As I recall the dream was husband PN, mono, derby, Leo. Is the Leo you mention now the Leo from back then ?? What happened to derby do you still see / remain friends , etc ? Whatever happened to your ex wife is she still around ?
I guess I'll vote that you "make" your opportunity, rather than thinking you "missed" your opportunity and now it's too late. Perhaps you could start the conversation by saying something like, "I don't know what your plans are regarding your marriage, but I'd like you to know that I'd be interested if you ever got divorced." That's a very rough statement off the top of my head, you might want to adjust it according to your own good judgment. But say something. Admit to him that you have feelings. Even if he distances himself you'll know you tried, rather than just waiting forever. How can you know whether he's staying in the marriage because he doesn't know how you feel? Somehow, open up the conversation. Tell him, "I don't mean to put you in a bad spot, I won't mention it again if you don't want me to." But do something. Don't wait forever. That is my vote. You only live once.
Thanks for this. His marriage is closed and he is trying to stay in it. He's said as much in the past. I think he was just glad to hear that my heart is still with him. I think he thought i had moved on. I'm trying to move on. At least it seemed to loosen up our lack of knowing where we are at again though. I have found that I am not as weighed down by wondering as I was. That helps. He can't expect me to just hang around forever though and for me, I can't do that. At some point I'm going to have to cut ties if nothing changes... but doing that and working with him is really hard. I'm really struggling to figure this out when all I want is a chance to know him intimately. It has been unbearable to work with him and be avoided, yet, really, how else can I get some space to move on if I can't find a way to handle being avoided and avoiding him. And how am I supposed to do my job?!It sounds like there is definitely something there in the way of feelings being returned, but for now at least HD just wants to enjoy the crush, and not act on it. I could be wrong of course, I am just describing my impression of things based on the two posts above. I can't tell whether HD would answer directly and honestly if you asked him some very direct questions. So far the two of you are engaged in a sort of dance ... each one waiting for the other to make the first move. He is probably glad that you at least hinted about your feelings. But I don't know what the status is in his marriage.