic. Lol Photos and video are included in our contract with the realtor, so I’m excited to see them. I’ve loved this house for so long. I’m sad to see it go.

 

[Magdlyn]

Well, they use those wide-angle lenses to make your house looks twice as big. But I think that's so misleading, like wearing a padded bra to make your A cups look like Ds. The illusion is gone once you see the real thing lol

 

[Bluebird]

Well, they use those wide-angle lenses to make your house looks twice as big. But I think that's so misleading, like wearing a padded bra to make your A cups look like Ds. The illusion is gone once you see the real thing lol

Lol I guess we will see what they come up with. My realtor just messaged me and we now have THREE showings scheduled tomorrow. I am freaking out. So exciting!!