So the renewal of energy since my traumatic October is lasting!
I contacted covid over thanksgiving, cruised through it with mild symptoms. I'm update to date on all my shots and boosters, including my flu shot.
I think I really have been cured from M.E. after that incident in October.
Since then I've held down my new job of 40 hours a week.
Transitioned off state healthcare to private.
Paid off all the back dated finances my mother put my credit in, signed up to the Biden Harris relief plan for debt which I was approved but just pending in their court heart to get dismissed, and I've made solid plans to go back to education in 2023.
Arbor is still recovering from covid, we all go it just before thanksgiving. So he's been off work and being mostly like a "house husband" role. Which has been really convenient for me, I've never had anyone do all the stuff I was doing before and its been a welcome change of pace to not have to worry about laundry, dishes, sweeping, mopping, dusting, etc. I'm not saying I don't help at all, I do, but the distribution is more towards him.
Dude didn't even know how to separate laundry, so I've given him loads of YouTube vids, everything from food cooking to cleaning with lemon/baking soda/vinegar tricks to other things, and he's going ham. He's so appreciative of having a home he calls his home that's he's taken a lot of pride in doing all the jobs here.
I've been practicing a little bit on trying to juggle both full time work and education. Where I felt a deep soul weariness before, now I'm just constantly joyful and excited.
Before my sleep patterns were restless, and horrible quality, even with 8 hours. I used to fight my brain to get to sleep. Now since Oct, 8-9th, I nod off at 10 pm, and wake up at 6-630 of my own accord.
Every day since then I've done an evening walk, most nights with Arbor. But some on my own. I average about 3k-10k steps. 3k on slow days, and 6-10k on higher energy days.
I cannot tell you how wonderful it is to wake up feeling refreshed, having energy, and NO PAIN!
I went to the doctors to follow up and I still have osteoarthritis, but can't see any signs or symptoms of anything else, including my pre-diabetes i was previously diagnosed with.
Also my taste buds completely changed between the October NDE, and covid. I've tried out numerous health stuff but gone back to what works:
Intermittent fasting, calorie counting, healthy food choices (mostly paleo/keto) but with some rice and potatoes thrown in occasionally. Arbor's been super supportive and I'm down 11.8 pounds from October to now.
I have to say I think this is the healthiest I've ever been emotionally, physically, financially, and spiritually at the same time. Usually one is in better shape than the others, and I feel fucking fantastic.
I honestly believe I had a honest to goddess, miracle when I died and came back. That alone was the miracle but what has been better is how healed spiritually, mentally, and physically I feel.
Oh and I'm not going back on antidepressants as I've been off them since the October 6th. I had antibiotics back then for a chest infection too, and I couldn't take them, so I figured I'd test the water without them at all. My doctors have been supportive, and monitoring me.
My therapist is lovely.
So far I've been a little up and down emotionally due to grief of my grandma, but over all staying steady.
I'm not even sure I felt this good at 18 because back then I was eating horribly, and I had no sense of self worth or self as I do now.
In honor of all this change I chopped my hair super short. I've been running it around shoulder length for awhile now, but now it's REALLY short and I actually love it.
Oh and the only poly news is that I think my therapist is possibly interested in dating me LOL.
I know widely inappropriate thought there as I'm still receiving therapy, but we dropped down to 1 day a month, for the next 4 months and after that transitioning to real life friends.
Were going to go slow.
I told her that I needed to stop therapy with her soon due to the blurring of lines happening now. And she agreed because she said I was her favorite person to talk to when she works with and shed be happy to be friends.
I guess I should give her a name here in the future. I doubt we'll actually make it to romantic as that may die down some while I transition out of therapy and it seems like it could be "messy person" situation. But its food for thought and something to explore once we meet up in person and hang out as friends, we have a REALLY healthy dialogue with each other but there's so much I don't know about her because she wasn't allowed to tell me more than in general terms.
I do know we're a similar age, she's married with kids, and an obvious supporter of LGBTQ, poly life. She suggested I consider opening up again instead of breaking it off with Arbor to get my women needs met because Arbor and I seem very strong as a couple. We are, my desire to break it off with him isn't a desire so much as I have always had either really high intensity relationships or ones I clearly didn't want/weren't healthy. Arbor is gentle, and not so sexual, and very subby, and super kind. He's a hard worker, and I really do love him, I just didn't see myself with a man at this point was all, so coming up to almost a year with Arbor is kind of strange for me. It\s been so peaceful between us that I really don't know what to do with myself and him hahaha.
OH I finally went no-contact with my N-mom. (narcissisictic mother), after I found out that she had been repeatedly calling my title loan agency every day since I kicked her out (in august) to the point the company actually blocked her number and they supported me completely in my belief that she was controlling, and stole my identity. My life is reallllly peaceful now but super happy busy.
Time to work and sip my herba matcha and lemon iced tea. Another gorgeous day
