Work has been and will continue to be insane, enough said on that subject.
For someone who wants to try the monogamous life I am not doing so well.
Things are stable with Prof, there are a number of holiday things planned and we will see each other a lot before he flies out. It is weird. We are both nervous of impinging on each other's time. I don't message him much. We are pretty separate in most ways. The sex has improved a bit though. He knows I am dating and is picking up his game as much as he can.
Jay. Spiritual, calm, much happier than he has been. He said he was glad I had changed my mind about dumping him. I said he is still dumped in my mind. we meet, talk and fuck. He is not scheduled per se, although Thursdays does seem to be becoming regular. I asked him to shift to Friday this week as I was so exhausted, he actually left a party of smug marrieds ( his words ) to come fuck me
The sex is really good. He is fit and in-shape and likes to make me cum.
But there are no activities and little communication outside of scheduling.
Mr Dom! Such NRE fun. Texting and phonecalls throughout the day. He rented a hotel room last night. I must admit I have been spoiled by Prof with the boutique, eye-wateringly expensive hotels, but we only had 4 hours and made the most out of it. Fuck, serve, talk, fuck, serve, talk, lots of laughing.
He has met a few other potential subs but did send a jealousy tinged text today. I told him that he has only been single for a week and already has one willing sub plus a couple of potentials.
We talked about me and my monogamy dream. He suggested breaking up with everyone and starting with a clean slate (but not to really break up with him, haha ) He asked how I thought I was going to work with the restrictions of monogamy, both the being told how to behave and telling someone else how to behave.
All three of these men were madly in love when they got married. They had a number of great/good years before the decline set in. My ex married me because he saw a sucker with a pay check. I want someone to think I am awesomesauce. I don't want to deal with jealousy and oh dear. Those things don't necessarily go away because you are one-to-one.
It's like scuba diving. I really want to try, tropical ocean, fish, great. It won't ever take it up as a hobby though. but I do want to experience a few times in my life. I want the relationship model where people are madly in love and only have sex with each other. No other people in the picture flinging drama around.
Deep down though, it has the same appeal as scuba diving. Give it a go but I don't think it is really something I want long term. I am enjoying the relationships that I am in. Prof is smart, attractive and very into doing silly stuff with me, great with the kids. the rest is "whatever" for now. Jay is very different, smart, attractive but slower paced, less intense, he slows me down and then fucks me hard. Mr Dom, is smart, attractive and meets my need for communication, he loves to talk and the power exchange is going well and also enjoy kinky sex and BD play.