Vicki's Journey Continues...
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Charles texted me and said he hasn't been doing well, but he misses me and wants to come over tonight, and he said watch something. Since he doesn't usually watch things, I assume this means he just doesn't really want to talk. I get that.
I think I've been going through the stages of grief. The way things are shaking out has been harder on me than I thought it would be, to try and live up to what I said about cutting back on expectations. At least part of me feels like that's giving up on the relationship at all. Although, if I go the other way, then there definitely is no relationship. So kinda leaves me in that frustrating place.
I said I could tough it out for a couple of months. I'm going to try and do that, but it's really been hurting me. I am exhausted because I don't sleep well when I'm stressed (and that's my primary chronic illness so it's not easy to fix), and I can't shut down the having conversations in my head or the overthinking. That's been really not fun.
Maybe it's not worth it. Maybe we won't be able to regain what we had. But I'd really like to at least talk to my counselor before making that decision, and that's next week.
I think I've been going through the stages of grief. The way things are shaking out has been harder on me than I thought it would be, to try and live up to what I said about cutting back on expectations. At least part of me feels like that's giving up on the relationship at all. Although, if I go the other way, then there definitely is no relationship. So kinda leaves me in that frustrating place.
I said I could tough it out for a couple of months. I'm going to try and do that, but it's really been hurting me. I am exhausted because I don't sleep well when I'm stressed (and that's my primary chronic illness so it's not easy to fix), and I can't shut down the having conversations in my head or the overthinking. That's been really not fun.
Maybe it's not worth it. Maybe we won't be able to regain what we had. But I'd really like to at least talk to my counselor before making that decision, and that's next week.
Thanks, Magdlyn, I really appreciate that.
So the TV thing didn't happen. We had dinner with Henry and Kiddo since when Charles comes straight from work that's pretty much how it has to happen. We went upstairs for some privacy afterwards and the TV thing just didn't happen. He hugged me and told me that he needs help, and that he wants to get help. We had a good long talk, and he's been in touch today, too.
I am cautiously optimistic. I know that mental illness is a long and winding road and there will be lots of downturns. But I think that things get easier when someone decides that they want help.
It's taken away some of my very intense negative emotions and I'm back to feeling like I can manage this one day at a time.
So the TV thing didn't happen. We had dinner with Henry and Kiddo since when Charles comes straight from work that's pretty much how it has to happen. We went upstairs for some privacy afterwards and the TV thing just didn't happen. He hugged me and told me that he needs help, and that he wants to get help. We had a good long talk, and he's been in touch today, too.
I am cautiously optimistic. I know that mental illness is a long and winding road and there will be lots of downturns. But I think that things get easier when someone decides that they want help.
It's taken away some of my very intense negative emotions and I'm back to feeling like I can manage this one day at a time.
That's good news. I look forward to more updates.
Yesterday was a really good day, in context. We had planned for Charles to come over yesterday after work and stay over, and then come back over tonight to stay as well after work.
We had dinner together, and I made one of those meal boxes. We do those a lot although since now he works late on Tuesday it's not as much fun since we can't do it together- I have to have it ready early enough to feed Henry and Kiddo too. The meal was really delicious, though- coconut chicken with Thai lemongrass noodles.
After dinner, we went upstairs and cuddled and talked. He told me that he wants very much to rebuild our connection, and we talked about how we've both been feeling. Some sadness and some tears, but it still feels so right when we're in each others' arms. I'm not ready to close the chapter even if it's hard sometimes.
And then we kissed and it was like we both got swept up in passion and had the most amazing sex. It was a really good night together. I'm looking forward to seeing him tonight. I see my counselor before he comes over tonight. It's hard playing catchup when so much has happened, but that's how it goes with someone I only get to see once a month if I'm lucky. But I don't want to start all over with a new counselor because she really knows me- she was originally my marriage counselor with Mark, so she's seen it all. I wish I could get more time, but I understand that's what's available.
I'm really looking forward to this weekend, too. Kiddo is away, so Henry and I are planning some quality time. We really need that, too.
We had dinner together, and I made one of those meal boxes. We do those a lot although since now he works late on Tuesday it's not as much fun since we can't do it together- I have to have it ready early enough to feed Henry and Kiddo too. The meal was really delicious, though- coconut chicken with Thai lemongrass noodles.
After dinner, we went upstairs and cuddled and talked. He told me that he wants very much to rebuild our connection, and we talked about how we've both been feeling. Some sadness and some tears, but it still feels so right when we're in each others' arms. I'm not ready to close the chapter even if it's hard sometimes.
And then we kissed and it was like we both got swept up in passion and had the most amazing sex. It was a really good night together. I'm looking forward to seeing him tonight. I see my counselor before he comes over tonight. It's hard playing catchup when so much has happened, but that's how it goes with someone I only get to see once a month if I'm lucky. But I don't want to start all over with a new counselor because she really knows me- she was originally my marriage counselor with Mark, so she's seen it all. I wish I could get more time, but I understand that's what's available.
I'm really looking forward to this weekend, too. Kiddo is away, so Henry and I are planning some quality time. We really need that, too.
Henry and I had a pretty wonderful afternoon while Charles was at work. I was pretty much up in the clouds all day yesterday after that badly needed reconnecting time with both my loves.
Then we all had dinner together yesterday evening before Charles and I had our date night by ourselves. We just played a few games of Codenames Duet and talked and snuggled, but it was good just to be with him.
I can see that he's been making an effort, but I'm cognizant that it's only been a week, and that real change takes time. But so far, I'm going to be positive where I see effort. He's already talked to my counselor about possibly setting up a session for himself, and he's put two days on the calendar for us next week with a possible third. He even made a point of texting a little bit with me today and he only left here a couple of hours ago
My counselor told me to think about what I want to do, for me, to meet my own needs. I am going to have to put some effort into that. I've been trying to support myself while Charles was distant and Henry was crazy busy with work and then health stuff, but I freely acknowledge that I was a basket case and my techniques weren't working. The stress related insomnia was definitely taking a big toll on me. I need to work on that, because it's very likely that something similar to this will occur again in the future.
Then we all had dinner together yesterday evening before Charles and I had our date night by ourselves. We just played a few games of Codenames Duet and talked and snuggled, but it was good just to be with him.
I can see that he's been making an effort, but I'm cognizant that it's only been a week, and that real change takes time. But so far, I'm going to be positive where I see effort. He's already talked to my counselor about possibly setting up a session for himself, and he's put two days on the calendar for us next week with a possible third. He even made a point of texting a little bit with me today and he only left here a couple of hours ago
My counselor told me to think about what I want to do, for me, to meet my own needs. I am going to have to put some effort into that. I've been trying to support myself while Charles was distant and Henry was crazy busy with work and then health stuff, but I freely acknowledge that I was a basket case and my techniques weren't working. The stress related insomnia was definitely taking a big toll on me. I need to work on that, because it's very likely that something similar to this will occur again in the future.
I've had a really lovely weekend with Henry. We don't normally celebrate Valentine's Day, but it fell on a Friday and since that's our relatively newly designated date night (well, last six months or so anyway), we decided to do something just a tad bit more special. Unfortunately Henry was having a flare, so instead of having all our special plans on one day we spread them out over the whole weekend. Which actually might have been fortunate, except that I'd never want to call a partner's discomfort fortunate!
On Friday, we made appetizers and had some family time with Kiddo watching his favourite show, and then watched Chasing Amy. Man, that movie has aged badly and I spent a bunch of time yelling at the TV. But I tend to do that anyway; it's like sports for me
Saturday, we took it easy. Spent family time with Kiddo and then I made a yummy fish chowder from a meal box.
Sunday, we decided to eat the rest of the treats we had bought, so we made smoked salmon toasts, a shrimp ring, empanadas, and pumpernickel bread with spinach dip. It was delicious. Then we had dessert in bed- white chocolate raspberry cake and a bottle of very nice champagne. This weekend has been horrible for the diet but so worth it. Quality time is so important (and no it doesn't have to be food but I don't mind that we do it sometimes). I know we get so much functional time with nesting partners, but I want to make sure we get special time too.
It's actually funny, Charles was saying the other day that we get the good times and the bad times but very little of the in between times in our relationship, and he's right. Whereas my marriage gets a lot of the in between times. No real easy way to make that trade, though! I suggested that we do more just hanging out in each other's space in a low key sort of way, and I guess we'll see how that goes.
And today I took Henry and Kiddo out for their favourite lunch and then we did some fun activities for the holiday. It's been a pretty nice day. I spent the rest of the afternoon reading in the hot tub. Feeling pretty content right now.
I miss Charles since I haven't seen him since last Wednesday, but looking forward to spending at least part of the next two days with him given that he still has work.
On Friday, we made appetizers and had some family time with Kiddo watching his favourite show, and then watched Chasing Amy. Man, that movie has aged badly and I spent a bunch of time yelling at the TV. But I tend to do that anyway; it's like sports for me
Saturday, we took it easy. Spent family time with Kiddo and then I made a yummy fish chowder from a meal box.
Sunday, we decided to eat the rest of the treats we had bought, so we made smoked salmon toasts, a shrimp ring, empanadas, and pumpernickel bread with spinach dip. It was delicious. Then we had dessert in bed- white chocolate raspberry cake and a bottle of very nice champagne. This weekend has been horrible for the diet but so worth it. Quality time is so important (and no it doesn't have to be food but I don't mind that we do it sometimes). I know we get so much functional time with nesting partners, but I want to make sure we get special time too.
It's actually funny, Charles was saying the other day that we get the good times and the bad times but very little of the in between times in our relationship, and he's right. Whereas my marriage gets a lot of the in between times. No real easy way to make that trade, though! I suggested that we do more just hanging out in each other's space in a low key sort of way, and I guess we'll see how that goes.
And today I took Henry and Kiddo out for their favourite lunch and then we did some fun activities for the holiday. It's been a pretty nice day. I spent the rest of the afternoon reading in the hot tub. Feeling pretty content right now.
I miss Charles since I haven't seen him since last Wednesday, but looking forward to spending at least part of the next two days with him given that he still has work.
So I didn't get to see Charles this past week because he was sick. Henry is immunocompromised due to one of his medications (not the obvious one!) and so we have to be pretty careful even with basic stuff like the flu. He's not only much higher risk of death but even if he gets just a mild illness it can knock him out for a month or more. Getting sick is a really big deal for us, unfortunately.
I'm still feeling more emotionally volatile than usual, though, and it's frustrating. I'm well aware that I'm feeling more off-kilter than usual, and it seems that small annoyances are hitting me harder than they should be. Being aware of it doesn't make the feelings go away, but at least it means I can warn people I've been feeling that way if I respond disproportionately, and I can also try to be mindful before I react in my current emotional state.
I did have a lovely day yesterday, though. Not poly related except that this friend of mine and I have been mistaken for married so many times because we click so well. He and I have been friends for nearly 25 years and we often go out late at night together so I can't blame people for thinking we're a couple. I guess I never gave him a name in here since we've never dated but he's one of the most important people in my life. Guess I should probably have mentioned him at some point lol. Call him Mario, then.
So my son had an event for one of his activities last night, and Henry and I had to go to another city for that. We decided to go early and take him to a botany exhibit that Kiddo had wanted to attend and take photographs of, and he really enjoyed that. We went out for dinner before his event, and then Henry took him and I went to hang out with Mario instead. We spent the evening at the racetrack before coming home and playing board games with my ex boyfriend John until late. It was a really good night. I like that John is still one of my close friends and that we can hang out and have fun.
And now, it's nice and quiet and I have no responsibilities other than some housework. I'm not used to being the only person home and being able to come and go as I please! I actually don't think I'm going to go anywhere, but it's nice knowing that I could if I wanted to. I should probably do the housework, but I am feeling happy after yesterday so I think I'm just going to chill and play video games this afternoon until Henry and Kiddo come home. Old school stuff, from when I was a kid. Good times
I'm still feeling more emotionally volatile than usual, though, and it's frustrating. I'm well aware that I'm feeling more off-kilter than usual, and it seems that small annoyances are hitting me harder than they should be. Being aware of it doesn't make the feelings go away, but at least it means I can warn people I've been feeling that way if I respond disproportionately, and I can also try to be mindful before I react in my current emotional state.
I did have a lovely day yesterday, though. Not poly related except that this friend of mine and I have been mistaken for married so many times because we click so well. He and I have been friends for nearly 25 years and we often go out late at night together so I can't blame people for thinking we're a couple. I guess I never gave him a name in here since we've never dated but he's one of the most important people in my life. Guess I should probably have mentioned him at some point lol. Call him Mario, then.
So my son had an event for one of his activities last night, and Henry and I had to go to another city for that. We decided to go early and take him to a botany exhibit that Kiddo had wanted to attend and take photographs of, and he really enjoyed that. We went out for dinner before his event, and then Henry took him and I went to hang out with Mario instead. We spent the evening at the racetrack before coming home and playing board games with my ex boyfriend John until late. It was a really good night. I like that John is still one of my close friends and that we can hang out and have fun.
And now, it's nice and quiet and I have no responsibilities other than some housework. I'm not used to being the only person home and being able to come and go as I please! I actually don't think I'm going to go anywhere, but it's nice knowing that I could if I wanted to. I should probably do the housework, but I am feeling happy after yesterday so I think I'm just going to chill and play video games this afternoon until Henry and Kiddo come home. Old school stuff, from when I was a kid. Good times
I had been feeling pretty fragile vis a vis my connection with Charles lately. He's been having his life go crazy the past couple of months, but he's making a real point of investing in our relationship, and that makes me feel so loved and valued. I still don't feel secure and relaxed, but I'm starting to really believe that despite all the things that have come up, that he really does want to make us work.
We've increased the amount of time we're seeing each other, and have spent more time chatting on the phone and texting, too. It's definitely making me feel more connected and happier. This week, we spent three days together including two overnights, which is pretty awesome.
I'm still glowing from our last date, though. He came over after work, and Henry made delicious dinner for everyone- steak with garden salad and parmesan noodles on the side. Like I've said before, it's pretty fantastic just being open about my loves. According to my Facebook memories, we came out to Kiddo as poly over a year ago, so this is just a normal part of our lives now. I'm glad everyone gets along so well. Then the four of us played some board games after dinner until it was Kiddo's bedtime.
Henry is a sweetie, and he excused himself so that we could have some privacy for our date night. I like that we can hang out together, but every relationship deserves its own space, after all. Charles and I decided it was bedtime as well, and went upstairs.
Most of the time, we enjoy having very long and drawn out sex sessions, but yesterday I just found myself feeling much more urgent. We'd had a nice long round of sex the night before, and both of us were feeling pretty satisfied with that, but then some very intense lust came over me and I just had to have him, right then. We had a passionate quickie-for-us that ended with a truly massive orgasm for me that left me with a bad case of the giggles. You know it's been a good fuck when you can't stop giggling afterwards from the rush of endorphins!
Then we went out to hang out in the hot tub. It was such a beautiful evening. We sat out there for four hours in the gently falling snow just chatting and enjoying each other's company. I am head over heels in love and reminding myself to count my blessings with the two wonderful men in my life.
And last night, I gave him a key to my home. I've never done that with a partner before other than my ex-husband Mark (who bought it with me so it wasn't like that anyway) and Henry. I told Charles that he was always welcome here and I wanted him to know that. I don't know if he realizes what a big deal it was to me, because my home is my castle, but it meant a lot.
It was so lovely waking up with Charles the next morning since neither of us had to work early, so we slept in late and then just spent the morning in bed together hanging out and cuddling and waking up slowly. There isn't much better than morning cuddles with someone you love.
Henry has been pretty under the weather lately, but we're hoping to get some connection time in soon. At least hot tub tonight and some R&R together. When he's (or really either of us is) sick, we don't sleep together because we wake each other up. We do cuddle when we watch TV but it's not the same as when it's intentional- there's definitely a big difference. I want the good stuff with him
We've increased the amount of time we're seeing each other, and have spent more time chatting on the phone and texting, too. It's definitely making me feel more connected and happier. This week, we spent three days together including two overnights, which is pretty awesome.
I'm still glowing from our last date, though. He came over after work, and Henry made delicious dinner for everyone- steak with garden salad and parmesan noodles on the side. Like I've said before, it's pretty fantastic just being open about my loves. According to my Facebook memories, we came out to Kiddo as poly over a year ago, so this is just a normal part of our lives now. I'm glad everyone gets along so well. Then the four of us played some board games after dinner until it was Kiddo's bedtime.
Henry is a sweetie, and he excused himself so that we could have some privacy for our date night. I like that we can hang out together, but every relationship deserves its own space, after all. Charles and I decided it was bedtime as well, and went upstairs.
Most of the time, we enjoy having very long and drawn out sex sessions, but yesterday I just found myself feeling much more urgent. We'd had a nice long round of sex the night before, and both of us were feeling pretty satisfied with that, but then some very intense lust came over me and I just had to have him, right then. We had a passionate quickie-for-us that ended with a truly massive orgasm for me that left me with a bad case of the giggles. You know it's been a good fuck when you can't stop giggling afterwards from the rush of endorphins!
Then we went out to hang out in the hot tub. It was such a beautiful evening. We sat out there for four hours in the gently falling snow just chatting and enjoying each other's company. I am head over heels in love and reminding myself to count my blessings with the two wonderful men in my life.
And last night, I gave him a key to my home. I've never done that with a partner before other than my ex-husband Mark (who bought it with me so it wasn't like that anyway) and Henry. I told Charles that he was always welcome here and I wanted him to know that. I don't know if he realizes what a big deal it was to me, because my home is my castle, but it meant a lot.
It was so lovely waking up with Charles the next morning since neither of us had to work early, so we slept in late and then just spent the morning in bed together hanging out and cuddling and waking up slowly. There isn't much better than morning cuddles with someone you love.
Henry has been pretty under the weather lately, but we're hoping to get some connection time in soon. At least hot tub tonight and some R&R together. When he's (or really either of us is) sick, we don't sleep together because we wake each other up. We do cuddle when we watch TV but it's not the same as when it's intentional- there's definitely a big difference. I want the good stuff with him
I started writing this a few days ago then got distracted but I don't want to lose my memory of the moment!
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Last night was really special, and I wanted to spend some more time thinking about it.
It already started off so nicely. Charles came over for our date night, and we made one of the meal box meals for all of us (me, Charles, Henry, and Kiddo). Grilled Thai tiger shrimp in coconut sauce over red rice, with a perfectly acceptable bottle of wine. We played a silly game with Kiddo, and then 7 Wonders Duel the two of us and had some champagne cocktails afterwards when Henry excused himself and Kiddo went to bed.
We decided to also go to bed, although not quite ready to sleep yet! Charles wasn't going to be able to cum due to alcohol/fatigue, but he told me that he wanted to make sure I got exactly what I wanted and he made me orgasm so very many times... I am getting wet just remembering listening to his voice talking to me while he was playing with me, and telling me how much he was enjoying watching me and asking me to cum for him. It was crazy hot!
We came downstairs for a post sex, slightly drunk snack, which hit the spot. It was too late to go out for a hot tub, so we just hung out a bit and chatted before going back upstairs for cuddles.
Sometimes I don't know how to describe a moment except that you can kinda feel a person's energy or what they're thinking about, but when it happens, it's pretty intense.
Charles and I were cuddling in bed and he was very quiet and he was definitely being thinky. I didn't talk because I figured I'd hold space for him to do his thinking and he would talk when he was ready.
He looked in my eyes and told me that he really loves me. And I could just feel it coming off him so intensely... I don't know how else to describe it. And he was tired so he said he wasn't physically capable but he said he wanted to make crazy passionate love. And I felt so connected with him in the moment- it's hard to describe. Just that when I feel the way I think he felt, I describe it as "overwhelmingness". Where you feel so intensely in the moment that it overwhelms anything else. And I could feel it coming off him in waves, and in his kiss and the way he touched my face.
I never want to forget that moment, or that night. I love that man so much.
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Last night was really special, and I wanted to spend some more time thinking about it.
It already started off so nicely. Charles came over for our date night, and we made one of the meal box meals for all of us (me, Charles, Henry, and Kiddo). Grilled Thai tiger shrimp in coconut sauce over red rice, with a perfectly acceptable bottle of wine. We played a silly game with Kiddo, and then 7 Wonders Duel the two of us and had some champagne cocktails afterwards when Henry excused himself and Kiddo went to bed.
We decided to also go to bed, although not quite ready to sleep yet! Charles wasn't going to be able to cum due to alcohol/fatigue, but he told me that he wanted to make sure I got exactly what I wanted and he made me orgasm so very many times... I am getting wet just remembering listening to his voice talking to me while he was playing with me, and telling me how much he was enjoying watching me and asking me to cum for him. It was crazy hot!
We came downstairs for a post sex, slightly drunk snack, which hit the spot. It was too late to go out for a hot tub, so we just hung out a bit and chatted before going back upstairs for cuddles.
Sometimes I don't know how to describe a moment except that you can kinda feel a person's energy or what they're thinking about, but when it happens, it's pretty intense.
Charles and I were cuddling in bed and he was very quiet and he was definitely being thinky. I didn't talk because I figured I'd hold space for him to do his thinking and he would talk when he was ready.
He looked in my eyes and told me that he really loves me. And I could just feel it coming off him so intensely... I don't know how else to describe it. And he was tired so he said he wasn't physically capable but he said he wanted to make crazy passionate love. And I felt so connected with him in the moment- it's hard to describe. Just that when I feel the way I think he felt, I describe it as "overwhelmingness". Where you feel so intensely in the moment that it overwhelms anything else. And I could feel it coming off him in waves, and in his kiss and the way he touched my face.
I never want to forget that moment, or that night. I love that man so much.
I've also been pretty anxious lately, which is why I kinda left that post and didn't finish it!
So Henry and Kiddo and I are booked on a cruise leaving on Sunday. We're going with extended family so it's been a big deal that was in the works for over a year. While the cruiselines are allowing cancellations, we don't think we could get everyone back together again in that timeframe, and we'd still lose our airfare, so at this moment we are still planning to go. We can cancel until Thursday afternoon.
Thankfully, not on Princess, otherwise we would have cancelled already. But Celebrity hasn't had any issues yet so we're tentatively a go.
It's been so anxiety-provoking though, in the meantime. Tons of threads on the cruise message board about coronavirus, and it's so hard to figure out what is hysteria and what isn't. We've vacillated between cancelling and going so many times that it's sucked a lot of the fun out of planning the trip. But ultimately, we are in relatively good health and since everyone still wants to go, we're doing it. Henry is more worried about the airplane than the cruise, actually, so I spent 2 hours on the phone tonight changing our flight to a direct flight. At least they waived the fees for that.
Please keep your fingers crossed for us that all will be well and we will have a wonderful time. The ship is already half empty from cancellations, so I am hoping we will get amazing service, less worry about communal spread since fewer passengers, and hopefully an amazing upgrade when we check in.
Charles is cat sitting for us while we're away. And he must really love me cuz he downloaded Facebook Messenger, which he didn't want, so that we could video chat while I'm away since I can't use my phone but will have wifi.
So please cross your fingers and toes for us!
So Henry and Kiddo and I are booked on a cruise leaving on Sunday. We're going with extended family so it's been a big deal that was in the works for over a year. While the cruiselines are allowing cancellations, we don't think we could get everyone back together again in that timeframe, and we'd still lose our airfare, so at this moment we are still planning to go. We can cancel until Thursday afternoon.
Thankfully, not on Princess, otherwise we would have cancelled already. But Celebrity hasn't had any issues yet so we're tentatively a go.
It's been so anxiety-provoking though, in the meantime. Tons of threads on the cruise message board about coronavirus, and it's so hard to figure out what is hysteria and what isn't. We've vacillated between cancelling and going so many times that it's sucked a lot of the fun out of planning the trip. But ultimately, we are in relatively good health and since everyone still wants to go, we're doing it. Henry is more worried about the airplane than the cruise, actually, so I spent 2 hours on the phone tonight changing our flight to a direct flight. At least they waived the fees for that.
Please keep your fingers crossed for us that all will be well and we will have a wonderful time. The ship is already half empty from cancellations, so I am hoping we will get amazing service, less worry about communal spread since fewer passengers, and hopefully an amazing upgrade when we check in.
Charles is cat sitting for us while we're away. And he must really love me cuz he downloaded Facebook Messenger, which he didn't want, so that we could video chat while I'm away since I can't use my phone but will have wifi.
So please cross your fingers and toes for us!
Fingers crossed! I'm terrified of cruise ships in the best of times. I just don't like the idea of a floating city. But now? Fuhgeddaboudit!
I'm glad it's going to be half empty. Stay away from sneezing/coughing people and wash your hands constantly! Good lord. Be safe.
Pixi is away at a work conference in NJ this week. I'm scared for her. It's too damn close to New Rochelle! I keep texting her to wash her hands, wash her hands. At least, handshakes and hugs are not allowed. People can only bump elbows.
I'm glad it's going to be half empty. Stay away from sneezing/coughing people and wash your hands constantly! Good lord. Be safe.
Pixi is away at a work conference in NJ this week. I'm scared for her. It's too damn close to New Rochelle! I keep texting her to wash her hands, wash her hands. At least, handshakes and hugs are not allowed. People can only bump elbows.
Only Princess. We aren't sailing Princess. Oh, and Viking River cruises.
Oh, OK, I thought it was all of them. Bon voyage.
You were prescient. Mine was cancelled today. Henry's mom was already in Florida and spent $1300 on airfare. This is an unmitigated disaster and the compensation they are offering is ridiculous low.
I'm in tears. I really needed this. Feels like crazy overreaction.
So today has been an absolute nightmare. First there has been all the stress worrying about Covid-19 and whether or not we should keep the cruise plans we had been excited about for over a year. It was our family cruise with my parents, and also Henry's family. Everyone was excited although a little anxious but we decided to go.
SO much back and forth it was really taking a toll on my health. My heart rate was constantly elevated and I was getting palpitations. I stopped being able to sleep well and I was just so looking forward to this break. The ship was half empty so I figured we could score a cheap upgrade at the pier and get great service because staffing ratios. I went and got my hair cut and my nails done and bought new clothes and we were all packed and ready to go.
...and then Celebrity cancelled our cruise. So we sit at home and try and pick up the pieces by canceling what we can. Two hours on the phone with Delta. An hour with Priceline. Can't even get through to Transat. And then to be insulted by Celebrity's offer since we lose all the perks that we're on the booking.
After this month of stress, the last thing I needed was to be sitting at home impotently with Henry's mom mad because she got stuck in Florida after using her $1300 airfare and basically coming out behind.
I'm pretty crushed right now. And I guess we get to sit at home for the next three weeks since March Break and then school is out mandatory for 2 weeks. This is going to be fun.
I just want to cry. I needed the sunshine and the relaxation.
SO much back and forth it was really taking a toll on my health. My heart rate was constantly elevated and I was getting palpitations. I stopped being able to sleep well and I was just so looking forward to this break. The ship was half empty so I figured we could score a cheap upgrade at the pier and get great service because staffing ratios. I went and got my hair cut and my nails done and bought new clothes and we were all packed and ready to go.
...and then Celebrity cancelled our cruise. So we sit at home and try and pick up the pieces by canceling what we can. Two hours on the phone with Delta. An hour with Priceline. Can't even get through to Transat. And then to be insulted by Celebrity's offer since we lose all the perks that we're on the booking.
After this month of stress, the last thing I needed was to be sitting at home impotently with Henry's mom mad because she got stuck in Florida after using her $1300 airfare and basically coming out behind.
I'm pretty crushed right now. And I guess we get to sit at home for the next three weeks since March Break and then school is out mandatory for 2 weeks. This is going to be fun.
I just want to cry. I needed the sunshine and the relaxation.
