I'm new here and new to the entire thing to be honest. I live in Kansas City and I'm married to a beautiful wonderful woman and we're on our 25th year together. She's very mono-aligned, but I have been struggling throughout our entire marriage with fidelity in general. I decided years ago that she is "the one", but never that she's the only one. I've spent the last 5 years trying to conform, but it doesn't feel natural or what I want for my lifestyle. I'm at a point where something has to give... not sure how or what, but I'm very steadfast that it will be consensual. She has also shifted some and is interested in exploring some sexual aspects of consensual non-monogamy, but not all the same ones I am. I'm hopeful that's where change will come from. But we're both closer than we've ever been, and more fearful we're growing apart. I really need some folks that have been through this to talk with.
Thanks!
-Grant
Thanks!
-Grant