Yesterday a friend picked me up at 9 am and we drove to an At Home store to shop and hang out. I was hoping to find some greenery so I could decorate my fireplace, and a mirror for my garb room, but I struck out on both. We went to Home Goods as well but also no luck there! I decided to wear a corset I had bought a while ago but hadn’t worn yet. You can’t tell in the photo, but the velvet blue of the corset is also an accent color all in the shirt!
TheEngineer met up with us at Home Goods and then ended up coming over unplanned afterward, so that was nice. He honestly was very distraught though, because he had been fighting with his wife again. On one hand, I REALLY appreciate how compartmentalized he keeps me - these revelations seem to always be out of nowhere because he doesn’t leak his home life into our relationship much at all. However, it’s a little distressing to me that I have zero lead up to the fact that he’s having major problems and needs support. There’s a medium in there somewhere but we have yet to discover that balance, I’m afraid.
Anyway, we went out to a late lunch at a local Mexican place and he shared that his wife was again wanting to separate, but this time she texted him that she wanted him to keep all 4 kids and wanted to be done with the whole family, and move in with her poly couple now. Of course this set him into a mess of emotions and since his anti-anxiety meds are currently being tinkered with, he was unable to regulate or handle his feelings about this fight - which, uh, this seems serious AF and a normal thing to not be able to work through, honestly!
There was more involved, but he genuinely was stressed to the max. The last time he shared information like this, I encouraged family therapy. He didn’t follow up at that time because he said everything seemed to resolve over time. Well, obviously it hasn’t! He said that at this point she is now saying she doesn’t want to go to family therapy - or individual therapy herself (he’s already in individual therapy) - and that she just wants to be done.
I told him I think he needs to get himself and the kids into family therapy regardless. I’m not sure if he’s just delusional or if there is a chance still of saving his marriage, but either way, his children are going to need the support if this sort of stuff is happening.
He did go home at his regular time (he has to pick up his son from daycare in the evening) and he didn’t come back later needing a place to crash, like he thought he might. He texted and said he was allowed to sleep in his own bed but didn’t really elaborate. I didn’t press. I hope things get easier for him. I’m trying to be supportive but with his mental health struggles, I’m not sure how much of his wife’s discontent is with him and how much of it is NRE or mid-life crisis sort of stuff. I’m going to text him after I post this and see how he is doing.
I am personally struggling right now with my medication adjustments. I woke up at 6 am today, having forgotten to take my thyroid med in the middle of the night. I did get up to pee but apparently that is all I did. So now I am not eating anything until 10:30 today and I am really hungry! I think I can have my fiber gummy rings at least so I am going to drink water and have those in a minute.
My scar is actually starting to fade a lot and it seems to be healing well. I will try to get a good pic of it but where it is located, it seems to sort of disappear in the general mess that is me. Lol
I haven’t lost a single pound since surgery. Tomorrow will be two weeks! I’m sure it’s because my food intake has been wonky AF because of the holidays but also because of my lack of a thyroid gland! Hopefully the medication will get adjusted and I can make some more progress. I am definitely down to a size 12 in pants now.
DarkKnight took the car to work today so I am going to be home by myself. I have some plans though! After TheEngineer left last night, DarkKnight and I had a fun low-key evening together. We went out to dinner (Buffalo Wild Wings) and grocery shopping for his weekly snacks. We also went to Hobby Lobby where I bought the swags I needed for the fireplace - so I plan to decorate there and put the candle blow molds outside on the front stoop.
I also want to clean my master bathroom and do laundry today. I need to wrap up Christmas presents for the trip to Texas on Friday, and I plan to punch out a million flowers for a Christmas gift I am creating for my oldest nephew. Ooh - I know I mentioned previously about decorating some of my globes to potentially use as headpiece-holders in the future, and so I started working on a small one to give as a present instead. So far I covered it with white acrylic paint as a primer, and then painted half with pink and the other half with green paint. My nephew has seen Wicked three times in the theater, and he absolutely loves the stage show, so I thought I’d theme this first one on that for him!
So, the globe is all painted now and I went out this weekend and snagged a bunch of stuff to jazz it up. I plan to punch out a ton of paper scrapbook flowers and layer them by color on each side of the globe, and then embellish everything with beads and glitter and little findings. We will see how it turns out!
Funny enough, DarkKnight did all that shopping with me on Sunday! We dropped off MisterMoonbeam at the airport - he’s in Arizona again until tomorrow - and then spent the ENTIRE day doing Christmas shopping together. It was fun. I bought some wreaths for our front doors.
Gosh, I love DarkKnight - just thinking about him gives me the warm fuzzies!
I of course miss MisterMoonbeam when he is gone, but it’s still amazing to have extra time and space with DarkKnight. He’s like, one of my most favorite humans.
When’s the last time I wrote here? Friday. Okay, I guess another update would be that family Thanksgiving was fine. My youngest got into her head that we were eating at 4 pm so she & her boyfriend showed up late but we made it work! TheEngineer did come to eat and meet everyone - he hadn’t met my son until this point - and that went okay. After the festivities, TheEngineer and I went downtown to a pop up shop location and we both purchased a couple of gifty things. It was cold out - like really freaking freezing - for the first time this year. I wore leg warmers.
I guess I should get up now and take my acid reflux meds and statin drug, plus the fiber gummies. I can’t have my protein shake until 10:30 because of the calcium in it. But I can drink water and get moving. I need to shower so I think that’s first on my list today!
The whole crown is super flimsy though and the stems are weak and look like crap. At least I know I can’t do a good crown at this size with this quality of stems. I might be able to use them for a cheap round crown with a handful of tiny flowers threaded in? That’s not what I am trying to make right now though. 
I think my lowest was 147. I obviously did have my shake regardless. At one point I spiked to 181 for a 5 minute period, but then fell back down into the 150s. It’s very frustrating. I stuck perfectly to my dietician’s guidelines and nothing I had was even remotely high in carbs today. Both DarkKnight and MisterMoonbeam say it’s just my body reacting to losing a whole thyroid gland and being only a little over a week out from surgery. I guess they are right. I’m still 99% in range. Ooh! I just looked and my sugar is 137.
Right now I take the estradiol in the evening. Since I don’t have ovaries anymore from my first surgery this year, the estradiol has been helping me with those missing hormones.
