So it's been a little over 6 months since I last posted. Things are going well. Spitfire and I realized we only have the bandwidth for one partner apiece. We're still open for more but neither of us really has the time or the energy or the gas money to see more people. Maybe when the kids are older and don't require so much supervision. Jason and I are still together. Things are good between us. Still don't get to see each other very much between their schedule and mine plus the distance. It's going to be even worse when they move back in with their parents. Their rental company raised the rent about $400 making it very not worth a one bedroom so they're just going to save up and buy a place. I don't blame them.
Spitfire and Kirk are doing great. They see each other one or twice a week and our kids are all great friends. I still count Kirk as one of my closest friends, though we never really get to see each other unless he comes over to hang out, but then he's always got his kids with him and hanging out with Spitfire so we don't really get to chill. There was one time where Spitfire passed out early (they're forever tired) and he and I stayed up till the wee hours of the morning shooting the shit and playing video games. It was a good time.
Spitfire and I are kind of in a weird way. We love each other very much but we've both got a lot going on. They're going through the rigors of being tested for Autism, I'm finally getting treated for my ADHD, we've both stepped up to more responsibility at work, we try and pay a fair amount of attention to our partners, and keep the house in order and the kids safe and entertained. We're exhausted all the time.
It carries over into the bedroom. We haven't really been intimate with each other for a long time now. Maybe like once a month or two. One of us is always too tired or too sweaty or too burnt out. Honestly, I don't even care about it that much anymore. At least we still love each other. I've been working with my therapist on getting over being afraid of telling Spitfire things and working with them on how to preface things so they have a chance to rein themselves in before they blow their top. I definitely do not feel as dependent on them anymore and that's gotta be a step in the right direction.
We're still working on things and growing as a couple. We're definitely in a cooling off phase. I'm curious to see where that'll lead. I'm sure we'll grow from it.
I'm drawing a blank on what to write now. Mostly I just want to rest after work, but I got an email update from the site and realized I haven't logged in for a long time. It got a bit weird around here. I had a couple of scam messages and a few solicitations for sex. Please, if you're reading this, I'm not looking to hookup. Spitfire and I are not interested in a third. I don't want to join in on your business venture. I don't want to meetup and hang out. I came here to get out of my comfort zone, learn about the people, work through my issues and, share my experience. Let me be.
That said, I'm open to friendly discourse in this thread. People are welcome to comment and ask questions but, I'm not likely to meet you in my DMs. The only DMs I need are in D&D! lol
