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I'm so beyond ready for them. Sucky part is I won't get to speak with Puck today, and Adam is heading to a different city for the night. I don't want to be alone tonight.
Upate today: I GOT TO TALK WITH PUCK!!!!! It was soooooo cathartic because it was clear that he wanted to talk with me too. I was slightly embarrassed that I wasn't the best listener today since I was soooo hitting the wall with exhaustion at end of term plus being on my 3rd gin...but we've seen each other tipsy before and it's not the end of the world. I love him so fucking much. (yep, more gin.)
I actually had a really weird dream about him last night that I complete forgot about until right this minute. I was over there and we were having sex for the first time, and we were at his place, but during, he heard a car pull up unexpectedly and went to check at the window and saw it was his wife, and I said "oh well, we'll go downstairs soon, it's ok" and he said "no, we need to stop now," and I said, "what? Adam would totally get this and we're 5 years into poly, not 20! wtf?" and he said, "we just don't overhear each other, ever, that's our hard limit" which I was cool with but then pissed off that she arrived home early.
So, I forgot to tell Puck all of this (I'll copy/paste this into the journal he reads so we can unpack it sometime) because neither of us want to be doing this today, or in the next week because we're already fucking exhausted by life. But I guess we do need to have another conversation about boundaries before I EVENTUALLY (fuckcovid, and yes that's one word now) get to their town.
EDIT: we've already planned that the first time we have sex in person will be in a hotel very close to the airport that I will arrive at, so this dream was totally weird, but I'm glad it brought up a talking point.
I'm so beyond ready for them. Sucky part is I won't get to speak with Puck today, and Adam is heading to a different city for the night. I don't want to be alone tonight.
Upate today: I GOT TO TALK WITH PUCK!!!!! It was soooooo cathartic because it was clear that he wanted to talk with me too. I was slightly embarrassed that I wasn't the best listener today since I was soooo hitting the wall with exhaustion at end of term plus being on my 3rd gin...but we've seen each other tipsy before and it's not the end of the world. I love him so fucking much. (yep, more gin.)
I actually had a really weird dream about him last night that I complete forgot about until right this minute. I was over there and we were having sex for the first time, and we were at his place, but during, he heard a car pull up unexpectedly and went to check at the window and saw it was his wife, and I said "oh well, we'll go downstairs soon, it's ok" and he said "no, we need to stop now," and I said, "what? Adam would totally get this and we're 5 years into poly, not 20! wtf?" and he said, "we just don't overhear each other, ever, that's our hard limit" which I was cool with but then pissed off that she arrived home early.
So, I forgot to tell Puck all of this (I'll copy/paste this into the journal he reads so we can unpack it sometime) because neither of us want to be doing this today, or in the next week because we're already fucking exhausted by life. But I guess we do need to have another conversation about boundaries before I EVENTUALLY (fuckcovid, and yes that's one word now) get to their town.
EDIT: we've already planned that the first time we have sex in person will be in a hotel very close to the airport that I will arrive at, so this dream was totally weird, but I'm glad it brought up a talking point.
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