What do I even do? I feel like everytime she does something that hurts me I'm the asshole. Am I the asshole? I don't even know. I feel like I'm not allowed to feel how I'm feeling. I feel like every time I need reassurance all I get is scorn. When is it ok for me to need something? Is it not okay for me to feel this way? Am I crazy? I keep wondering if this relationship is toxic. Is it me or is it just our circumstances? Is it clear what I need? It's not the sex I really need. I need to feel desired. Is it crazy to need that in a relationship? I need someone to tell me what the answer is. I don't know what to do or if I'm in the wrong and I feel like I'm losing my mind!