Mr Lime has booked himself a one week vacation with the new GF. I feel quite hurt and rejected. I tried to get him to go to anywhere but his "go to" vacation spot and he refused. He is going to one of my vacation idea spots with the new GF. He is also going in my last block of time that I had without my kids. He apologized that he got the dates mixed up ( I had put them on the google calendar that he asked me to set up ) and tried to explain the reasoning for the new spot. The up-shot is...he didn't want to travel with me and I have to accept that and process the emotions. Stupid emotions.
According to my therapist I am very disconnected from my emotions and need to work a bit more on processing through them and not ignoring them to just " get on with it".
The past couple of months with Mr Lime have been disconnected. We barely saw each other for nearly a month while he was NREing and Sushi Syndroming. We did just spend the 4th together, one night last weekend, and he wants to come and see me before I leave on my vacation so things are little better.
I am really quite jealous over his holiday even though I am heading off with Prof for nearly 3 weeks. Mostly because he kept refusing to go anywhere but his favorite place and is now going elsewhere. I really wouldn't have cared if a) it wasn't in my last kid free time for the year and b) if he was taking her to his favorite spot, because really I don't have any interest in going back there. And I should add there is no way I could afford to do another trip this year. So yes, I feel snippy and irritated because there are many ways it could have worked out that I really would have been fine with. He did apologize for both the timing and the going to of a new place but also pointed out that we were not in a good place when he planned it.
Things with Prof are fine, and fine is a good place to be.
I went on a Tinder date last week with a very nice man who was about 5 inches shorter than me and overall very small. The two times when we both stood it up felt weird. He was shorter than my oldest kid. He didn't put his height on Tinder and I get why, but my height is on mine. It did feel like quite the waste of time.
I have since deleted Tinder and will focus on the two half relationships that I have.
I would be quite happy with two halves if Mr Lime could settle into it. The whole dealing with a poly newbie situation is unsettling. I am probably his post-divorce bridge person. He still hasn't filed yet. But damn if this doesn't bring out my competitive side.
And I have been having sex with 2 different people in the same day. That is something that I really enjoy doing so there are still some upsides all of this.
According to my therapist I am very disconnected from my emotions and need to work a bit more on processing through them and not ignoring them to just " get on with it".
The past couple of months with Mr Lime have been disconnected. We barely saw each other for nearly a month while he was NREing and Sushi Syndroming. We did just spend the 4th together, one night last weekend, and he wants to come and see me before I leave on my vacation so things are little better.
I am really quite jealous over his holiday even though I am heading off with Prof for nearly 3 weeks. Mostly because he kept refusing to go anywhere but his favorite place and is now going elsewhere. I really wouldn't have cared if a) it wasn't in my last kid free time for the year and b) if he was taking her to his favorite spot, because really I don't have any interest in going back there. And I should add there is no way I could afford to do another trip this year. So yes, I feel snippy and irritated because there are many ways it could have worked out that I really would have been fine with. He did apologize for both the timing and the going to of a new place but also pointed out that we were not in a good place when he planned it.
Things with Prof are fine, and fine is a good place to be.
I went on a Tinder date last week with a very nice man who was about 5 inches shorter than me and overall very small. The two times when we both stood it up felt weird. He was shorter than my oldest kid. He didn't put his height on Tinder and I get why, but my height is on mine. It did feel like quite the waste of time.
I have since deleted Tinder and will focus on the two half relationships that I have.
I would be quite happy with two halves if Mr Lime could settle into it. The whole dealing with a poly newbie situation is unsettling. I am probably his post-divorce bridge person. He still hasn't filed yet. But damn if this doesn't bring out my competitive side.
And I have been having sex with 2 different people in the same day. That is something that I really enjoy doing so there are still some upsides all of this.