Emmjay
Member
Hi there!
I am in the exploration, research, talking to people stage. I am married and I've also developed a distant friendship/explore sexuality friendship recently that has lit me up like a firefly. It also awakened me to patterns I'm seeing in myself over the years.
I've come to the point at 51 that I really want to live my life to the fullest and that I've been ignoring a part of myself for most of my life. Before, I've always been in a monogamous relationship, found someone else interesting and thought I had to end it with the first. This time around I talked to my partner about what I would like. I don't want to hide this. I want to be honest with him and myself.
He is open to the idea. His concern is being replaced. That's not what I'm looking to do. I want to build friendships; I want to feel freedom and yes, I want to explore sexuality. The net has been a little depressing with these paid dating sites, where it's all about sex and monthly membership fees. I think this road trip is way more than just the libido. I really think it involves accepting yourself and how you think and feel, and it hasn't aligned very well with my culture and what that culture thinks relationships should be.
I want to think for myself and every step I take towards learning more about polyamory gives me a greater sense of peace and excitement about living. I didn't mean to get all philosophical, but for me it is. Also, for me to explore sexuality with somebody, it matters that I'm cared about as a human being.
So that's me and really looking forward to talking with you. Feel like I need to do a curtsy.....
I am in the exploration, research, talking to people stage. I am married and I've also developed a distant friendship/explore sexuality friendship recently that has lit me up like a firefly. It also awakened me to patterns I'm seeing in myself over the years.
I've come to the point at 51 that I really want to live my life to the fullest and that I've been ignoring a part of myself for most of my life. Before, I've always been in a monogamous relationship, found someone else interesting and thought I had to end it with the first. This time around I talked to my partner about what I would like. I don't want to hide this. I want to be honest with him and myself.
He is open to the idea. His concern is being replaced. That's not what I'm looking to do. I want to build friendships; I want to feel freedom and yes, I want to explore sexuality. The net has been a little depressing with these paid dating sites, where it's all about sex and monthly membership fees. I think this road trip is way more than just the libido. I really think it involves accepting yourself and how you think and feel, and it hasn't aligned very well with my culture and what that culture thinks relationships should be.
I want to think for myself and every step I take towards learning more about polyamory gives me a greater sense of peace and excitement about living. I didn't mean to get all philosophical, but for me it is. Also, for me to explore sexuality with somebody, it matters that I'm cared about as a human being.
So that's me and really looking forward to talking with you. Feel like I need to do a curtsy.....