LostValkyrie87
New member
Hi there,
I am not sure where to start really. I suppose first I should introduce myself, being that I am in the introductions thread. You can call me Lost, Val, Valkyrie, or Rose. I am thirty three years old. I have been married to my husband for fourteen years. I have one child, who is fifteen. About five years ago I was faced with some very strange and new realizations about myself. I grew up believing in committed two person relationships, then for the first time since I met my husband I felt love for another. At first I shamed myself, hated myself really in many ways I still do. After I realized that even though I had deep feelings for another my feelings for my husband remained. I always felt this emptiness inside like I wasn't completely myself, until I met the other man. Over the course of the last five years many things did not go the way I thought they would, which is likely why I am seeking help. I have never been happier than when I had them both, and now I do not. Though my loving husband and I are still together I am struggling. I have so many fears and doubts that I will ever achieve what I wanted from the last five years of my life. I completely understand relationships where there are multiple partners, however I am strong enough to admit that I could only handle a MFM relationship. I am not vague about these needs in any way, but I was still hurt anyway. I suppose my reason for joining this forum is to make sense of what I feel, and what happened to me. Also to I suppose get the big answers, like should I try again? I really think that hearing from other women and men who are part of a MFM triad that coexist in the same home would help. I don't really know what I expect to get out of this, but this long winded explanation is the best "hello" I can give at the moment. Forgive me I tend to ramble.
So Hello there all, its nice to meet you.
I am not sure where to start really. I suppose first I should introduce myself, being that I am in the introductions thread. You can call me Lost, Val, Valkyrie, or Rose. I am thirty three years old. I have been married to my husband for fourteen years. I have one child, who is fifteen. About five years ago I was faced with some very strange and new realizations about myself. I grew up believing in committed two person relationships, then for the first time since I met my husband I felt love for another. At first I shamed myself, hated myself really in many ways I still do. After I realized that even though I had deep feelings for another my feelings for my husband remained. I always felt this emptiness inside like I wasn't completely myself, until I met the other man. Over the course of the last five years many things did not go the way I thought they would, which is likely why I am seeking help. I have never been happier than when I had them both, and now I do not. Though my loving husband and I are still together I am struggling. I have so many fears and doubts that I will ever achieve what I wanted from the last five years of my life. I completely understand relationships where there are multiple partners, however I am strong enough to admit that I could only handle a MFM relationship. I am not vague about these needs in any way, but I was still hurt anyway. I suppose my reason for joining this forum is to make sense of what I feel, and what happened to me. Also to I suppose get the big answers, like should I try again? I really think that hearing from other women and men who are part of a MFM triad that coexist in the same home would help. I don't really know what I expect to get out of this, but this long winded explanation is the best "hello" I can give at the moment. Forgive me I tend to ramble.
So Hello there all, its nice to meet you.