I'm El. I'm 36yo F. I've been married to my husband for 16 years with 2 kids.
I guess I've been living under a rock or something. I've just been introduced to the existence of polyamorous relationships via tiktok. I love my husband (B) dearly but I've always felt like something was missing. B isn't very affectionate guy. He has his fetishist which I do because I love him. Even though I absolutely hate it. He won't even try mine. I've noticed over the years that everything sexually is all about him. Hell we haven't had actual sex in a couple of years. He just jerks off while I do his fetishist.
I do have another guy in my life that is best friends with B and he's my best friends husband. We've all had a close relationship for many many years. Sex has been in our relationship but not very often. My best friend has lots of medical issues and has hard limits that effects their sexual relationship.
I would absolutely love it if my best friends husband (M) (who I call my second husband) and I could have an open relationship (kind of like dating). He will never leave her, he loves her too much. And I would never be the reason for that or wish that. He and I have had a.... I don't really know what to call it.. it's not an affair but we've been having sex together for a long time. For him and I it's just sex. I love him dearly but I could never live with him. M is the one that has given me any type of support. He has the opposite fetishist to mine which works perfectly. B has said that he doesn't care who I have sex with. I don't think he really cares about me anymore but doesn't want to start over.
I just don't know what to do. B wants me to see if I can find another woman that would be willing to do his fetishist and let him look at her lady bits. Not to have sex but that would be a bonus. M is willing to role play and do things that are a little taboo. Mainly have sex outside or in a place we shouldn't or use remote sex toys in public.
I could easily bring up the idea of a polyamorous relationship to B, but if I do that and it becomes a real possibility. Everything with M would have to stop. It could risk my best friends health in a round about way. Neither M or I want that.
Any suggestions?
I guess I've been living under a rock or something. I've just been introduced to the existence of polyamorous relationships via tiktok. I love my husband (B) dearly but I've always felt like something was missing. B isn't very affectionate guy. He has his fetishist which I do because I love him. Even though I absolutely hate it. He won't even try mine. I've noticed over the years that everything sexually is all about him. Hell we haven't had actual sex in a couple of years. He just jerks off while I do his fetishist.
I do have another guy in my life that is best friends with B and he's my best friends husband. We've all had a close relationship for many many years. Sex has been in our relationship but not very often. My best friend has lots of medical issues and has hard limits that effects their sexual relationship.
I would absolutely love it if my best friends husband (M) (who I call my second husband) and I could have an open relationship (kind of like dating). He will never leave her, he loves her too much. And I would never be the reason for that or wish that. He and I have had a.... I don't really know what to call it.. it's not an affair but we've been having sex together for a long time. For him and I it's just sex. I love him dearly but I could never live with him. M is the one that has given me any type of support. He has the opposite fetishist to mine which works perfectly. B has said that he doesn't care who I have sex with. I don't think he really cares about me anymore but doesn't want to start over.
I just don't know what to do. B wants me to see if I can find another woman that would be willing to do his fetishist and let him look at her lady bits. Not to have sex but that would be a bonus. M is willing to role play and do things that are a little taboo. Mainly have sex outside or in a place we shouldn't or use remote sex toys in public.
I could easily bring up the idea of a polyamorous relationship to B, but if I do that and it becomes a real possibility. Everything with M would have to stop. It could risk my best friends health in a round about way. Neither M or I want that.
Any suggestions?