Is there ever going to be a week where I'm not feeling like it's a hell week? Am I that bad at my job that I need to be "on" this much and feel guilty when I'm "off"? I am curious for the change of workplace and find out just how different it will be. More students, more marking, but will there be less stress? Importantly, will being back at home (oh god, how long will it take to feel actually like home?) make a difference to how I relax? I feel like I'm so worn out that I'm wasting my personal time I could be getting fit, learning something new for myself, creating something, contributing something to another part of the world, not just my classroom. But I come home and stare at a screen. I actually remember my own high school days and it was exactly the same when I was a student. I'd use all my energy during the day, but back then I was better at doing my homework and meeting deadlines after a few hours of down time. Now, I can do that if I go back to my classroom and work there, but if I "take the night off" then I take it off everything. I need a truly fulfilling "hobby" - and that's never been my forte. Am I in the wrong job?