So today I turn a lil older. I am on the tailend of what would be a normal length life (ironically I doubt I will hit that number) on my birthdays I am not much for celebration but I am one for reminiscing. I have led an eventful life. And for me, birthdays are about being grateful to those situations that impacted it
I can think back to a lot of impacts in my life. The ones that resonate stay with me forever. They made me who I am. Good or bad. From my younger years being a punk kid thief who liked to gang fight to my football days as a really shitty football player. My days as a street baller and making money so I could eat while my parents had an 8000$ income. Driving around with new friends and trying to pick up pretty girls and never once succeeding...
At the age of 17 meeting the girl of my dreams.. which is easy enough when your only dream is to get away from the other side of the tracks. To meeting another dream girl @ 22, spending 4 months high as a kite (pot) and experimenting sexually in almost every way possible.
To what is likely the largest impact in my life (as this has impacted everything moving forward). Meeting the woman who would become my wife. I was being hooked up in a bar with a busty red headed girl who could not capture my attention to save her life. This woman walks in, sits down, grabs a beer and starts arguing with me. This dirty sexy hippy chick is debating politics and religion with me while we get our drink on. I took her home that night, and began a wonderful 3 week fling... that has last 11 years. Being married... thinking of kids... finally starting to settle down. All things I hadn't considered. Living past 50 is a new thought for me (men in my family have no staying power
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To my discovery of poly from non-monogamous beginnings. My wife and I hadn't been monogamous from day one. Non monogamy just didn't seem like it was a big deal. Discovering mid threesome I was in love with another woman. THAT was a big deal. Realizing that situation would never work, and that the whole situation was put in my way as a life lesson... and I believe was put there as a precursor for a much bigger event to happen in my life...
and then almost by chance being introduced the woman who would become the woman I love and hold dearly in this world. She came to me at a time when I was considering walking away from poly. However she found me and I was shown a person who I knew I wanted to love. My unicorn hunting OPP days were tossed aside and my poly world was turned upside down. The best thing I ever did for those who are curious... it was a transition that made poly... make sense finally.
I thought that had been it, we would live happily ever after and just be... us... well low and behold she impacted my life again by really holding up a mirror and showing me what I was becoming as an Alcoholic. I was teetering on the edge and had to make a life decision...thank you my love.
all of these situations and people I am grateful towards. I have many more, but these stick out right now. Most don't even know they impacted my life in that way, and .. a few do.
I love life..
I can think back to a lot of impacts in my life. The ones that resonate stay with me forever. They made me who I am. Good or bad. From my younger years being a punk kid thief who liked to gang fight to my football days as a really shitty football player. My days as a street baller and making money so I could eat while my parents had an 8000$ income. Driving around with new friends and trying to pick up pretty girls and never once succeeding...
At the age of 17 meeting the girl of my dreams.. which is easy enough when your only dream is to get away from the other side of the tracks. To meeting another dream girl @ 22, spending 4 months high as a kite (pot) and experimenting sexually in almost every way possible.
To what is likely the largest impact in my life (as this has impacted everything moving forward). Meeting the woman who would become my wife. I was being hooked up in a bar with a busty red headed girl who could not capture my attention to save her life. This woman walks in, sits down, grabs a beer and starts arguing with me. This dirty sexy hippy chick is debating politics and religion with me while we get our drink on. I took her home that night, and began a wonderful 3 week fling... that has last 11 years. Being married... thinking of kids... finally starting to settle down. All things I hadn't considered. Living past 50 is a new thought for me (men in my family have no staying power
)... To my discovery of poly from non-monogamous beginnings. My wife and I hadn't been monogamous from day one. Non monogamy just didn't seem like it was a big deal. Discovering mid threesome I was in love with another woman. THAT was a big deal. Realizing that situation would never work, and that the whole situation was put in my way as a life lesson... and I believe was put there as a precursor for a much bigger event to happen in my life...
and then almost by chance being introduced the woman who would become the woman I love and hold dearly in this world. She came to me at a time when I was considering walking away from poly. However she found me and I was shown a person who I knew I wanted to love. My unicorn hunting OPP days were tossed aside and my poly world was turned upside down. The best thing I ever did for those who are curious... it was a transition that made poly... make sense finally.
I thought that had been it, we would live happily ever after and just be... us... well low and behold she impacted my life again by really holding up a mirror and showing me what I was becoming as an Alcoholic. I was teetering on the edge and had to make a life decision...thank you my love.
all of these situations and people I am grateful towards. I have many more, but these stick out right now. Most don't even know they impacted my life in that way, and .. a few do.
I love life..
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