Out of the Basement

I love you, and I feel loved and understood by you, and that brings out all my subby urges and an intense urge to please you. It feels extremely fulfilling to me. You give me what I need, and I want to do the same for you. I'm yours, forever 💞
 
You okay there, Ian?
 
Since our daughter is now going to school, Jess and I have discovered free time again. We’ve been using it to go to restaurants and to prep for Dawn’s move.

I’ve already contracted the entire apartment floor to be redone completely in scratch-proof vinyl. That’ll start in a couple of weeks.

I also have been collecting furniture for her space. The general idea being that she’ll own any furniture in her apartment, even if purchased by me, minus any that’s in my in-apartment office.

I’m trying to avoid any barriers to moving out, so that she doesn’t feel trapped should she ever want to break up, which doesn’t appear likely at the present.

Also, it turns out that I have likely been living with undiagnosed schizophrenia. I am working on treatment with my psychiatrist, but it definitely complicates things.
 
I walked in. My kept woman had tied herself to the bed naked. She doesn’t deserve me. I guess I can reward her, despite her inability to use GPS and scapegoating Burger King.
 
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ref2018 said:
Fetlife would be a great place for this sort of thing:
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I’m just documenting my odd polyamorous D/s thing going on. It organically came about, but I can’t discount my mental illness being an influence, given how much has changed in the last year.

I exist in two worlds. One with my best friend who turned out to be ultra compatible, including shared kinks. The other with my daughter and wife, who is a hardcore gamer and fangirl. The context switching is difficult.
 
I visited a house of sin with Dawn yesterday. She dragged me there under the false pretense that I would get to churn butter. When I saw Ringo Starr, I knew I was now among fallen.

Dawn was in her most modest garb. No leg was shown, though the hem of her dress scandalously exposed some ankle. She was sternly chastised.

Once she removed her long white glove and waved to the lead singer of Men at Work. The whore. She’ll have to scourge herself as punishment. We must be wary of temptation, it is not the poly way.
 
azurebonds said:
I took your advice and moved over there for D/s posts. I can keep this less sexual going forward and focus on the love aspects of my polycule. Thank you.
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azurebonds said:
I visited a house of sin with Dawn yesterday. She dragged me there under the false pretense that I would get to churn butter. When I saw Ringo Starr, I knew I was now among fallen.

Dawn was in her most modest garb. No leg was shown, though the hem of her dress scandalously exposed some ankle. She was sternly chastised.

Once she removed her long white glove and waved to the lead singer of Men at Work. The whore. She’ll have to scourge herself as punishment. We must be wary of temptation, it is not the poly way.
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I'm just wondering why you said you were moving to Fetlife with the D/s posts? Is it part of your mental illness, saying one thing then doing the opposite?
 
ref2018 said:
I'm just wondering why you said you were moving to Fetlife with the D/s posts? Is it part of your mental illness, saying one thing then doing the opposite?
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For clarification, that was a joke post. We saw Ringo Starr in concert. That’s all that happened.

Is there something specific that I have done to offend this community? Or am I not following the correct path here with polyamory? Or should posts be limited to the aspects that only are exclusively polyamory-related, if polyamory is constrained to the literal meaning of multiple loves, not sex?

Also, should others encounter it, the one thing that has bothered me here is the tendency to throw mental illness back at me in unrelated topics or to diminish me in some way. Is that the standard by which interactions should be conducted? Just something to think about.
 
azurebonds said:
For clarification, that was a joke post. We saw Ringo Starr in concert. That’s all that happened.

Is there something specific that I have done to offend this community? Or am I not following the correct path here with polyamory? Or should posts be limited to the aspects that only are exclusively polyamory-related, if polyamory is constrained to the literal meaning of multiple loves, not sex?

Also, should others encounter it, the one thing that has bothered me here is the tendency to throw mental illness back at me in unrelated topics or to diminish me in some way. Is that the standard by which interactions should be conducted? Just something to think about.
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Those are good questions. Here are our Guidelines:

User Guidelines

This forum was founded on the idea that communication, empathy, and the functional relationship skills so necessary for poly relationships should be fostered here. The primary rule of this board is for members to be considerate towards each other. Other guidelines for board members include (but...
polyamory.com

Basically, as mods and admins, we may remove material that we deem goes against the spirit of the board as we see fit. Blogs are kind of for venting or day to day records, but not usually used as a place to write out graphic sexual fantasies or to describe actual sexual experiences in great detail. We are sex-positive here, for sure, and we are a board for adults, but generally people tend to be fairly discreet.

Whether or not you are following the "correct" path with polyamory is not up to us. And you can talk about ordinary day-to-day happenings from your life all you want on your blog-- shopping, home repair, vacations, that you have a cold, got a new pet, whatever.

However, over on Fetlife, there's plenty of room for flirting, fantasizing, posting nudes, describing kinks, etc., etc.

As an example, seeing your gf say something emotionally open, and you responding with "fuck you" was a little jarring. (When two members of a couple are both members here and posting, or flirting, or even fighting, it can get awkward sometimes, as you might imagine.)

We've had plenty of people come here who've been through abuse cycles, so our radar is up.

As for your mental illness being thrown back at you, I don't see a "tendency" for that, just one question.
 
Magdlyn said:
Those are good questions. Here are our Guidelines:

User Guidelines

This forum was founded on the idea that communication, empathy, and the functional relationship skills so necessary for poly relationships should be fostered here. The primary rule of this board is for members to be considerate towards each other. Other guidelines for board members include (but...
polyamory.com

Basically, as mods and admins, we may remove material that we deem goes against the spirit of the board as we see fit. Blogs are kind of for venting or day to day records, but not usually used as a place to write out graphic sexual fantasies or to describe actual sexual experiences in great detail. We are sex-positive here, for sure, and we are a board for adults, but generally people tend to be fairly discreet.

Whether or not you are following the "correct" path with polyamory is not up to us. And you can talk about ordinary day-to-day happenings from your life all you want on your blog-- shopping, home repair, vacations, that you have a cold, got a new pet, whatever.

However, over on Fetlife, there's plenty of room for flirting, fantasizing, posting nudes, describing kinks, etc., etc.

As an example, seeing your gf say something emotionally open, and you responding with "fuck you" was a little jarring. (When two members of a couple are both members here and posting, or flirting, or even fighting, it can get awkward sometimes, as you might imagine.)

We've had plenty of people come here who've been through abuse cycles, so our radar is up.

As for your mental illness being thrown back at you, I don't see a "tendency" for that, just one question.
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That’s entirely fair. All content, even joking content, that could potentially be construed as D/s will be posted to FetLife.

As for the mental illness comments, we’ll have to agree to disagree, but I will be more proactive in calling it out as it occurs. It may be the memory of the tree vs the axe situation.
 
As for polyamory, I am on my return flight from Dawn’s. We had a good time seeing Ringo Starr together for our first concert. We also got to watch the Story of O, which was rightly scandalous when it came out in 75. We had pretty lazy days, but it was also fun just exploring the town together when we did go out.

Right now, everyone seems to be happy with the status quo; however, I, being a terrible worrier, am looking to Dawn’s move.

The whole experience has taught me that Jess is passionate about interior decorating. I have given her the upper two floors of the house to do what she will. Dawn controls the bottom floor and I my office.

I am hoping that the move is not a time bomb, but it’s kind of in motion already, so given that I am going to let what happens happen.

(More appropriate for this site?)
 
azurebonds said:
Also, it turns out that I have likely been living with undiagnosed schizophrenia. I am working on treatment with my psychiatrist, but it definitely complicates things
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I have to admit to my professional affiliation with this field, here. It's lateish on a Saturday night right now and maybe my inhibitions are loosened but I'd say that when someone has undiagnosed Schizophrenia which is a
A very specific diagnosis, the people around them are usually aware that is very, very wrong in a way they can't rationalise.

There are many countries now where you have you have to have a extensive and quite specific history of mental health problems to warrant that diagnosis over one that speaks of a more temporary spell of psychosis which can present very similarly and is situational rather than physiological or genetic.

I speak because in my field I'm hyper aware of people who have historically been given a misdiagnosis that led to inappropriate long term treatment. It's a double-edged sword.
 
SEASONEDpolyAgain said:
I have to admit to my professional affiliation with this field, here. It's lateish on a Saturday night right now and maybe my inhibitions are loosened but I'd say that when someone has undiagnosed Schizophrenia which is a
A very specific diagnosis, the people around them are usually aware that is very, very wrong in a way they can't rationalise.

There are many countries now where you have you have to have a extensive and quite specific history of mental health problems to warrant that diagnosis over one that speaks of a more temporary spell of psychosis which can present very similarly and is situational rather than physiological or genetic.

I speak because in my field I'm hyper aware of people who have historically been given a misdiagnosis that led to inappropriate long term treatment. It's a double-edged sword.
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Very interesting. I may have oversimplified as a layman, so I will speak to them about it in our next session.

Out of curiosity, do visual and auditory hallucinations present themselves in a general case of a temporary spell of psychosis?
 
azurebonds said:
Very interesting. I may have oversimplified as a layman, so I will speak to them about it in our next session.

Out of curiosity, do visual and auditory hallucinations present themselves in a general case of a temporary spell of psychosis?
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Yes they can. Someone can have a single spell of psychosis which includes all of those things. They recover, usually with medication for at least a short time, and then it never occurs again. Years ago, all of those people would receive a diagnosis of something like paranoid Schizophrenia.
 
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