As you might guess, this is all very new for me. My wife and I have been together for 22 years. She had a couple affairs that we have gotten past, although I'm still hurt by. She has always wanted more, and I'm letting her explore. She is absolutely gorgeous and I know she'll find many interested in her. In fact, she's meeting someone today as a first step towards a possible sexual partnership. I'm not happy, although I agreed to it. I felt if I didn't, she would just cheat on me again, which I don't think I'll survive another. I want her to be happy, but I'm kinda dying here. I want to be ok with it all, but I'm super lonely, even before her going out, and I'm not sure what to do. Any help is appreciated.