Hi all,
I know I haven't been an active poster really, but i suppose I'm seeking more advice and whatnot so I thought I'd open a thread for myself here. I'll shortly introduce myself again- I'm a female looking for a woman to be with my boyfriend and I, being lower on the totem pole. I understand that everyone strives for equal value in the mystical "tri" poly relationship but I'm not all about that. I have been playing with the word "cuckquean" but honestly it isn't just a fetish thing I want to indulge in- its a full time commitment that I want to be involved in for the rest of our lives. I just want a wife for my love, someone to bear him children and to marry. We love eachother but we know between us, kids and marriage just won't work. He wants kids, he wants children but I know and he knows we both can't commit to that ourselves. I don't want children, I don't want the responsibility of being married and not meeting his family's expectations. Its just not something we want- and we absolutely do not want to part ways.
We have our built relationship and its something that we know we want to be together for the rest of our lives. Secondly I am a naturally submissive girl-type who is also bisexual (I lust after women far more than I do for men) but I have never been in a relationship with a woman. He wants me to experiment but I just don't know how to. I love women, I would love to be in a relationship where a woman would marry him and be successful and be his wife. They can flourish together while I can be their lover/partner/girlfriend whatever. I would really love it if the woman felt feelings for me sexually but if she just casually was bicurious or only a little bisexual thats fine too. My fantasy is that she would desire me just as I would desire her but she doesn't have to be "in love" with me if she can't/doesn't want to. I would it, as an ideal, for her to be in love with me too but I'm not picky... I just want this to happen in reality - however way it needs to be. I definitely would add to the relationship (i'm not a deadbeat, but I am an artist-type and I do a lot of odd artisty jobs and whatnot) and would be whatever they wish of me. Working full time, being the nanny for their children, being the house-keeper. Everything. I love that idea...
I had gotten good advice from my previous introduction thread but really. What is everyone's social level here? I'm no social butterfly at ALL. Since I have a good head on my shoulders as to what to do listen here- He lives in a different city than me right now going to a top law school, where I am in the same state and I'm working on computers and doing free-lance production assistance work. We have been together for 7 years, going on 8 and we just don't know how to socialize. Where would I start "dating" girls? How does one even go about that? I guess.. I just want personal help on my personal problem of going about this whole thing. Thank you so much everyone.
I know I haven't been an active poster really, but i suppose I'm seeking more advice and whatnot so I thought I'd open a thread for myself here. I'll shortly introduce myself again- I'm a female looking for a woman to be with my boyfriend and I, being lower on the totem pole. I understand that everyone strives for equal value in the mystical "tri" poly relationship but I'm not all about that. I have been playing with the word "cuckquean" but honestly it isn't just a fetish thing I want to indulge in- its a full time commitment that I want to be involved in for the rest of our lives. I just want a wife for my love, someone to bear him children and to marry. We love eachother but we know between us, kids and marriage just won't work. He wants kids, he wants children but I know and he knows we both can't commit to that ourselves. I don't want children, I don't want the responsibility of being married and not meeting his family's expectations. Its just not something we want- and we absolutely do not want to part ways.
We have our built relationship and its something that we know we want to be together for the rest of our lives. Secondly I am a naturally submissive girl-type who is also bisexual (I lust after women far more than I do for men) but I have never been in a relationship with a woman. He wants me to experiment but I just don't know how to. I love women, I would love to be in a relationship where a woman would marry him and be successful and be his wife. They can flourish together while I can be their lover/partner/girlfriend whatever. I would really love it if the woman felt feelings for me sexually but if she just casually was bicurious or only a little bisexual thats fine too. My fantasy is that she would desire me just as I would desire her but she doesn't have to be "in love" with me if she can't/doesn't want to. I would it, as an ideal, for her to be in love with me too but I'm not picky... I just want this to happen in reality - however way it needs to be. I definitely would add to the relationship (i'm not a deadbeat, but I am an artist-type and I do a lot of odd artisty jobs and whatnot) and would be whatever they wish of me. Working full time, being the nanny for their children, being the house-keeper. Everything. I love that idea...
I had gotten good advice from my previous introduction thread but really. What is everyone's social level here? I'm no social butterfly at ALL. Since I have a good head on my shoulders as to what to do listen here- He lives in a different city than me right now going to a top law school, where I am in the same state and I'm working on computers and doing free-lance production assistance work. We have been together for 7 years, going on 8 and we just don't know how to socialize. Where would I start "dating" girls? How does one even go about that? I guess.. I just want personal help on my personal problem of going about this whole thing. Thank you so much everyone.