Hello there, my name is Jo<3. I don't know what I am really. I did't know there was a word for what I feel until today. I am a soon to be 40 year old girl, yes I still feel like a girl. I have been married to my husband for 21 years. We live a very monogamist relationship. In the past I did cheat on him 2 sperate times. Though I never wanted to leave him. And still don't. I couldn't imagine him not being in my life. But I feel there is something lacking. Not from our relationship but within myself. I really have a pretty high sex drive and absolutely love to meet new people . My husband on the other hand has a med/ low sex drive and is very content watching a baseball game on tv with his dad. We have a pretty great sex life and he has started picking up some of my hints that I am more into bondage and the sorts than he really ever knew. .the thing with my husband is that he doesn't look at things the way alot of men, and some women do. That trying something new didn't mean that is what we would always do just something to see. Not that you can just "be poly". I know how I think he would react if I tried to bring it up...I think.
I just feel there is something missing. I do not ever want to lose this wonderful man but also don't want to live the rest of my like feeling like I missed something important. Mostly I just want to go on the occasional lunch date with someone and maybe kissing. Or a dinner night with maybe some kissing. I wouldn't reject the idea of him doing the same. But I would want to hear about it when we came home to each other.
So now the big big questions. Do I bring this up to him or just o hold on to it and never say a word. And if I do bring it up...what do I say?
I've been struggling with this for a while now. If I should be posted in a different section I apologize.
Thanks for taking the time to read my terribly long intro. <3 always Jo<3
I just feel there is something missing. I do not ever want to lose this wonderful man but also don't want to live the rest of my like feeling like I missed something important. Mostly I just want to go on the occasional lunch date with someone and maybe kissing. Or a dinner night with maybe some kissing. I wouldn't reject the idea of him doing the same. But I would want to hear about it when we came home to each other.
So now the big big questions. Do I bring this up to him or just o hold on to it and never say a word. And if I do bring it up...what do I say?
I've been struggling with this for a while now. If I should be posted in a different section I apologize.
Thanks for taking the time to read my terribly long intro. <3 always Jo<3