starlight1
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Well I unpacked a lot of stuff with about my mom with my ever-reliable great aunt Honour. I miss the fuck out of that woman so much every day. <3
It was nice to touch base. I've been job hunting and resume building again.
Things with Dreamer are fine, we started talking more about my last subject's post and realised for him that responsibility = reliability. So we just changed word usage and I no longer have an issue with it.
This week he asks for time off work to come out and visit. The plan is visit for end of April/ Beginning of May. I'm excited.
I found out because of ending thing with Gamer's friend, Xavier, that during this time, and I've known this awhile, that Gamer would like to be something with me, and I with him. Mostly this was an ah-hah on my part because of the realisation I'd have to dial it back with Gamer again, and we've done that on and off over the years.
I asked him to be official with me but long distance because we're a bit far from each other. I also invited him to join this poly space here. Also, we already have for years tell each other we love each other, and generally respect and like each other. It's been a very slow thing, but I'm thinking, I could really see myself having a Long distance relationship with him in a bf/gf way parts of the year, because he has his kid and wife to think about, and I can't have certain things with him that i do eventually want in my life. Which is ok, and so now the things that change is I make actual saving plans to go visit him, and see him and family. <3
He's one of my inner circle peeps over the years, and very stable and loving, and it just took me a long time to develop feelings for him, and I like how it goes, there's not a lot to report there because it's just so..well routine. We talk to each other a couple times a week, and which has been moved up to a little bit each day, and we have similar nerdy/geeky interests.
I'm hoping things continue on this long term trend of less and less internal drama on myself as i continue to learn and grow and realise my people in life. And settle into comfortable poly tribe. Slowly Slowly...
It was nice to touch base. I've been job hunting and resume building again.
Things with Dreamer are fine, we started talking more about my last subject's post and realised for him that responsibility = reliability. So we just changed word usage and I no longer have an issue with it.
This week he asks for time off work to come out and visit. The plan is visit for end of April/ Beginning of May. I'm excited.
I found out because of ending thing with Gamer's friend, Xavier, that during this time, and I've known this awhile, that Gamer would like to be something with me, and I with him. Mostly this was an ah-hah on my part because of the realisation I'd have to dial it back with Gamer again, and we've done that on and off over the years.
I asked him to be official with me but long distance because we're a bit far from each other. I also invited him to join this poly space here. Also, we already have for years tell each other we love each other, and generally respect and like each other. It's been a very slow thing, but I'm thinking, I could really see myself having a Long distance relationship with him in a bf/gf way parts of the year, because he has his kid and wife to think about, and I can't have certain things with him that i do eventually want in my life. Which is ok, and so now the things that change is I make actual saving plans to go visit him, and see him and family. <3
He's one of my inner circle peeps over the years, and very stable and loving, and it just took me a long time to develop feelings for him, and I like how it goes, there's not a lot to report there because it's just so..well routine. We talk to each other a couple times a week, and which has been moved up to a little bit each day, and we have similar nerdy/geeky interests.
I'm hoping things continue on this long term trend of less and less internal drama on myself as i continue to learn and grow and realise my people in life. And settle into comfortable poly tribe. Slowly Slowly...
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