The butterfly diaries
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I like that your relationship is coming along and you sound very happy and in love. Congratulations.
And in my world, a part of every day living is the inevitable viruses that infiltrate schools. So we're both sick this week, although I'm currently feeling it worse. I went to work yesterday, but took today off, and at this rate, tomorrow, too. I'm staying at my flat for a couple of days so we both get as much sleep as we can, but we'll eat together tonight, or hang out for a while if my appetite still hasn't returned.
It's just under a month to go and I'm trying not to dwell on what it will be like when he's gone. So far not even an offer for a job interview - the job market is really brutal right now. But he's planning on coming back in January for another attempt. My city has thrown all sorts of weather conditions at him, but he's still smitten with the place. I really hope he can make it a true home with Renee. I would love to have him here permanently.
It's just under a month to go and I'm trying not to dwell on what it will be like when he's gone. So far not even an offer for a job interview - the job market is really brutal right now. But he's planning on coming back in January for another attempt. My city has thrown all sorts of weather conditions at him, but he's still smitten with the place. I really hope he can make it a true home with Renee. I would love to have him here permanently.
Off to a memorial service this afternoon for my godmother. I'll be a fish out of water really, given that our families were estranged years ago, but I want to go pay my respects given it wasn't me that was the issue.
It's Gabe's mother (Gabe -- god brother, get it?), I've mentioned him here before somewhere, we got back in contact last year sometime but have only been out drinking (just as friends) a couple of times. Lots of fun. But today is not about that kind of social meeting. Perhaps I'll exchange some words with his sisters today. I doubt they'll remember me. Well, the older one might. I just want to honour the childhood memories I have from when our parents were close and she was my legal guardian in case of emergency.
I wish my mum hadn't alienated so many people, I'm trying to put my generation back together just a little bit.
It's Gabe's mother (Gabe -- god brother, get it?), I've mentioned him here before somewhere, we got back in contact last year sometime but have only been out drinking (just as friends) a couple of times. Lots of fun. But today is not about that kind of social meeting. Perhaps I'll exchange some words with his sisters today. I doubt they'll remember me. Well, the older one might. I just want to honour the childhood memories I have from when our parents were close and she was my legal guardian in case of emergency.
I wish my mum hadn't alienated so many people, I'm trying to put my generation back together just a little bit.
The sisters sort of remembered me, the older one of course moreso. It was quite an emotional day and Puck took me out that night and we hit the town pretty hard. It probably put our recovery from this bug back a few days because we still aren't well. I finally managed to put in a bit extra after the main work day and get some grading done.
I'm staying at my place again tonight so we get the best possible chance of a full night's sleep each. It's not nice sleeping apart, but needs must. We'll be back together tomorrow night because then it's just a couple of work days to push through if I get a rubbish sleep.
Only one and a half weeks of work until my spring break, which is a fortnight long. Puck leaves during that, but we'll get over a week of holiday time. Still have to go see Adam about the house, and if lucky the exterior painting will be done by then. I've just stopped being anxious or mad about the whole thing, there's just no point. It will happen when it happens.
It's been interesting watching Puck adapt to a totally different side of the world. He loves the ocean and spends some time there most days. It's rocky shores mostly so he'll climb around them rock hopping. The things that were clawing him back daily (attention needed to issues at home) seemed to have lessened and although there has definitely been drama after drama with getting the old house ready for sale, it could be done before he gets back. That will a gigantic weight gone. It was supposed to be just enough of an income generator that they would have a bit more in retirement, but it's just been a disaster with two awful tenants in a row. So much unpaid. So much damage. Perhaps the place is cursed into driving people crazy. He's going to come out with a little equity so that's something at least.
I have no idea what Adam and I will get for our house. I'm just trying to get the power company to sort their shit out right now. They have almost no customer service. It's utter bullshit. I am wondering if I shop around now or leave it to the new owners to change it. The problem is actually the lines company charges but I'm not able to request any plan changes directly, sigh. It's so stupid.
Oh well, right now it's bedtime. Tomorrow I need to concentrate on work and the hell piles of marking papers I have outstanding.
I'm staying at my place again tonight so we get the best possible chance of a full night's sleep each. It's not nice sleeping apart, but needs must. We'll be back together tomorrow night because then it's just a couple of work days to push through if I get a rubbish sleep.
Only one and a half weeks of work until my spring break, which is a fortnight long. Puck leaves during that, but we'll get over a week of holiday time. Still have to go see Adam about the house, and if lucky the exterior painting will be done by then. I've just stopped being anxious or mad about the whole thing, there's just no point. It will happen when it happens.
It's been interesting watching Puck adapt to a totally different side of the world. He loves the ocean and spends some time there most days. It's rocky shores mostly so he'll climb around them rock hopping. The things that were clawing him back daily (attention needed to issues at home) seemed to have lessened and although there has definitely been drama after drama with getting the old house ready for sale, it could be done before he gets back. That will a gigantic weight gone. It was supposed to be just enough of an income generator that they would have a bit more in retirement, but it's just been a disaster with two awful tenants in a row. So much unpaid. So much damage. Perhaps the place is cursed into driving people crazy. He's going to come out with a little equity so that's something at least.
I have no idea what Adam and I will get for our house. I'm just trying to get the power company to sort their shit out right now. They have almost no customer service. It's utter bullshit. I am wondering if I shop around now or leave it to the new owners to change it. The problem is actually the lines company charges but I'm not able to request any plan changes directly, sigh. It's so stupid.
Oh well, right now it's bedtime. Tomorrow I need to concentrate on work and the hell piles of marking papers I have outstanding.
Gosh, the last few weeks have been pretty full on. We got the flu, and finally got better in time for my Spring Break (we don't actually call it that here but you'll all pretty much understand it if I say it that way.) It's two weeks long and Puck flies back out next Tuesday so we have been spending the last few days having a holiday. We also visited my house (where Adam lives) and did a working bee day. A lot got done and Adam I are probably 90% of the way to getting it listed. No, the exterior painting is not finished (by the professional painter).
Today, Puck and I have been doing really touristy things in Waitomo. We have one more booking to see the main caves, then stay the night here again and home tomorrow for two last sleeps.
He's got even more travel plans coming up as Iris and he will be going to Italy in November! Then he's coming back here in January. No luck on the job front here yet, but he's been given some tips to help the next round of applications.
Adam may be in my city by then so I don't quite know what it's all going to look like accommodation wise, but I'm sure we'll figure it out.
Today, Puck and I have been doing really touristy things in Waitomo. We have one more booking to see the main caves, then stay the night here again and home tomorrow for two last sleeps.
He's got even more travel plans coming up as Iris and he will be going to Italy in November! Then he's coming back here in January. No luck on the job front here yet, but he's been given some tips to help the next round of applications.
Adam may be in my city by then so I don't quite know what it's all going to look like accommodation wise, but I'm sure we'll figure it out.
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Puck has landed back in his home state. We've texted when we can during his trip but he didn't have wifi on his long flight (ugh!) so it's just been snatched conversation. Iris has picked him up from the airport and I sincerely hope Renee gives him the night to relax before unloading on him. This is the longest they've been apart in years and years (they've been married for a little over 30, together even longer) and she has already had stressors while he's been gone, so just maybe she can keep that under wraps until he's slept off the 16,400 mi trip. Wagers anyone?
I'm in my room in my shared house ("flat") and it's turned southerly (a.k.a bloody cold) so I've got the heater on for both morale and to help dry out the second to last load of laundry that I've needed to do. I guess I should put on the last load because that can go in the dryer anyway.
I'm taking today easy. I went out for a coffee with a former student who I stay in touch with. I'm honestly a little worried about her because she hugged me like a drowning person, but she didn't open up about the details this time. I'll try her again in just a few weeks - she's been off the radar a lot this year, as have I, so we can use this next few months to catch up a little more.
I have a couple more weekdays of Spring Break but I'll go take my car in to fail its Warrant of Fitness tomorrow and find out how much it will take to get it up to standard. I've been given the heads up last year that it will need significant work (front shocks? front breaks? both?) but I'll have to wait and see what and how much. It's an older car, but it's a base model Toyota, so the engine is good for another 200,000 km yet. Maintenance is expensive, but a new car is more so, and could still need front shocks (side eye to Adam's comparatively new car that cost us about $1200 earlier this year, grrr). While the car is failing the warrant, and hopefully getting at least some of the work done to remedy that, I'll go to work and do the marking and prep for next week. I suspect that will be the next 2-3 days. So I'm going to enjoy the rest of today as much as I can on this cold, now evening, with an incredible Pinot Noir and, oh, I'll figure out the food part eventually (there will likely be pasta because that's great cold weather stuff).
I'm in my room in my shared house ("flat") and it's turned southerly (a.k.a bloody cold) so I've got the heater on for both morale and to help dry out the second to last load of laundry that I've needed to do. I guess I should put on the last load because that can go in the dryer anyway.
I'm taking today easy. I went out for a coffee with a former student who I stay in touch with. I'm honestly a little worried about her because she hugged me like a drowning person, but she didn't open up about the details this time. I'll try her again in just a few weeks - she's been off the radar a lot this year, as have I, so we can use this next few months to catch up a little more.
I have a couple more weekdays of Spring Break but I'll go take my car in to fail its Warrant of Fitness tomorrow and find out how much it will take to get it up to standard. I've been given the heads up last year that it will need significant work (front shocks? front breaks? both?) but I'll have to wait and see what and how much. It's an older car, but it's a base model Toyota, so the engine is good for another 200,000 km yet. Maintenance is expensive, but a new car is more so, and could still need front shocks (side eye to Adam's comparatively new car that cost us about $1200 earlier this year, grrr). While the car is failing the warrant, and hopefully getting at least some of the work done to remedy that, I'll go to work and do the marking and prep for next week. I suspect that will be the next 2-3 days. So I'm going to enjoy the rest of today as much as I can on this cold, now evening, with an incredible Pinot Noir and, oh, I'll figure out the food part eventually (there will likely be pasta because that's great cold weather stuff).
Well, my car passed the WOF with only needing the headlights to be cleaned/polished. So the garage that told me the front whatevers needed replacing was clearly full of shit.
So I spent money on a full service instead. Still came to less than half of what I expected. I let both Adam and Puck know my good fortune.
I was in a lot of pain by the time I got home - not completely sure why but paracetamol and ibuprofen fixed me up. Doom scrolling still ensued until now I have taken myself out for dinner because sometimes cooking is just too hard.
I have so much work to do before Monday it's actually dire. I should have done some this afternoon after the pills kicked in, but still my brain rebelled. Back on the ritalin tomorrow rather than trying to raw dog grading statistics assessments.
I spoke with Puck earlier today, video call as usual. Except it's not usual anymore. It sucks not being able to curl up with him just because we need a rest.
Bring on January.
So I spent money on a full service instead. Still came to less than half of what I expected. I let both Adam and Puck know my good fortune.
I was in a lot of pain by the time I got home - not completely sure why but paracetamol and ibuprofen fixed me up. Doom scrolling still ensued until now I have taken myself out for dinner because sometimes cooking is just too hard.
I have so much work to do before Monday it's actually dire. I should have done some this afternoon after the pills kicked in, but still my brain rebelled. Back on the ritalin tomorrow rather than trying to raw dog grading statistics assessments.
I spoke with Puck earlier today, video call as usual. Except it's not usual anymore. It sucks not being able to curl up with him just because we need a rest.
Bring on January.
Week one of this term is complete...and I'm utterly exhausted. At least I woke naturally this morning, not to an alarm, but it wasn't much of a sleep in.
Last night was a train wreck. Adam's in town and had an evening meeting that tends to culminate in dinner. He told me 7:15. So I was in the foyer then. But he didn't get out of the meeting until 7:30 and then said that the others (who we were to have dinner with) would be just 5 mins behind him. 15 mins later, no sign of them so I left. I was tired, hungry and by then, hangry. We're meeting for lunch today instead, but I have a short massage booked for 12 pm so I've said today he can wait for me to be done with that.
Our house is still stressing me out. He's been buying bits and pieces to fix small things here and there, but he admitted he got the wrong thing but had utterly destroyed the packaging before realising it was the wrong thing so couldn't return it. Sure, overall it's less than $100 of an error, but it's all starting to add up. And the painter still hasn't finished and we can't list the damn place yet. I'm sick to death of this. I want it sold.
But then that will open up a whole new set of problems, and not better ones. Once Adam moves here, we're likely to be mostly sole income for a while. We've got to rent a house because my income alone is not enough to buy. And renting is insanely expensive here, but the bank won't lend me enough to buy something we could live in.
Honestly, sometimes adulting just feels so hopeless.
Last night was a train wreck. Adam's in town and had an evening meeting that tends to culminate in dinner. He told me 7:15. So I was in the foyer then. But he didn't get out of the meeting until 7:30 and then said that the others (who we were to have dinner with) would be just 5 mins behind him. 15 mins later, no sign of them so I left. I was tired, hungry and by then, hangry. We're meeting for lunch today instead, but I have a short massage booked for 12 pm so I've said today he can wait for me to be done with that.
Our house is still stressing me out. He's been buying bits and pieces to fix small things here and there, but he admitted he got the wrong thing but had utterly destroyed the packaging before realising it was the wrong thing so couldn't return it. Sure, overall it's less than $100 of an error, but it's all starting to add up. And the painter still hasn't finished and we can't list the damn place yet. I'm sick to death of this. I want it sold.
But then that will open up a whole new set of problems, and not better ones. Once Adam moves here, we're likely to be mostly sole income for a while. We've got to rent a house because my income alone is not enough to buy. And renting is insanely expensive here, but the bank won't lend me enough to buy something we could live in.
Honestly, sometimes adulting just feels so hopeless.
The exhaustion is definitely less today, but the anxiety is a lot higher.
I enjoyed Adam's company for 5-6 hours yesterday before he headed home. I still had to wait for him because my massage was over quite a while before he was done with his stuff and, sadly, I had a different masseuse this time and she was just terrible. Strong hands but appalling technique; a total opposite experience from last week. So incredibly disappointing.
Today I've managed to get back into my Sunday groove of visiting my folks, and now I'm just procrastinating a little before tackling some work. I feel like I want to eat all the things to self soothe, but at the same time, I've lost the taste for a lot of the junk food I used to use for that. This is a good thing, but now I'm still working out how to quell the anxiety. I can't go enjoy a walk outside given the weather conditions, and I'm not flush with cash enough right now to go do something indoors and fun. My union has called a bunch of strike action in the next month so bye bye pay packet. It's ridiculous, honestly, because we have a right wing government at the moment who aren't going to budge.
Puck is in the throes of a festival at the moment so we haven't been able to speak in days, and there's still a couple to go in his time. I am missing him terribly, and he's missing me, too. As he phrased it, "I miss you like air."
I enjoyed Adam's company for 5-6 hours yesterday before he headed home. I still had to wait for him because my massage was over quite a while before he was done with his stuff and, sadly, I had a different masseuse this time and she was just terrible. Strong hands but appalling technique; a total opposite experience from last week. So incredibly disappointing.
Today I've managed to get back into my Sunday groove of visiting my folks, and now I'm just procrastinating a little before tackling some work. I feel like I want to eat all the things to self soothe, but at the same time, I've lost the taste for a lot of the junk food I used to use for that. This is a good thing, but now I'm still working out how to quell the anxiety. I can't go enjoy a walk outside given the weather conditions, and I'm not flush with cash enough right now to go do something indoors and fun. My union has called a bunch of strike action in the next month so bye bye pay packet. It's ridiculous, honestly, because we have a right wing government at the moment who aren't going to budge.
Puck is in the throes of a festival at the moment so we haven't been able to speak in days, and there's still a couple to go in his time. I am missing him terribly, and he's missing me, too. As he phrased it, "I miss you like air."
And then there are the days where I could strangle Adam. He was supposed to do a job application today. This evening, he let me know he was stuck on understanding something. When I finally got home from work (8:30 tonight, new record) we had a chat, and this thing was completely irrelevant to the immediate task at hand, it's like three steps down the track. JUST SEND THE GODDAMN APPLICATION ALREADY.
I got to briefly talk with Puck this morning, but he had to cancel this afternoon's call because something went pear shaped in his day. He said he'll be able to tell me more tomorrow morning.
So it's 9 pm and I really need to relax so I can get some sleep. I think I'm a bit fucked, tbh. It usually takes me ages to wind down, and I've run out of sleeping pills. I'll deliberately read a book. I'm so out of practice on that it will probably tire me out quickly, fingers crossed.
I got to briefly talk with Puck this morning, but he had to cancel this afternoon's call because something went pear shaped in his day. He said he'll be able to tell me more tomorrow morning.
So it's 9 pm and I really need to relax so I can get some sleep. I think I'm a bit fucked, tbh. It usually takes me ages to wind down, and I've run out of sleeping pills. I'll deliberately read a book. I'm so out of practice on that it will probably tire me out quickly, fingers crossed.
Adam's job application is in.
I had a great time op shopping (thrifting) this morning - I turned over my wardrobe A LOT. I took three bags of clothes I no longer want/haven't worn in forever to donate and I spent around $100 on heaps of new pieces. A skirt, a hoodie, a bunch of blouses/lighter tops for work now we're moving into Spring (I'm going to keep capitalising the seasons because it's only right), a blazer style jacket, a tramping jacket (hiking), and a hippy-ish looking shawl lol. That might not last, but who knows right now. I'll try wearing it a couple of times and see. I found an op shop where the tops were around $6 apiece, which is fantastic, so I didn't even try them on, I just figured I'd re-donate anything I didn't like/didn't fit. There were only two pieces I got really wrong. A couple more will go into the "goal" part of the wardrobe, but I'm actually losing some weight at the moment (I've dropped a dress size, the other reason for the shopping spree) so they aren't too far off.
I spoke with Puck this afternoon. It's weird to think he's been back there less than three weeks. A lot has happened in that time, especially for him. His rental still isn't sold, but he's going to give it one more week of self-promotion before he goes with an agent.
As for Adam's and my house, we're still waiting on the painter. STILL.
At work, my union has got a bunch of strike action happening at the moment. We aren't the only ones. There is a public service "mega strike" this Thursday, which is highlighting how difficult the current government is to bargain with at the negotiating table (they are the most right leaning government we've had, possibly ever, but at least since the 90s.)
I've turned down two people who requested to catch up on very short notice this weekend, one texted me Friday morning about Friday evening; the other texted me today about today. No. I'm having a self-care weekend. I needed it. More than I even realised, I needed it. Today has been great, I just wish it was sunny and that the non-returnable beauty products weren't mixed up in the department store. I ended up getting the wrong eyebrow stuff, damnit. Best problem I've had in a long time. I will cope with using this one up and then get what I really want.
My room is mostly tidy, I've got a couple of hours left in the day to do another load of laundry and make some food, and I can find something to watch on TV (on my laptop). I've even been spending the last part of each evening reading a book - while Puck was here we drunkenly went to a second hand bookstore and picked out a few things. So much fun. Not everything was actually worth reading sober, but I'm enjoying one called The Care of the Soul by Thomas Moore (of the 20th century, well, actually of this century too, he's still alive). It was a NY Times best seller back in the early 90s when I was a little too young to care about such things. But I'm appreciating it now.
We're at that stage of Spring where a cloudy day really impacts the evening light, and that time of year where the weather is largely shit. Forecast for the next week: Overcast, Rain, Windy, Showers, Windy, Showers, Windy. Sigh. It makes me appreciate the fine days (like yesterday) when they make an appearance. Next weekend is a long weekend. I'm guessing the painter still won't be finished (although the weather forecast up there is quite opposite to here), so I may or may not go up there. We'll see what the weather is doing and if there's any point going up to do some gardening.
Right, time for dinner.
I had a great time op shopping (thrifting) this morning - I turned over my wardrobe A LOT. I took three bags of clothes I no longer want/haven't worn in forever to donate and I spent around $100 on heaps of new pieces. A skirt, a hoodie, a bunch of blouses/lighter tops for work now we're moving into Spring (I'm going to keep capitalising the seasons because it's only right), a blazer style jacket, a tramping jacket (hiking), and a hippy-ish looking shawl lol. That might not last, but who knows right now. I'll try wearing it a couple of times and see. I found an op shop where the tops were around $6 apiece, which is fantastic, so I didn't even try them on, I just figured I'd re-donate anything I didn't like/didn't fit. There were only two pieces I got really wrong. A couple more will go into the "goal" part of the wardrobe, but I'm actually losing some weight at the moment (I've dropped a dress size, the other reason for the shopping spree) so they aren't too far off.
I spoke with Puck this afternoon. It's weird to think he's been back there less than three weeks. A lot has happened in that time, especially for him. His rental still isn't sold, but he's going to give it one more week of self-promotion before he goes with an agent.
As for Adam's and my house, we're still waiting on the painter. STILL.
At work, my union has got a bunch of strike action happening at the moment. We aren't the only ones. There is a public service "mega strike" this Thursday, which is highlighting how difficult the current government is to bargain with at the negotiating table (they are the most right leaning government we've had, possibly ever, but at least since the 90s.)
I've turned down two people who requested to catch up on very short notice this weekend, one texted me Friday morning about Friday evening; the other texted me today about today. No. I'm having a self-care weekend. I needed it. More than I even realised, I needed it. Today has been great, I just wish it was sunny and that the non-returnable beauty products weren't mixed up in the department store. I ended up getting the wrong eyebrow stuff, damnit. Best problem I've had in a long time. I will cope with using this one up and then get what I really want.
My room is mostly tidy, I've got a couple of hours left in the day to do another load of laundry and make some food, and I can find something to watch on TV (on my laptop). I've even been spending the last part of each evening reading a book - while Puck was here we drunkenly went to a second hand bookstore and picked out a few things. So much fun. Not everything was actually worth reading sober, but I'm enjoying one called The Care of the Soul by Thomas Moore (of the 20th century, well, actually of this century too, he's still alive). It was a NY Times best seller back in the early 90s when I was a little too young to care about such things. But I'm appreciating it now.
We're at that stage of Spring where a cloudy day really impacts the evening light, and that time of year where the weather is largely shit. Forecast for the next week: Overcast, Rain, Windy, Showers, Windy, Showers, Windy. Sigh. It makes me appreciate the fine days (like yesterday) when they make an appearance. Next weekend is a long weekend. I'm guessing the painter still won't be finished (although the weather forecast up there is quite opposite to here), so I may or may not go up there. We'll see what the weather is doing and if there's any point going up to do some gardening.
Right, time for dinner.
Today is Labour Day here, and I'm fortunately in a career now that means I get a day off. Yesterday (Sunday), I got taught to make a granny square (crochet). I suck at it, but then that's a part of learning. I tell my students that. Have the courage to suck and the perseverance to get better. That's learning. I'm not 100% sure how my perseverance will go on this particular thing, but I'll have another go when I've finished writing.
Ayin's birthday is later this month and his mates are throwing a memorial party. Seth remembered to invite me this year (apparently they did it last year, too, but it would have been waaaay too soon for me to face going). I'm rather of two minds. Not a lot of people knew who I was, although Seth let on that a few more than I suspected actually did. I don't know if that makes it better or worse. I'm scared someone (or worse, more than one) will say shit. I know I can always just leave, but I don't want to have to leave upset, y'know? I'll probably go, though, even for half an hour, to say hi to Seth and then pop by the cemetery. People usually need time/alcohol to work their way up to saying something nasty, so a brief visit should be fine. I like that little city anyway, and it'll be a Saturday so I can go to the markets as well. They are absolutely stupendous markets and the best fry bread food truck ever (our fry bread here is generally a yeasted bread).
But that's a few weeks away. Next weekend is my dad's birthday, so I need to plan for that first.
Puck has an offer on the rental house. All going well, it will be unconditional by the end of the week! Then, when it's settled, he can get his tickets for his next trip out here. I'm so ready for him to be back.
My house with Adam still isn't finished and ready for listing, sigh. I'm back to being angry at the painter.
Ayin's birthday is later this month and his mates are throwing a memorial party. Seth remembered to invite me this year (apparently they did it last year, too, but it would have been waaaay too soon for me to face going). I'm rather of two minds. Not a lot of people knew who I was, although Seth let on that a few more than I suspected actually did. I don't know if that makes it better or worse. I'm scared someone (or worse, more than one) will say shit. I know I can always just leave, but I don't want to have to leave upset, y'know? I'll probably go, though, even for half an hour, to say hi to Seth and then pop by the cemetery. People usually need time/alcohol to work their way up to saying something nasty, so a brief visit should be fine. I like that little city anyway, and it'll be a Saturday so I can go to the markets as well. They are absolutely stupendous markets and the best fry bread food truck ever (our fry bread here is generally a yeasted bread).
But that's a few weeks away. Next weekend is my dad's birthday, so I need to plan for that first.
Puck has an offer on the rental house. All going well, it will be unconditional by the end of the week! Then, when it's settled, he can get his tickets for his next trip out here. I'm so ready for him to be back.
My house with Adam still isn't finished and ready for listing, sigh. I'm back to being angry at the painter.
I haven't been feeling well for a couple of weeks so I've booked a doctor's appointment for another couple of weeks (earliest day I can get off work early and my doc has an open appointment). Of course, there's every chance the symptoms will have vanished by then, but on the off-chance they haven't, at least now I have the booking. It's not the usual respiratory things that I get every time a kid in my class coughs in my direction, so it's a bit scary tbh.
Puck will be back in a couple of months. We talk every day, usually twice a day, except in a week he's going to Italy for a couple of weeks with Iris. But we're both kinda wishing the days away until January when he can come back. Renee's rather pissy that he's galavanting all over the world, but she hasn't gotten around to getting her passport, so...
I've teed up to visit family when I go up for Ayin's birthday memorial party.
And Adam is trying to hurry the painter along. Although the other two properties I can see for sale near us are at such low prices that I don't hold out a lot of hope for a good sale.
Puck will be back in a couple of months. We talk every day, usually twice a day, except in a week he's going to Italy for a couple of weeks with Iris. But we're both kinda wishing the days away until January when he can come back. Renee's rather pissy that he's galavanting all over the world, but she hasn't gotten around to getting her passport, so...
I've teed up to visit family when I go up for Ayin's birthday memorial party.
And Adam is trying to hurry the painter along. Although the other two properties I can see for sale near us are at such low prices that I don't hold out a lot of hope for a good sale.
Puck's on his way to Italy today. Unlike previous trips with Iris, he's going to be more available on text this time. Usually I've left him to it, but we are now so primary in each other's lives that the idea of going 2 weeks without any contact is just not desirable to either of us.
Today is Beltane, calendar-wise, for me. I am sorely feeling the lack of people to celebrate with. I both do and don't understand why there is such an obvious lack of practicing groups here. There are some a little north of me, but the one thing on today I discovered too late. I think I'm going to have to take my oft repeated own advice around here and build it. Hopefully people will come.
Today is Beltane, calendar-wise, for me. I am sorely feeling the lack of people to celebrate with. I both do and don't understand why there is such an obvious lack of practicing groups here. There are some a little north of me, but the one thing on today I discovered too late. I think I'm going to have to take my oft repeated own advice around here and build it. Hopefully people will come.
Thanks Mags! Unfortunately my lease has a no candles clauseBlessed Beltane! Light a candle, eat some fruit, treat yourself to some flowers.
I wish I had other people to talk about these things on a really deep level. Well, besides Adam and Puck. But the only other person I know well enough to hang out with has told me she was always just in the community for the social. Like, they didn't "practice" paganism, haven't done any initiatory work. I really want to be working with initiates (not so much in the Gardnerian or Alexandrian traditions, but I'm curious what else people are doing.)