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PinkPig
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Ugh. I hate snow. Ours hasn't started yet but is suppose to tonight. Sunny and 70s yesterday, snow tonight
I'm glad you're feeling better....I hope one of your new guys (or both!) work out
Thanks PinkPig. The world waits and wonders.
I've got to get through my one granddaughter's first birthday party at one of those hectic kid fun places on Sunday afternoon, and then drive to the hospital for a 9:30 am CT scan Monday morning. I hope I can survive both.
I am looking forward to seeing my granddaughters again finally, but I am not nearly at full strength.
Once I get those engagements out of the way, I can look forward to a nice quiet lunch or dinner date with 5 Mile on Wednesday. I put Cambridge off til mid April.
Maybe somewhere in there I will have energy to see Steve again. Maybe... Right now I am enjoying focusing on Pixi because she's been so patient, but I have been forced to neglect her needs while ill.
I've got to get through my one granddaughter's first birthday party at one of those hectic kid fun places on Sunday afternoon, and then drive to the hospital for a 9:30 am CT scan Monday morning. I hope I can survive both.
I am looking forward to seeing my granddaughters again finally, but I am not nearly at full strength.
Once I get those engagements out of the way, I can look forward to a nice quiet lunch or dinner date with 5 Mile on Wednesday. I put Cambridge off til mid April.
Maybe somewhere in there I will have energy to see Steve again. Maybe... Right now I am enjoying focusing on Pixi because she's been so patient, but I have been forced to neglect her needs while ill.
Thanks, Meera.
Yeah, it's snowing hard now and we may get up to 2 feet.
I am not sure if the date with 5 Mile tomorrow will work out, because of massive snow.
And so it goes... Oh well.
The birthday party was actually quite fun. My energy was surprisingly good. I guess the social excitement helped. I brought 5 gift bags of toys and books for both kids to share, since I'd missed the older girl's birthday in January. They are only 15 months apart, so everything can be shared except the natural rubber teething giraffe toy.
I also finally got to see my oldest daughter who has returned to MA after 5 years living with her Texas partner who refused to leave that, may I say, disgusting state.
She came back because she has a chronic medical condition and couldn't get insurance to treat it. But whatever the reason, I am so glad she is back in the progressive Commonwealth of Massachusetts!
The room we were in was just a function room, so no loud arcades and dirty ball pits, thank god.
Going for the ct scan was not fun. Radiology was swamped and I had an hour and a half wait. I had to drink a chalky drink for the contrast. I also needed an IV for contrast and my trusty best vein had scarred over apparently, from bi monthy blood tests for months. The tech had to wiggle and wiggle the needle to get it through. It didn't hurt, but once I got home and took off the bandage, it was soaked with blood. Good times never stop!!!
Cranky lately. My energy is still improving though, and yesterday Pixi and I started doing a new window treatment in the kitchen which we've been longing to do. We have a wall that is all sliders out to our deck, and it's on the side of the house where the neighbors can see... and there are these stupid vertical blinds which always get tangled and stuck when you close them. We lose the individual blind slats. We were provided with a couple spares but have gone through those. We have had a 4 foot gap right in the middle when the blinds were closed, extremely annoying. So we got some removable rice paper looking cling film to just cover over the door in the middle, having now translucency instead of transparency. We will finish the project while snowed in. We can still see out on the permanent door-shaped windows on either side of the covered over door. It's not ideal, but we are too handicapped to take down the whole shebang and hang a curtain rod and find and afford curtains and all that. This will suffice and it looks kinda Japanese.
Yeah, it's snowing hard now and we may get up to 2 feet.
I am not sure if the date with 5 Mile tomorrow will work out, because of massive snow.
And so it goes... Oh well.
The birthday party was actually quite fun. My energy was surprisingly good. I guess the social excitement helped. I brought 5 gift bags of toys and books for both kids to share, since I'd missed the older girl's birthday in January. They are only 15 months apart, so everything can be shared except the natural rubber teething giraffe toy.
I also finally got to see my oldest daughter who has returned to MA after 5 years living with her Texas partner who refused to leave that, may I say, disgusting state.
She came back because she has a chronic medical condition and couldn't get insurance to treat it. But whatever the reason, I am so glad she is back in the progressive Commonwealth of Massachusetts!
The room we were in was just a function room, so no loud arcades and dirty ball pits, thank god.
Going for the ct scan was not fun. Radiology was swamped and I had an hour and a half wait. I had to drink a chalky drink for the contrast. I also needed an IV for contrast and my trusty best vein had scarred over apparently, from bi monthy blood tests for months. The tech had to wiggle and wiggle the needle to get it through. It didn't hurt, but once I got home and took off the bandage, it was soaked with blood. Good times never stop!!!
Cranky lately. My energy is still improving though, and yesterday Pixi and I started doing a new window treatment in the kitchen which we've been longing to do. We have a wall that is all sliders out to our deck, and it's on the side of the house where the neighbors can see... and there are these stupid vertical blinds which always get tangled and stuck when you close them. We lose the individual blind slats. We were provided with a couple spares but have gone through those. We have had a 4 foot gap right in the middle when the blinds were closed, extremely annoying. So we got some removable rice paper looking cling film to just cover over the door in the middle, having now translucency instead of transparency. We will finish the project while snowed in. We can still see out on the permanent door-shaped windows on either side of the covered over door. It's not ideal, but we are too handicapped to take down the whole shebang and hang a curtain rod and find and afford curtains and all that. This will suffice and it looks kinda Japanese.
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My energy stayed good and we finished the door project and it looks great! We didn't fully realise how much stress the lack of privacy caused us (even though I am not sure our neighbors really look in, and they probably don't). Now we can frolic naked when it gets warm enough with no worries.
So when we were working I put on a a youtube playlist seeded from "Turning Japanese," since the door looks like shoji. This led to many songs which people now call '80's music, but I call music from my 20s. I got into several in the late 70s, but stopped listening to this kind of music for a while starting in 1986 when I had my first kid. (Then in the early 90s I got into grunge and my kids liked it too. That is also when I realised the influences of grunge were also the Pixies, Pavement and the Meat Puppets.) I had little to no interest in Madonna, M Jackson, Prince or heavy metal hair bands, ever.
I'd lost interest in all music, listening, singing and dancing, when I was so sick this winter, and just trying to survive, but it's back! Now a list of good groups and songs I used to hear on the radio in Philly and Boston: old school Punk, New Wave, New Romantic, alt rock.
Bands
Clash
Eurythmics
B52s
The Police
Siouxsie and the Banshees
The Ramones
Culture Club
Men at Work
Duran Duran
Blondie
The Cars
New York Dolls
Talking Heads
Elvis Costello
The Bangles
The Go-Go's
Dire Straits
Human Sexual Response
Pet Shop Boys
Tears for Fears
Queen
Bowie
Billy Idol
Cyndi Lauper
Sex Pistols
Richard Hell and the Voidoids
Pat Benatar
Joan Jett
REM
The Cramps
Iggy and the Stooges
The Pretenders
Spandau Ballet
Bananarama
The Human League
The Smiths
The Cure
Devo
Thompson Twins
The Romantics
Adam Ant
Songs that were by one hit wonders mostly
Safety Dance
Mexican Radio
Video Killed the Radio Star
You Spin Me Round
Don't You (Forget About Me)
I Melt with You
Cars
I Want Candy
Jessie's Girl
99 Luftballoons
Africa
So when we were working I put on a a youtube playlist seeded from "Turning Japanese," since the door looks like shoji. This led to many songs which people now call '80's music, but I call music from my 20s. I got into several in the late 70s, but stopped listening to this kind of music for a while starting in 1986 when I had my first kid. (Then in the early 90s I got into grunge and my kids liked it too. That is also when I realised the influences of grunge were also the Pixies, Pavement and the Meat Puppets.) I had little to no interest in Madonna, M Jackson, Prince or heavy metal hair bands, ever.
I'd lost interest in all music, listening, singing and dancing, when I was so sick this winter, and just trying to survive, but it's back! Now a list of good groups and songs I used to hear on the radio in Philly and Boston: old school Punk, New Wave, New Romantic, alt rock.
Bands
Clash
Eurythmics
B52s
The Police
Siouxsie and the Banshees
The Ramones
Culture Club
Men at Work
Duran Duran
Blondie
The Cars
New York Dolls
Talking Heads
Elvis Costello
The Bangles
The Go-Go's
Dire Straits
Human Sexual Response
Pet Shop Boys
Tears for Fears
Queen
Bowie
Billy Idol
Cyndi Lauper
Sex Pistols
Richard Hell and the Voidoids
Pat Benatar
Joan Jett
REM
The Cramps
Iggy and the Stooges
The Pretenders
Spandau Ballet
Bananarama
The Human League
The Smiths
The Cure
Devo
Thompson Twins
The Romantics
Adam Ant
Songs that were by one hit wonders mostly
Safety Dance
Mexican Radio
Video Killed the Radio Star
You Spin Me Round
Don't You (Forget About Me)
I Melt with You
Cars
I Want Candy
Jessie's Girl
99 Luftballoons
Africa
Spork
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This post filled me with delight! I love a lot of this music, too. Though I also did like the Prince album "Purple Rain" (but that was it...he went in some odd directions later, I wasn't into it.) And I cannot deal with the hair metal. Just no. My ex loved that stuff. Ugh.
80s music (I call a lot of it "geek pop" because of how the Talking Heads feels to me) is music from my childhood. I was born in 79. My teenage years, very formative and imprinty...yes, grunge was all the thing, but so was goth, which evolved out of 80's new wave "geek pop" turned dark. And boy was I into goth. And industrial, like Nine Inch Nails and Marilyn Manson, though later I decided he (Manson) was way too pretentious. And really, goth gets a bad rap as being gloomy and depressing, when in fact I found a certain sanguine, hedonistic joyfulness in a lot of it. And then a few goth bands later evolved into steampunk bands, and THAT is one heck of a cool musical movement. Abney Park, all day, check out a song called "The Clockyard." Everyone should listen to Abney Park.
David Bowie was my first live concert. He was touring with Nine Inch Nails in 1995, promoting his album "Outside" which was a collaboration of sorts with Trent Reznor, and absolutely a brilliant work, a bizarre industrial masterpiece. I'm surprised how many people I meet, who like Bowie but have never heard this album. Live, I still get chills remembering how "Heart's Filthy Lesson" shook the ground and vibrated through my chest...
And I've got a story about Blondie. Back in the late 80's, well Debby Harry was really into guns. But getting them, in New York, wasn't easy. So she arranged to buy 'em from some other east coast punk rock kids, from down in Virginia where it was much easier to buy guns, and it was my boy Dave Brockie of GWAR with others in the band who would smuggle 'em up there when they went on tour in the old school bus back in the day, and sell them to her. They did this several times. Dave was terrified of her because she was so beautiful, and would usually get so nervous he had to hide in the bathroom.
Safety Dance is my jam, it tends to get into my rotations and stay there for months. And Mexican Radio...had a friend tell me I ought to check out the other songs on that album by Wall of Voodoo, and actually I found that I like "Far Side of Crazy" better. Give it a listen sometime!
I am SO glad that you are feeling better and that you've brought the music back. I often use music to actively manage my moods, I think it's got a healing power all its own.
80s music (I call a lot of it "geek pop" because of how the Talking Heads feels to me) is music from my childhood. I was born in 79. My teenage years, very formative and imprinty...yes, grunge was all the thing, but so was goth, which evolved out of 80's new wave "geek pop" turned dark. And boy was I into goth. And industrial, like Nine Inch Nails and Marilyn Manson, though later I decided he (Manson) was way too pretentious. And really, goth gets a bad rap as being gloomy and depressing, when in fact I found a certain sanguine, hedonistic joyfulness in a lot of it. And then a few goth bands later evolved into steampunk bands, and THAT is one heck of a cool musical movement. Abney Park, all day, check out a song called "The Clockyard." Everyone should listen to Abney Park.
David Bowie was my first live concert. He was touring with Nine Inch Nails in 1995, promoting his album "Outside" which was a collaboration of sorts with Trent Reznor, and absolutely a brilliant work, a bizarre industrial masterpiece. I'm surprised how many people I meet, who like Bowie but have never heard this album. Live, I still get chills remembering how "Heart's Filthy Lesson" shook the ground and vibrated through my chest...
And I've got a story about Blondie. Back in the late 80's, well Debby Harry was really into guns. But getting them, in New York, wasn't easy. So she arranged to buy 'em from some other east coast punk rock kids, from down in Virginia where it was much easier to buy guns, and it was my boy Dave Brockie of GWAR with others in the band who would smuggle 'em up there when they went on tour in the old school bus back in the day, and sell them to her. They did this several times. Dave was terrified of her because she was so beautiful, and would usually get so nervous he had to hide in the bathroom.
Safety Dance is my jam, it tends to get into my rotations and stay there for months. And Mexican Radio...had a friend tell me I ought to check out the other songs on that album by Wall of Voodoo, and actually I found that I like "Far Side of Crazy" better. Give it a listen sometime!
I am SO glad that you are feeling better and that you've brought the music back. I often use music to actively manage my moods, I think it's got a healing power all its own.
powerpuffgrl1969
Active member
Awesome list of bands. I remember seeing Siouxsie and the Banshee in London back around 1989. Good stuff.
Another artist I associate with that era is Kate Bush. A one of a kind, she is.
Another artist I associate with that era is Kate Bush. A one of a kind, she is.
Oh yay, I was hoping this topic would ring a bell with some of youse.
List of big name bands I have seen starting in the early 70s (probably incomplete because drugs)
Allman Brothers and Greg Allman
Frank and the Mothers of Invention (3 times)
Bad Finger
Blue Oyster Cult
Slade (in England where they were huge)
The Dead and later, Furthur (several times each)
Ratdog twice
Gov't Mule
Black Sabbath
Santana
Stevie Winwood (of Traffic)
Crosby Stills and Nash
Not a band, but I saw Hair the musical
Alice Cooper
Livingston Taylor
Bob Dylan with Phil Lesh and Friends (front row!)
Nice Inch Nails
Jane's Addiction
The Cramps
Richard Hell and the Voidoids
Leo Sayer who opened for
Linda Ronstadt (who was so boring we left after 2 songs)
Dave Matthews
Rusted Root
Phish
Widespread Panic
String Cheese Incident
moe.
Max Creek
Dweezle Zappa playing Frank's songs
List of big name bands I have seen starting in the early 70s (probably incomplete because drugs)
Allman Brothers and Greg Allman
Frank and the Mothers of Invention (3 times)
Bad Finger
Blue Oyster Cult
Slade (in England where they were huge)
The Dead and later, Furthur (several times each)
Ratdog twice
Gov't Mule
Black Sabbath
Santana
Stevie Winwood (of Traffic)
Crosby Stills and Nash
Not a band, but I saw Hair the musical
Alice Cooper
Livingston Taylor
Bob Dylan with Phil Lesh and Friends (front row!)
Nice Inch Nails
Jane's Addiction
The Cramps
Richard Hell and the Voidoids
Leo Sayer who opened for
Linda Ronstadt (who was so boring we left after 2 songs)
Dave Matthews
Rusted Root
Phish
Widespread Panic
String Cheese Incident
moe.
Max Creek
Dweezle Zappa playing Frank's songs
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Spork, I mentioned the Bowie/Reznor collaboration to Pixi who is your age. She remembers it and I have to take a listen! It went by me. I was super into Bowie from Hunky Dory to the Ziggy era, and then didn't like Diamond Dogs, so I took a break til Let's Dance, and then dropped out again. My favorite song of his is Lady Grinning Soul, followed closely by Panic in Detroit.
I dated a woman for a few months a couple years ago, who was big into Steampunk. She mentioned her favorite band of the genre and I was all, they have music? We broke up before she got to take me to see that band, whoever they were. I don't have any clothes I could've worn anyway. lol
I dated a woman for a few months a couple years ago, who was big into Steampunk. She mentioned her favorite band of the genre and I was all, they have music? We broke up before she got to take me to see that band, whoever they were. I don't have any clothes I could've worn anyway. lol
I loved your list of bands. A few of them are on my preferred karaoke list: Blondie, Sex Pistols, Billy Idol, Joan Jett . . . and Rider likes to do Devo and Bowie.
*like*
Spork
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Spork, I mentioned the Bowie/Reznor collaboration to Pixi who is your age. She remembers it and I have to take a listen! It went by me. I was super into Bowie from Hunky Dory to the Ziggy era, and then didn't like Diamond Dogs, so I took a break til Let's Dance, and then dropped out again. My favorite song of his is Lady Grinning Soul, followed closely by Panic in Detroit.
I dated a woman for a few months a couple years ago, who was big into Steampunk. She mentioned her favorite band of the genre and I was all, they have music? We broke up before she got to take me to see that band, whoever they were. I don't have any clothes I could've worn anyway. lol
Bowie: The main album I refer to is Outside, though there were some songs later that I didn't really catch (keep telling myself to check on what he did after 1995...I'm sure there's some good stuff, he was creating right up until the end almost, from what I heard...)
The thing about that album, is it was a concept piece and it was REALLY weird taken all as a package deal. There was a story in the booklet about the "art murder of Baby Grace Blue" featuring tiny print and lots of weird early-computer altered images of Bowie as the various characters in the story. And to some extent, every song on the album relates in some way to that little piece of futuristic murder mystery writing. Several of the tracks aren't even music, they're just weird sounds and spoken word related to the story.
I read and listened to it once while I was on acid. I'm not sure that I would recommend that. The words are difficult to catch because they are very small and they try to march off the page, and hide in the carpet...
Anyhow. He also made some pretty cool music videos for "Heart's Filthy Lesson" and "Strangers When We Meet." I miss when music videos were a kind of art... Remember the video for NIN's "Closer?" I used to sit, as a teenager, and just wait for that video to play, it was so sexy. Well, Bowie's videos for those songs have a very similar flavor and color palette.
As for Steampunk music, I think the genre is nowhere near as defined as the visual aesthetic. Pretty much every sort of music has tried to get a toe-hold in there somewhere. I've heard a lot of "black to brown" (goth bands turned Steampunk) and then there's tons of this kind of noir, seductive lady voices you imagine associated with pinstripes and pianos and cellos, smoky lounges and men in fedoras...loads of that. Some bluegrass. Bit of "chap hop" (rap done by proper British gents)...a significant dose of Cirque and some big brass band seasoning. Exploring it has been a lot of fun. But I have yet to find anything that sounds more definitively Steampunk, than Abney Park. And they've got this whole back story where they are airship pirates and time travelers and whatever, and they make machines that are part of their live performances. Fun stuff!
Since I spent a couple days listening to punk and New Wave on youtube, Facebook recommended a group there for appreciators of punk music. I joined... it's fun, mostly older people, about 75% men I'd say, mostly English. They are funny and their accents and slang are cute. I introduced myself by posting a pic of some vinyl records I have, and had a "warm" welcome and 81 posts. Some of the welcomes were of the "piss off" variety, but that's just their humor. But one guy wrote me a long sort of poem thing by way of welcome.
In not so good news, I was completely and totally stood up yesterday for my first date for lunch with 5 Mile! I am so mystified and annoyed!
We have been chatting for weeks, first messages on Fet, and then we exchanged numbers and were texting. We talked every day! We kept it friendly and not all that flirty since we hadn't met yet. I didn't want to get too sexual until we'd met in person. But as I think I said earlier, he wants to do BDSM kink with me, was very eager, since his last live-in partner was vanilla and they broke up over it. He told me he'd bought some new toys for us.
We had several scheduling conflicts so it's been 26 days since he first contacted me, of just talking and not getting to meet. So on Saturday we chatted a few times, and he messaged me around midnight, answered a couple of my questions. He did say he had some people over, (for a St Pat's party I think) and it had been a "crazy night." But since it was only midnight, and he wrote clearly in his usual style (not in a drunken fashion), I figured people had left and he was going to bed.
Our date was for lunch at 12:30 the next day, Sunday, at my local pub. At 11am I hadn't heard from him. 12:30 came and went and no message! Nothing all day! I am so surprised and bummed out. Dammit! I checked Fet message too (in case something happened to his phone) but nothing there.
Sigh... and to top it off, I felt sicker again yesterday. I got headachey, fatigued and even nauseated again. I am making progress towards health but it's always 2 steps forward and one step back.
Not a good day. So after our date didn't happen, I took a nap a couple of hours since I felt sick and tired. Pixi cooked dinner, we ate, and then all of a sudden by 9, I got so tired, despite the nap. And I was all set to watch Walking Dead and the Betty and Joan feud show with Pixi! My favorite shows! But I just had to go to bed and let the DVR get it.
The dog woke me at 2:30 to go out. I don't know why she didn't go downstairs and ask Pixi. So I got up and let her out, and while I was up waiting for her to get done, Pixi came up to go to bed. I laid down with her, but then couldn't get back to sleep again. So I got up. Grrr... guess I am up til later since I have my final checkup with the doc at 9AM.
Good news is, my dr called me on Thursday to say the ct scan I had last Monday revealed there is no cancer. I am clear. Oh, and my hair is starting to grow back.
But why in the hell did 5 Mile stand me up? That is the question, and I sure hope I hear from him.
I had told Cambridge I couldn't see him til mid April, but now I am thinking he will move up the line sooner than I thought, if 5 Mile is ghosting on me. He is on a sort of vacation down in Fla right now, visiting family while his partner is speaking at a conference down there.
I heard from Steve yesterday and Saturday too, and I will probably go visit him in 10 days to 2 weeks. But he better treat me right! Our last date still rankles.
Why are all the people I've tried to date in the last few years turned out to be weirdos? Ginger had Aspergers and was a narcissist. Artist (a woman) was a non recovered abuse survivor. Punk was bipolar... I'm envious of Pixi's bf, they've been doing well and it's been over 3 years. Where's my nice dependable sexy bf?
In not so good news, I was completely and totally stood up yesterday for my first date for lunch with 5 Mile! I am so mystified and annoyed!
We have been chatting for weeks, first messages on Fet, and then we exchanged numbers and were texting. We talked every day! We kept it friendly and not all that flirty since we hadn't met yet. I didn't want to get too sexual until we'd met in person. But as I think I said earlier, he wants to do BDSM kink with me, was very eager, since his last live-in partner was vanilla and they broke up over it. He told me he'd bought some new toys for us.
We had several scheduling conflicts so it's been 26 days since he first contacted me, of just talking and not getting to meet. So on Saturday we chatted a few times, and he messaged me around midnight, answered a couple of my questions. He did say he had some people over, (for a St Pat's party I think) and it had been a "crazy night." But since it was only midnight, and he wrote clearly in his usual style (not in a drunken fashion), I figured people had left and he was going to bed.
Our date was for lunch at 12:30 the next day, Sunday, at my local pub. At 11am I hadn't heard from him. 12:30 came and went and no message! Nothing all day! I am so surprised and bummed out. Dammit! I checked Fet message too (in case something happened to his phone) but nothing there.
Sigh... and to top it off, I felt sicker again yesterday. I got headachey, fatigued and even nauseated again. I am making progress towards health but it's always 2 steps forward and one step back.
Not a good day. So after our date didn't happen, I took a nap a couple of hours since I felt sick and tired. Pixi cooked dinner, we ate, and then all of a sudden by 9, I got so tired, despite the nap. And I was all set to watch Walking Dead and the Betty and Joan feud show with Pixi! My favorite shows! But I just had to go to bed and let the DVR get it.
The dog woke me at 2:30 to go out. I don't know why she didn't go downstairs and ask Pixi. So I got up and let her out, and while I was up waiting for her to get done, Pixi came up to go to bed. I laid down with her, but then couldn't get back to sleep again. So I got up. Grrr... guess I am up til later since I have my final checkup with the doc at 9AM.
Good news is, my dr called me on Thursday to say the ct scan I had last Monday revealed there is no cancer. I am clear. Oh, and my hair is starting to grow back.
But why in the hell did 5 Mile stand me up? That is the question, and I sure hope I hear from him.
I had told Cambridge I couldn't see him til mid April, but now I am thinking he will move up the line sooner than I thought, if 5 Mile is ghosting on me. He is on a sort of vacation down in Fla right now, visiting family while his partner is speaking at a conference down there.
I heard from Steve yesterday and Saturday too, and I will probably go visit him in 10 days to 2 weeks. But he better treat me right! Our last date still rankles.
Why are all the people I've tried to date in the last few years turned out to be weirdos? Ginger had Aspergers and was a narcissist. Artist (a woman) was a non recovered abuse survivor. Punk was bipolar... I'm envious of Pixi's bf, they've been doing well and it's been over 3 years. Where's my nice dependable sexy bf?
Back from the doctor. A drag, I had to wait an hour to be seen, which is unusual for there. So the deal is, my cancer is gone. But turns out I have this lymph cyst problem down in the pelvic area. I knew they'd removed some lymph glands to check them during my surgery back in September.
Well, I've had numbness on the top of my right upper thigh ever since. I was told previously, and more than once, it was from being in stirrups for the 4 hours of surgery. That normally the surgery is 2 hrs but because of scarring from my one c-section, it took twice as long. So I had nerve damage from that. But when I mentioned the numbness is finally starting to go away, the dr told me it was from a nerve being damaged when they removed the lymph glands, which were enlarged! What the heck?
So now, the ct scan told her I have a 10cm benign cyst on a remaining lymph gland. That's 4 inches! She said it should be aspirated. Just what I don't wanna do, go get another procedure, a needle shoved in my belly. But when I said I didn't want to do it right away, since I am so tired of medical procedures, she said it can wait.
I told her I am going on vacation April 6-10 and she said around the 15th I can get an ultrasound. There is a chance it will have shrunk, but knowing my luck it will not have. So I have that to look forward to next month. Great.
And I need to have post-cancer checkups including blood tests, every 3 months for 2 years! I shudder at the blood tests, since my right arm "good vein" has scarred over recently. I think I mentioned that. And my other arm didnt work well at my blood test last Friday. It took lots of patting and 2 tries with needles to get any blood. I hope my good vein recovers before my next blood test in June. Oy!
In the past month all my eyebrows and eyelashes fell out. I asked the dr when they will grow back. She said they are slow growing. I won't see them start to grow back at all for 2-3 months. Besides looking like an alien, tiny bits of dust get in my eyes now and they get irritated. Fun!
I am in such a bad mood. All this and still no text from 5 Mile.
I am so envious of Spork and her lengthy sex sessions with her bf. Pixi and I have had some sex but it's always kinda brief. I'm the Top and if I don't use my creativity and imagination, sex with her is brief and vanilla. I need a motivated horny kinky man. That's the only reason I am going to see Steve as soon as I feel I can do the drive and still have energy for socialising and sex with him. Yes, I admit it. We have had very good sex in the past and he is very eager to see me. He is not that understanding of my low energy. He's all "I miss youuuuu..." "Come see meeee...." I will, as soon as I can! And here I had originally felt he was understanding of my low energy since he's also a cancer patient. But he didn't get as sick from his chemo as me. So it's like he thinks I am exaggerating or something. If only he had a car or lived closer. Sex is so calming for me and god knows I am stressed the f out.
Well, I've had numbness on the top of my right upper thigh ever since. I was told previously, and more than once, it was from being in stirrups for the 4 hours of surgery. That normally the surgery is 2 hrs but because of scarring from my one c-section, it took twice as long. So I had nerve damage from that. But when I mentioned the numbness is finally starting to go away, the dr told me it was from a nerve being damaged when they removed the lymph glands, which were enlarged! What the heck?
So now, the ct scan told her I have a 10cm benign cyst on a remaining lymph gland. That's 4 inches! She said it should be aspirated. Just what I don't wanna do, go get another procedure, a needle shoved in my belly. But when I said I didn't want to do it right away, since I am so tired of medical procedures, she said it can wait.
I told her I am going on vacation April 6-10 and she said around the 15th I can get an ultrasound. There is a chance it will have shrunk, but knowing my luck it will not have. So I have that to look forward to next month. Great.
And I need to have post-cancer checkups including blood tests, every 3 months for 2 years! I shudder at the blood tests, since my right arm "good vein" has scarred over recently. I think I mentioned that. And my other arm didnt work well at my blood test last Friday. It took lots of patting and 2 tries with needles to get any blood. I hope my good vein recovers before my next blood test in June. Oy!
In the past month all my eyebrows and eyelashes fell out. I asked the dr when they will grow back. She said they are slow growing. I won't see them start to grow back at all for 2-3 months. Besides looking like an alien, tiny bits of dust get in my eyes now and they get irritated. Fun!
I am in such a bad mood. All this and still no text from 5 Mile.
I am so envious of Spork and her lengthy sex sessions with her bf. Pixi and I have had some sex but it's always kinda brief. I'm the Top and if I don't use my creativity and imagination, sex with her is brief and vanilla. I need a motivated horny kinky man. That's the only reason I am going to see Steve as soon as I feel I can do the drive and still have energy for socialising and sex with him. Yes, I admit it. We have had very good sex in the past and he is very eager to see me. He is not that understanding of my low energy. He's all "I miss youuuuu..." "Come see meeee...." I will, as soon as I can! And here I had originally felt he was understanding of my low energy since he's also a cancer patient. But he didn't get as sick from his chemo as me. So it's like he thinks I am exaggerating or something. If only he had a car or lived closer. Sex is so calming for me and god knows I am stressed the f out.
Spork
Active member
That sucks so bad that 5 mile has become all flaky.
At least...hate to say it, hope he's just being flaky and that it's not anything bad going on in his life. Like, we never know, do we? I hate that, too, there was one point where Worm King was starting to go flaky on me, and I was like, "Look man, I just would like at least to know that you're ok...you live alone, anything could happen in life, and when I care, I worry." Apparently this was not acceptable behavior on my part, I mean how dare I give a rat's ass if he lived or died, right?? Clearly I am obsessed and crazy.
Pff.
Annnnyhooo.... Yeah, I just think the ghosting stuff is goddamn inconsiderate. And that it's totally weird to expect someone to be completely emotionally detached if you've been having sex or even corresponding in intimate ways, for a bit. I wonder what in the heck Mr. 5 mile's deal is...
And I very sincerely hope that the good stuff manifests in your life soon. Wish Steve were more geographically convenient for you. As for the envy though, I tell ya, sometimes I am in a state of disbelief that my sex life is so good. Years. Over a decade, even, I thought I didn't care about sex, that it just wasn't an important part of my life anymore and maybe it never would be again. I'd stopped putting any energy into it and I didn't care. Zen knows, he's got a friend whose wife is doing this right now. This...all of it...would have been unthinkable to me, five or ten years ago.
But I tell ya what, it's making it rather challenging to stay awake right now.
Hey, I have a question, I am curious about something. I had a friend who had chemo, and when her hair came back, it was SUPER soft, like silky soft. Is yours doing that? I always wondered if that was just her, or if it's part of the deal, y'know?
I'm in your cheering section, Mags! Hope things get rockin' in your sex life again soon. And congrats on the cancer being gone!
At least...hate to say it, hope he's just being flaky and that it's not anything bad going on in his life. Like, we never know, do we? I hate that, too, there was one point where Worm King was starting to go flaky on me, and I was like, "Look man, I just would like at least to know that you're ok...you live alone, anything could happen in life, and when I care, I worry." Apparently this was not acceptable behavior on my part, I mean how dare I give a rat's ass if he lived or died, right??
Clearly I am obsessed and crazy.Pff.
Annnnyhooo.... Yeah, I just think the ghosting stuff is goddamn inconsiderate. And that it's totally weird to expect someone to be completely emotionally detached if you've been having sex or even corresponding in intimate ways, for a bit. I wonder what in the heck Mr. 5 mile's deal is...
And I very sincerely hope that the good stuff manifests in your life soon. Wish Steve were more geographically convenient for you. As for the envy though, I tell ya, sometimes I am in a state of disbelief that my sex life is so good. Years. Over a decade, even, I thought I didn't care about sex, that it just wasn't an important part of my life anymore and maybe it never would be again. I'd stopped putting any energy into it and I didn't care. Zen knows, he's got a friend whose wife is doing this right now. This...all of it...would have been unthinkable to me, five or ten years ago.
But I tell ya what, it's making it rather challenging to stay awake right now.
Hey, I have a question, I am curious about something. I had a friend who had chemo, and when her hair came back, it was SUPER soft, like silky soft. Is yours doing that? I always wondered if that was just her, or if it's part of the deal, y'know?
I'm in your cheering section, Mags! Hope things get rockin' in your sex life again soon. And congrats on the cancer being gone!
starlight1
Active member
Congratulations on the cancer being gone Mags!! That's fantastic news! I'm sorry though that you're going through a cyst you gotta deal in. But good idea to do it after vacation!Ugh! Ghosting- I hope he is ok and its something reasonable and not just ghosting. That'd be really shitty if it was just ghosting.
I hope you find another sexual partner soon and one who gives lots of good loving - Steve is a bit far to go to and there's gotta be someone closer I hope! My fingers and toes are crossed for ya <3
GirlFromTexlahoma
New member
Yay on being cancer free!!!!
And boo on flaky, needy, inconsiderate boys ... I hope once all the medical stuff is under control, you will have the time, energy, and luck to find a keeper
And boo on flaky, needy, inconsiderate boys ... I hope once all the medical stuff is under control, you will have the time, energy, and luck to find a keeper