Fun and Frolic With Long-Term Love

[Bluebird]

OMG we came home and MisterMoonbeam had ordered me a present from my Good Girl list on Amazon! I had the 2 listed, but apparently the 3 was on sale after Christmas! It’s charging now. Squeeeee.



I’m also excited because the Hourglass sale this Thursday on Damsel in this Dress is plum colored items and I LOVE a lot of it so far. I’m about to be broke. Lol

Bad news though - I think I left my Kindle in Ocean City! I’ve looked through my luggage and can’t find it. I messaged my friend who owns the property we stayed at, and thankfully he’s headed there within the week. Hopefully we find it!

 

[Bluebird]

I am soooo not motivated to do a damn thing today. Maybe it’s post vacation drop or maybe it’s just the rainy weather. I don’t know. Every room in the house needs attention and the tree needs to come down. I made a list of stuff I need to do and so far I’ve taken a basket of clean laundry downstairs and that’s it. I did get dressed. Nothing else though. Sigh.

I loved my new toy last night but there is zero chance I could wear it around in real life. Lol One, the buzzing is a bit loud, but uh, I am much louder. I’d be arrested as soon as it was turned on! My favorite thing about it was MisterMoonbeam - he was so into changing the speeds and patterns and controlling every bit of my experience. There’s no doubt that he’s a pleasure dom! Just seeing his smile at making me feel good, makes me feel good.

 

[Bluebird]

So I bought a shirt one size smaller and it fits. I don’t really know how I feel about it though, to be honest. My hip bumps are definitely visible and that’s not the most attractive thing, you know? It does fit though!

 

[Magdlyn]

Your hip bumps? You mean your hips? lol Or maybe you mean you think you have a muffin top. I notice you often wear a long shirt, tunic-style, with leggings underneath. I'm plus size but I've started wearing high-waisted jeans, belted, with a crop top, or a tucked-in shirt. I might wear a button down shirt, tucked in, but bloused out a bit above the tuck. I find I like emphasizing my waist and curves that way. Sometimes I wear a longer shirt, when it's cool weather, open over a tucked-in tank or t-shirt, with the high-waisted pants and a belt. I don't really have much of a waist, so this gives the impression I do.

 

[Bluebird]

Your hip bumps? You mean your hips? lol Or maybe you mean you think you have a muffin top. I notice you often wear a long shirt, tunic-style, with leggings underneath. I'm plus size but I've started wearing high-waisted jeans, belted, with a crop top, or a tucked-in shirt. I might wear a button down shirt, tucked in, but bloused out a bit above the tuck. I find I like emphasizing my waist and curves that way. Sometimes I wear a longer shirt, when it's cool weather, open over a tucked-in tank or t-shirt, with the high-waisted pants and a belt. I don't really have much of a waist, so this gives the impression I do.

Sometimes I wear things tucked in but not often. As much as I hate that particular area of my body, I still dislike my skinny ankles more. They make me feel so disproportionate! At least with my belly I can do crunches and stop eating cheese danishes.

 

[Magdlyn]

Wide leg and flared jeans/trousers are really on trend right now. That would take care of your ankles showing! I got a pair of flares and a pair of wide legs jeans that flare our starting at the hip a year ago and I just love them.

 

[Bluebird]

I received my newest corset today and I’m in love! It’s a “villain” vixen in Skeletor purple, which means it has a wider pointy collar. I have a skirt that works fine with it but I’d like to pair it up with black, so I’m hoping to score a match during this week’s Damsel in this Dress sale. Her focus this week is all black pieces, so I lucked out there!

That said, I had awful news today - a close friend in NY suffered a heart attack and was dead for 30 minutes, but was revived. They’re now “stable” in ICU but on dialysis, a ventilator and being kept under. Apparently they are slowly waking him up now to check his neurological functions. I’m devastated and will be traveling to NY for the funeral, 100% if the outcome is no good. With this sort of thing, I honestly don’t think I should hope that they can keep him alive - there’s no way he’ll be unchanged by this! I cried a bit on and off this afternoon. He’s been a big inspiration to me in many ways.

 

[Evie]

Gosh, what a rollercoaster of a day. Thoughts with you and your friend.

 

[Bluebird]

I was super busy today and things have been kinda scary. I didn’t write about it here, but my youngest has been have some SERIOUS health issues lately. Last week she had to go to the ER because out of nowhere she was having trouble breathing while seated at home, and then she couldn’t move her arms. At ER kept her for like 6 or 7 hours and noted that she had an abnormal EKG but that was all they could find. Then, this weekend while at work, it happened again, but this time she lost control of her arms and her legs. Urgent care saw the same sort of abnormal EKG and also slightly elevated white blood cell count.

She was so scared, y’all. Her job won’t let her come back until she gets this figured out. She’s now not allowed to drive, and it’s been recommended she not go upstairs as if she had these issues there, the paramedics will have to break down her door to get to her.

Today was her follow up with her doctor, and he did a bunch of blood tests. Apparently her d dimer test (blood clots) came back slightly elevated and the doctor sent her back to the ER as no place would give them a cat scan. She was there the entire day - hours and hours - and then when she finally got one it was normal. They did more blood work and so far nothing.

I’m not sure what the next step is but they are continuing to try and get to the bottom of this.

My friend in ICU - I still have no updates on him.

It’s a lot.

 

[Magdlyn]

I'm sorry for what your daughter and friend are going through, BB.

 

[Bluebird]

I'm sorry for what your daughter and friend are going through, BB.

Thanks. My daughter’s d dimer increased and was much higher while in the ER, but is still not showing any clots. They sent her home.
It’s so scary, like wtf is going on?

My friend is still in ICU and his situation is unchanged.

I’m trying to just continue in as normal - wallowing in worry is not helpful.

Hmmm what’s going on? MisterMoonbeam and I are still attending dance lessons every week and we are both enjoying it immensely. We’re attending the winter masquerade on the 21st and we can’t wait to be able to dance in the real world! We’ve been focusing on the Hustle and we are rocking it out!

I’m still not sure what I’m wearing to the masquerade, but I guess I will figure it out. Tonight I’m going to try and buy a new vest for MisterMoonbeam, and a matching cropped corset for me.

I got a new Stitch Fix yesterday and kept everything. I’m definitely a size 16 now.



I’m going back and forth about cutting all my hair off, coloring it red again…I just don’t know. I need to get the ends retoned - they’re sooo yellow. My natural silver and gray and blonde are just ugh all together.

I need to sit down and check my budget for the rest of the month. We’ve paid off MisterMoonbeam’s credit cards in full and we are now focusing on paying off one of his 401(k) loans. The goal is the beginning of March. Which is also the deadline for forgetting about buying a building and instead buying a new house outside of the zoning department’s reach. Lol There’s so far been nothing new on the market with buildings.

DarkKnight is continuing his weight loss and is looking super cute! He just got his hair cut and the Santa beard chopped down, now that the holidays are over. Be still my heart, holy shit! Lol We have a date night on Saturday - we’re going to go and see a local production of Avenue Q.

 

[Bluebird]

So LittleMichigan has another doctor follow up on Tuesday. She says she is feeling better, but nothing else is known and that’s just scary. Her cell phone was shut off for nonpayment, but BugGirl sent $140 to get it back on as a birthday gift. We are now waiting to see what else happens - we will do what we can to keep her afloat.

I have figured out my outfit for the masquerade next weekend, but apparently the dance studio that MisterMoonbeam and I attend is hosting a Fire & Ice party next Thursday, so we are going to that now too. My costume for the Masq is going to be a black dress with my new purple Villian Vixen corset, black wings and feather arm cuffs, with a black horned headpiece. I have no idea what to do with my hair and makeup, but today I’ve made a Pinterest board for dark fae costumes so we will see! I bought some purple hair extensions, and then I went and ordered some blue-gray as well for the Fire & Ice thing. I’m thinking I will wear my dress from the White party we attended last year and make it frosty! Lol It’s a fun thing but it would be more fun if I had any confidence with makeup and hair!

Tonight is our weekly Zombicide game night so I am happy to see SirGawain. I think my bestie is coming over as well so it should be a good night.

I’m making good progress on my reading goal for the year - I finished book number 4 last night. My goal is 24 books for 2023.

 

[Bluebird]

My daughter had a doctor appointment today and I am waiting to hear how that went. My friend has been transferred to hospice.

I’ve been shopping and watching YouTube videos and trying to figure out how to use makeup. It’s been a fun experience with my bestie. I am really good at the cleanser-moisturizer - concealer - foundation - powder - lipstick portion of things, but once I start adding more steps, things go downhill. I am no good at applying eyeshadow and I have completely ignored my brows because that’s scary. I mean, I get them shaped every couple of months, but anything else - eep!



I’m apparently allergic to the makeup removing wipes that I own - the mineral oil isn’t the best! It’s making my eyes puffy and my skin feels tight. I’m going to go today maybe and look at a different option at the store.

In other news, I bought a black cropped Vixen corset and the company added in a FREE extra wench corset. I was like WHAT THE F. It’s like $100!




I was extra excited about it because I only own one other wench corset, a silver one, and it’s too big now that I lost weight. I’ve been looking for replacement options and this is perfect! I definitely recommend Damsel in this Dress - and be sure to follow their Facebook page, as she does a sale every Thursday night and her website only really updates then with new items.

Today should be fun because MisterMoonbeam bought a vest last week and it’s arriving today. It’s the same fabric as this black cropped Vixen corset so we will match at the masquerade ball this weekend. I’m not wearing either of these outfits, but definitely the cropped underbust will be a part of my costume.

 

[Bluebird]

Bonus content! LOLOL

MisterMoonbeam’s vest arrived today and it’s amazing! He also found his feathered shoulder piece, so he will match with me pretty well at the masquerade. He ordered some horns that will look similar to mine, and a black mask as well.



I’m actually uncertain as to what I will be wearing - originally I was going with this black dress with layered corsets. I have feathered arm cuffs, a set of black feathery wings that are actually a huge pain to dance in, and some other accessories - including a black birdcage veil. None of those are on in this pic though!

I’m thinking now I might actually ditch the dress and wear the combo in the post above - the sequined skirt and black tie-up top. Hmmmm. I am definitely going with the Villain Vixen underbust - it was marketed as being “Skeletor” purple and I love it! The collar is dramatic AF.



My bestie was here and she worked on her makeup tonight, and it was an ordeal for her. She was like, listen, we can keep learning this stuff but we need to pay someone to do this Saturday. I have been telling her this! Lol I feel like I have a good grasp on applying the basics, and today I added in bronzer and highlight to my base face.



But yeah, we are both very much a work in progress! I did a lot of video watching today on brushes, and brows. I am not as scared to do my eyebrows now, but I need to buy some stuff. I’m still totally hopeless at eyes though - it’s pretty bad!

Tomorrow is my day off and I am spending it laying around watching the Amazing Race season 6, makeup tutorials and oh! We have a pipe leaking in the basement whenever the upstairs toilet flushes. So I need to call a plumber. It’s not waste - THANK GOD - but the water filling up the tank. It’s just a spurt as it fills up, and it’s above the sink in the basement where the washing machine drains, so it could be worse. The pipe is old and corroded, and in a place that’s difficult to reach. So a plumber it is. I so don’t need more money going out but I don’t want it to get worse.

What else? Tomorrow night is a date night with MisterMoonbeam and we have a dance lesson.

 

[Bluebird]

Ready to go to the Fire & Ice dance tonight!

MisterMoonbeam & Me

 

[kittyxuchiha11]

My daughter had a doctor appointment today and I am waiting to hear how that went. My friend has been transferred to hospice.

I’ve been shopping and watching YouTube videos and trying to figure out how to use makeup. It’s been a fun experience with my bestie. I am really good at the cleanser-moisturizer - concealer - foundation - powder - lipstick portion of things, but once I start adding more steps, things go downhill. I am no good at applying eyeshadow and I have completely ignored my brows because that’s scary. I mean, I get them shaped every couple of months, but anything else - eep!

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I’m apparently allergic to the makeup removing wipes that I own - the mineral oil isn’t the best! It’s making my eyes puffy and my skin feels tight. I’m going to go today maybe and look at a different option at the store.

In other news, I bought a black cropped Vixen corset and the company added in a FREE extra wench corset. I was like WHAT THE F. It’s like $100!

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I was extra excited about it because I only own one other wench corset, a silver one, and it’s too big now that I lost weight. I’ve been looking for replacement options and this is perfect! I definitely recommend Damsel in this Dress - and be sure to follow their Facebook page, as she does a sale every Thursday night and her website only really updates then with new items.

Today should be fun because MisterMoonbeam bought a vest last week and it’s arriving today. It’s the same fabric as this black cropped Vixen corset so we will match at the masquerade ball this weekend. I’m not wearing either of these outfits, but definitely the cropped underbust will be a part of my costume.

Love the look with the horns! I have the same ones I use for my tielfing when I play her in D&D haha. As a bit of a bigger lady myself I've always been scared of corsets but you're totally rocking both of them! hope you have fun at both at both your dances

 

[Bluebird]

Love the look with the horns! I have the same ones I use for my tielfing when I play her in D&D haha. As a bit of a bigger lady myself I've always been scared of corsets but you're totally rocking both of them! hope you have fun at both at both your dances

Thanks! I have a few other corsets, actually. I think I posted the other vixen underbust that I own a few months back - it’s a cowprint! I bought a brown cowboy hat and bright teal feather to set it off but the only I pic I had was when I tried the corset on right out of the shipping box. It’s a little crooked in this photo for that reason.



I also have a silver wench, which was my only corset for a couple of years. I’m selling/swapping it now because it’s too big.



And I have an overbust corset that I’ve never worn out because it’s ill-fitting. Probably going to sell it soon.



I’m also selling the white tunic shown in the last two photos because it’s too big as well! It’s from Holy Clothing - the Angeline top. Everything else is mostly Damsel in this Dress.

 

[Bluebird]

I felt like a goddess tonight. MisterMoonbeam and I went to the Winter Masquerade and had an absolute blast.



While we were there he bought me this AMAZING necklace - it’s a fox skull!



I have to say I’ve never felt so beautiful in all of my life - not on any of my wedding days or at other dances. I really felt like…healed. I don’t know how to describe it in words. But it was a great feeling.

I also was voted (by applause and screams) into the Unseelie Court - I made the cut of four people who were the “best dressed” dark fairies. There was no competition at all at the end though - the dude that won had an incredible costume. I was amazed that I made it into the final four! MisterMoonbeam and I went for best couple but that wasn’t even a chance because that competition was crazypants!

Anyway, I will write more later as I am exhausted from being out and up so late and dancing my ass off!

 

[Bluebird]

Amazing story

If you read this entire thing, then I am crazy impressed.

 

[Bluebird]

I decided to do a short update but then realized it was past midnight. My alarm is set for 6 am so I need to sleep!

I’m heading to NY tomorrow by myself so I’m hoping the weather cooperates - I’m worried it’s going to be icy. My friend’s funeral is in the afternoon, but I am trying to give myself some time to make it there in case the roads are trash.

I had phone calls from my sister and my mom today, and apparently there’s a lot happening with my brother - he’s basically squatting in my mom’s rent-controlled apartment in the senior living facility, and she may get evicted. He’s refusing to find other accommodations and is taking advantage of my mom financially. When I spoke to my sister, she said things were bad enough that mom called *her* for help, and we both know that never happens! Anyway, my mom is a mess.

This shit happens on and off and it’s just so tiring. My mom refuses to see that my brother is not a good person most of the time. My sister said mom was very upset though and was saying she wanted to die and wanted this life to be over. The thing is, mom said the same thing to me when we talked today, so this is very concerning.

My sister and I have both on different occasions had my mom live with us; at one point both my parents were “renting” from me - for free, for three years. Both of us are not eager to experience that again, but neither of us are wanting mom to be homeless.

Anyway, I have a lot going on right now with the building purchase - we are shifting to look at houses with land, which requires a whole different approval process. I’m already stressed out but this stuff with my mom is adding a whole extra layer of anxiety. We haven’t been looking at properties with mother-in-law suites or guest houses!

I spoke to BugGirl tonight and she said she would be open to the idea of her grandma moving in to this - our current house - with her and BeanBoy, if needed. That wasn’t an option I had previously thought of, so now I am mulling that over as well. I’m not sure if my mom would be interested in moving down to Maryland, but she may soon find her options very limited.