I guess I have some more time on my hands, so I can update a bit more about my life.
Everything is going well in the sex department. I definitely can't say I'm deprived at all. I am on my period right now, but I just call it "Blow Job Week" and it's still lots of fun. In fact, I got some extra awesome butt love from PunkRock last night! It had been like, forever, since we've had anal. We both have been talking about it a bunch, but the timing never matched up. But OMG it was worth the wait. He blew all in my butt too, which I always love. Anyway, I call him Awesomesauce for a reason! There seriously is no comparison when it comes to anal sex and how great it is with him.
I was able to spend pretty much all of today with DarkKnight, and started out the morning with some mutual masturbation. I've been missing him a lot lately, and it was weird to be hanging out on a Saturday with him, since for the past couple of months, that's been WarMan's date day. We spent some time together at the mall and I bought him some new running shoes. We shared a strawberry julius and a pretzel. It was nice.
WarMan called me tonight again and it was so great to hear his voice. It helped raise my spirits a bit. He told me he told his brother in law about me, but decided it was best to hold off on telling the rest of the family, since it was a large gathering. He figures he'll send a letter next week, so he can avoid ruining his visit and so they have time to absorb the news before talking to him. Sounds like a good idea to me. His BIL was chill, apparently.
The big stressful stuff that I am dealing with now involves my son. He's 26 and has some developmental disabilities, as well as depression and anxiety. He's on disability and has been for years due to all these issues. He works part time cleaning at a grocery store nearby. He does have a car, that we helped him buy earlier this year. However, the plan has been for a while now to help him transition to an apartment. The last time he lived independently he ended up homeless for a little while before we allowed him to move back home.
Right now I am just tired. I adopted him when he was 12 and though he has seen a lot of growth with his issues, some things refuse to die. He is a food hoarder and his hygiene is variable. His bedroom smells bad and I have to remind him to keep the windows open and wash his sheets. Honestly, I think he is looking forward to moving out too!
Up until last week, the plan was to get him on a waiting list for an assisted living house, where a social worker would visit him once a week to make sure he wasn't hoarding and he was doing ok. The organization we have been hooked in with said they could take over as rep payee on his checking account and we could transition him, probably by the summer. My son was on board with this, and everyone agreed that this would be great.
Only, we found out that he doesn't qualify for any of their services! They are paid under a very strict program and his disabilities don't fall under it. He has Pervasive Development Disorder - NOS, and that isn't the population who can get their assistance. He's fine for the job help he currently and has been receiving, but nothing else.
So we are back to square one. I have him hooked into another case management organization, but I am now afraid that we are going to be up against the same restrictions. Honestly, I am not worried about finding him a place to live, but the lack of oversight is intimidating. I don't think he would do well as living in someone's home, like a roommate. He needs to rent a studio or one bedroom apartment. Because his hoarding could become an issue (it was one of the reasons he was evicted previously when he was on his own) we could probably get someone in to clean once a week. He can't really afford it, but it would be cheaper than getting kicked out again. He has told me and his counselors that he believes he wouldn't be able to keep up with it, so at least he is up front about it. If it is a small apartment, maybe we can get someone from clean.com to come in and make sure the garbage is emptied and his crap doesn't pile up. Sigh.
The real problem though is the rep payee business. Everyone - including my son - agrees that he is not going to be able to manage his bills. I am tired of having to deal with it every month myself, honestly. However, if we move out of state, the federal government apparently wants someone local to handle it. There is no one though. The agency we were working with says normally the social security office will send letters and pitch a fit, and then eventually just let the accounts be handled by the disabled person. UGH. So, really, the best thing for my son then, is that I continue to live nearby and handle this.
I really, really don't want to though. And I really resent that I have to then not ever live anywhere else.
That said, WarMan has said that he'd prefer we not move more than 2 hours away from Harrisburg. And Maryland has remained on our states to consider list since the beginning. I just would rather make the choice to stay in Maryland because I want to, not because I have to, if that makes sense.
So, anyway, that's kind of where I am stuck. I am now looking at places in Maryland to consider moving to, and Cumberland was tonight. I have to say it seems to look ok on paper. It's an hour from where I am now, so hopefully I can find time in a week or so to pop over and check it out in person.
